Stop! Go back to that track & rewind, or better yet turn it to that new radio station which is my mind....
*Welcome to my world of
.. ~+*HaZe*+~ ..
*Hmmm, do U ever like to just spark & take the scenic route? I used to drive around & just think, I miss that, no better way to loose yourself & relax. I'ma chill human-being, it takes too much energy to be angry, I hate negative energy it's so draining, life is too short. I like taking part in random acts of kindness & inspiring positive energy in those around me. Freinds & family comes first, I suppose I'll get around to worring about myself eventually, I'm just not that selfish person anymore, the world would be a better place if people were less selfish. I hate having money in my possesion, I don't know what my deal is w/ money but I'm always finding ways to give it away... desparately trying to get outta dept, buying things I don't need, things for other people, jelly beans, SNEAKERS (luv sneakers!!)... I'll spend it all til I got a dollar in my account, I think I need help. People think I'm a lil wierd, but I say that U have to be a lil wierd to be normal these days. LOL, remember them days in highschool when your only goal was to try to fit in, to be like every1 else.. I finally gave up. I don't know when it actaully happened that I became content w/ my life, but I'm happy now... don't need to impress anyone. It doesn't suck to be me :) I still have random bouts of depression,(though they don't last long)... something just ain't right, something is missing in my life, something I'm simply too lazy to persue. I need to stop making excuses & go after my passion, I think I'm real close to getting off the couch, it's never too late. Life is all about being happy, there are so many things that put little smiles on my face: going for rides to no-where on my motorcycle on a beautiful day,the way my dog runs around the house like a mad man & falls asleep in my lap, spending time w/ my disfunctional family, my nefew.. I love that lil kid. I love kids, but don't want any of my own (sorry mom). I have such a strong motherly instinct though, but I find that energy is better spent on animals, I'm a sucker for dogs. When I was little I said I'd buy a HUGE house & adopt all the poor lil dogs who didn't have someone to love them... LOL. I still have a lot of goals that I had when I was younger, I don't wanna grow up yet, I'm 29 & most people don't believe it, even I don't believe it, from time to time I actually forget! Damn how time flys... I miss all my old friends, I don't know why being a grown-up means leaving & loosing touch. I wish I was still in highschool, things were just so much simpler then. This page is dedicated to all the people in my life, past/present/and future.Each person that comes into your life makes you who you are today. Lets stay in touch.
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