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About Me

If you MUST know, I'm just another citizen of the Universe actively committed to living a STRESS FREE life. Sounds simplistic I know, but it IS WORK and well WORTH every OUNCE of the blood, sweat, and tears I've put into it. A big part of this comes from knowing EXACTLY who I am and even more importantly, who I'm NOT. EVERYTHING I ever NEEDED lives INSIDE of me, as it always HAS. It's GREAT to have come full circle and not be the person that, largely due to my own denial never KNEW that. For what it's worth, I urge you not to fuck with MY happiness...I won't ALLOW it. We all have choices in life, and I CHOOSE to get the fuck out of my own way and just LIVE...rather than try to manipulate people and/or situations. It's NOT worth the shit it causes and it WILL come back to bite you in the ass. And don't LABEL me...I'm NOT some philisophical fuck. Need I remind you that I've arrived HERE without benefit of DRUGS or even worse, RELIGION? Which brings us to HATE...it's what's WRONG with the world and the ONLY epidemic we continue to IGNORE. I've learned SO MUCH tolerance (it IS absolutely LEARNED) and have acquired the patience of a serial killer...surely I can continue in my efforts NOT to FUEL or FEED HATE. I could sure use some help there but then again, it's NOT my place to coerce you or anyone else into being a better human being. If I inadvertantly do this, TRY not to hate on me for having borrowed a few of your faults without asking permission. (old habits die HARD) Having been injected with a lethal dose of mortality at birth, I fully ADMIT to being flawed. Believe it or not, I'm NOT a serious person. In FACT, I strongly urge you to cash in that useless 401-K and just BUY that fucking three-legged credenza you've been admiring in the pawnshop window...life is NOT about deprivation! It's more about KEEPING that glass half-full, so don't concern yourself too much with its contents...either DRINK UP or SHUT UP. Because SHIT WILL HAPPEN, to which I say...BOHICA! (Bend Over, Here it Comes Again!)

My Interests

I'd like to meet:

I'm fortunate enough to have FINALLY met MYSELF...it's AMAZING to actually BE the person I've always wanted to be but NEVER knew ALWAYS existed WITHIN. I'd LOVE to one day "re-introduce" myself to the people that never got the chance to know me for who I am NOW. Beyond that, I'd like to meet EVERYONE on the planet. If I see you on IRC, I'm more than happy to talk to you but do NOT pm me with that a/s/l SHIT...how the fuck much does someone really NEED to know to just have a conversation? And if you ask how big my tits are, I just might TELL you...I cut them off and sold them for acid because I'd rather hallucinate than lactate!

My Blog

The Bullshit BEFORE the Blog...

I haven't written anything in about two weeks...a self-imposed sabbatical, but in hindsight, not a good test of my discipline. It took me all of two days to figure out that writing did indeed st...
Posted by on Mon, 23 Oct 2006 12:00:00 GMT

NOT to SOUND PARANOID, but GODDAMMIT...(AGAIN, NOT for light readers)

OK, so I'm sitting here with a fucking leg cramp, and NOT to bitch or anything, but it HAS spawned a few thoughts I feel obligated to pass onto you. First of all, my Mom has INSISTED that I take...
Posted by on Mon, 23 Oct 2006 09:21:00 GMT

Dirty Pool...

When I moved back to Texas 2 years ago, I made a conscious decision not to fall back into the same lifestyle...new playground AND new playmates seemed like a good answer to that. And it IS ...
Posted by on Tue, 17 Oct 2006 03:10:00 GMT

Waiting for the Aliens...Part Six (lilmeanie, The Fugitive)

You know, in desperate times I find it quite extraordinary that I've been able to entertain exciting new ideas and theories to insulate myself from the cruelty of the world. It's Sanity-101 and ...
Posted by on Fri, 13 Oct 2006 09:23:00 GMT

Waiting for the Aliens...Part Five (The NOTORIOUS "Mr. Smith")

NOTE: This actually should've been posted BEFORE Part Four, but that's ok...it was an appropriate little segway that leads very nicely into this. Jess, I thank YOU more than anyone fo...
Posted by on Mon, 09 Oct 2006 10:46:00 GMT

Another Fucking Conspiracy...

It occurs to me that I left out a minor detail when discussing a certain Customs Agent with a friend recently. (you KNOW who you are) It's not that I intentionally set out to deceive anyon...
Posted by on Sat, 07 Oct 2006 13:02:00 GMT

Waiting for the Aliens...Part Four (lilmeanie Does Some Time)

So, NO NEWS on the alien front as of YET, but I have every faith that my plan WILL come to fruition. Pepper and I spend our days in reflective silence, mostly watching each other's body language...
Posted by on Fri, 06 Oct 2006 09:08:00 GMT

Waiting for the Aliens...Part Three (An Unlikely Hero)

Getting straight to the shit here...there was only ONE obvious recruit for this IMF undertaking. I want you all to WELCOME "Pepper" to MySpace and PLEASE, do NOT ADD her to your "friends".....
Posted by on Thu, 05 Oct 2006 04:59:00 GMT

Waiting for the Aliens...Part Two (I've Got A FUCKING PLAN)

Now you know that when you give up hope you DIE, and there was NO WAY I was letting this bastard rain on MY fucking parade. For all his pessimistic ranting, I actually felt quite sorry for ...
Posted by on Wed, 04 Oct 2006 10:58:00 GMT

Waiting for the Aliens...Part One (The Eye Doctor)

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Posted by on Tue, 03 Oct 2006 10:30:00 GMT