Dezire

I might mimic a passion that i do not feel, but I cannot mimic one that burns like fire.I'm your average everyday saint psycho supergoddhezs. I'm learning to despise false humility. (awwwyeah!) I'm not a freakin' crap that's why I love compliments. mwehehe. Thank you very much. I'll always be distinctive no matter how. I'm so into books, magz, dancin', parties..events..gigs..happenings, luxury cars, coffee, fashion, adventure, flowers, pillows, butterflies, ramp, mirrors, reflection, God, eternity, perfumes, serendipity, keepin' friends, cleanliness, shopping, bargains..(true), sleeping, cooking, sweet nothings, vanity, sophistication, passion for certain things, romantic candle lit dinner in a fancy 5 star hotel.., (bwahaha), magic, music, singing..though, make-ups, bags, shoes, micro-mini skirts!.. though, pink stuff.. but damn i hate it when people see me in pink.. how come i always end up wearin pink? i just hate it. I am so into everything i guess.. Im a dupe. Im a loner. Im nobody. I am so into you but don't bother, after all, it's just me.It is hard to show up for someone else when you don't know how to show up for yourself. How can you give of yourself when you don't really think you're anything worth giving? How can you extend your light when you don't really believe there is any in you? But the light in us is the light of God, and it's there because He put it there. Lack of self-esteem is more arrogant than it is humble, suggesting the idea that God somehow created junk.....come to think of it.