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About Me


yeah, there's a method to my madness.
lover not a fighter; hopeless romantic. penniless comedian; always a median. twenty-one years lived and much to learn. i'm like my father. he always said to do what i feel is right, to look at the other side of the situation, to find empathy.
someone i hold very dear defines me as "all heart". i treat people how i would like to be treated for the most part, when it is under my control. i can be an emotional wreck and seemingly ignore anything and anyone. but my love for those i connect with on deep levels never falters or drifts from my mind. in fact, it's probably what keeps me going when i'm at my darkest hours. i am appreciated by these amazing few: my family and friends of many years; my soulmates.
yes, i do believe in soulmates.
i have a lot of uncertainty in my life regarding my future and my present, but i can no longer let my past take control.
i am sure of one thing through all of the uncertainty: i am worth knowing.
to be honest, i'm more of a facebook person.

My Interests

I'd like to meet:

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My Blog

I would change everything.

Hedley's new album is out and it's stirring up crazy emotions. "Dying to Live Again", tears are streaming down my face. I'm just thinking about the past six or so years of my life. Me and you, used t...
Posted by on Thu, 15 May 2008 08:46:00 GMT

Passions, and lackthereof.

I'm tired of being told I'm not good enough. Of course, it is never stated in that specific way. It's sugar-coated. "I wish you were different." "I wish you had passion." "I wish I could change you, f...
Posted by on Sun, 11 May 2008 15:52:00 GMT

Miniscule minds of clay to be shaped. This war has been reinstated.

I kind of feel like getting out of here... scratch that. I am crawling out of my fucking skin. I have been for years. But right now, I have little to trust. My father broke down on St. Patrick’s...
Posted by on Fri, 21 Mar 2008 13:55:00 GMT

It started out optimistic.

I just lost an awesome blog. At least it was becoming that. I started to open up. And now I'm left here defeated... because that's what I was talking about... coming out of being lost. Just to be lost...
Posted by on Sun, 24 Feb 2008 19:51:00 GMT

Got me ten feet off the ground.

Maybe it's been writers block, maybe it's been avoidance. Maybe it's true how I need this. I never forget anything Ariel says. Sometimes I need to be reminded, but it's always there. She told me to le...
Posted by on Mon, 17 Dec 2007 15:57:00 GMT

I am captivated, I am vindicated.

I'm so very lucky. I found an amazing woman who appreciates me, who really and truly loves me. Nothing has ever felt so good and so right. I spent so long being a doormat. I deserve this. When I touch...
Posted by on Thu, 15 Nov 2007 08:16:00 GMT

Trust kills.

I'm so angry and frustrated, I don't even think I'll be able to express myself. I'm feeling a wide array of emotions-- sadness, anger, confusion, helplessness, bitterness. If you call her and text her...
Posted by on Sun, 04 Nov 2007 21:39:00 GMT

BITCHES. edited for your approval.

Yeah, we are passed this.
Posted by on Sat, 03 Nov 2007 01:04:00 GMT

Lack of patience.

I'm overly impatient. It brings frustration, anger, avoidance. For example, I don't like waiting in lines. I don't like waiting for anything. I start to break down and sometimes I cry. It's ridiculous...
Posted by on Tue, 30 Oct 2007 19:25:00 GMT

Infinity, for Ariel.

A plethora of blue shades,that pensive pelagic huefill your eyes with a reflection;My stare will muddy the watersin your ocean waves.I've been held back by Neptune,restrained by Mars.The rising s...
Posted by on Thu, 11 Oct 2007 06:42:00 GMT