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names barbara, if u cant remember that then call me RioT. im pretty chill. i am the shit, you just dont know it yet, and you probably never will. not my fault, its yours completely. i get along with damn near everyone. its hard as hell to offend me, i dont really hang out with girls too often so you boys really can't say anything i haven't heard before. Nothing shocks me. I drink, i smoke, i am what i am. I'm brutally honest and won't lie about anything because there is no point in doing so. If u wanna know anything else message me, i'll answer anything truthfully. but don't come at me with questions about hookin up, fuckin, or shit like that. i dont know you, im not going to sleep with you. thats a easy way to get blocked. if i am interested in you, i will tell you so; dont assume that just because i added you i want you. very wrong. music is my fucking life. i support my friends wholeheartedly and unconditionally. and as bad as it sounds, music comes first in my life. so if you wanna hang out and there is a show that weekend, tough luck. i'll be at the show. keep it fucking brutal!!! i live for hoodies. i am a total hoodie whore, most girls like shoes and purses, i like hoodies. i idolize bettie page and duff goldman (cake genius!!)
"Dark for fear of failure an inner gloom as wide as an eye and fermenting roiling hate death grip in my veins unveiling rancid petals flowering forth foul nectar the space between a blink and a tear...death blooms."
I am the afterthought, the underappreciated, the unnoticed, the easily forgotten.
"Black Orchid" by blue october....Have you ever been so lonely, No one there to hold? Pull me in or disown me, And then climb inside. My arms are open wide. Have a look inside.It is not that I am scared to learn, Why I'm empty inside. hold my hand or show some concern, If I live or die. My eyes are open wide. Help me look inside.I hear the water drip from the faucet. It's sweetly falling in tune. I'm gently closing the closet. I fall to the floor, and crawl to my room. The thought of ending it soon... Just let me sleep in my room.Hear me cry! cry! cry! I hear a knock at the front door. Don't come in! I try to look at you But I can't stop shaking. Leave me alone. Just go away. Mother I'm so scared.Empty bed and all of the sheets are gone, They're wrapped around me and you. All is quiet but the drop of a gun. I want to belong...to someone... But maybe life's not for everyone
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i'd give my left nut (if i had nuts) to meet bettie page. shes a goddess among women, an angel that fell to the earth and is waitin for her ride back. no one compares to her. i love meeting new people, i will talk to anyone and everyone. i love to meet down to earth people-ones who aint gonna feed you a bunch of BS and expect you to let your world revolve around them. I'm all about the local metal scene so hit me up, i'll come check ya out. i love people i can actually hold an intelligent conversation with, people i can debate with about the world and religion (i love to debate about religion its kinda funny sometimes) i like meeting people who like to have a good time at all times, those who dont bring a whole heap of drama with em, people i feel like i could do anything for and they would do the same for me. Real people, dont come at me if your fake or a poser. Honest people.
Kenichi Matusyama!!!! love him. wanna have his babies!! sex god!!!

"My Pleasant Torture"- ill ninoWhy? Is everything starting to crumble? And all of my wrong was forgiven. I ask you why? I ask you who? Gave you the will to recover. When all of our love has been missing. I ask you why? I ask you who? Now turn to me and explicame ya. Just speak to me te lo pido yo. If you live for me pues protejeme ya.Now tell me Did you ever ask the sky? Not to cry no more. To fly no more. Did you ever ask the stars? Not to shine no more. To fly no more. Did you ever think that we would still remain together for so long? Is it what we wanted all along? Is it what we wanted for so long?How come we Have always held on to each other? Your here your gone and your leaving. I ask you why? And I tried but I Have never have thought that our passion. Would ever be hard to be stricken. Nunca pense. I ask you who? Now turn to me and explicame ya. Just speak to me te lo pido yo. If you live for me pues protejeme ya.Now tell me Did you ever ask the sky? Not to cry no more. To fly no more. Did you ever ask the stars? Not to shine no more. To fly no more. Did you ever think that we would still remain together for so long? Is it what we wanted all along? Is it what we wanted for so long?Now tell me Did you ever ask the sky? Not to cry no more. To fly no more. Did you ever ask the stars? Not to shine no more. To fly no more. Did you ever think that we would still remain together for so long? Is it what we wanted all along? Is it what we wanted for so long?
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"Numb"- ill ninoI loved you You were all that I wanted Then, I watched you Turn into someone elseWell I'm sick of the fighting I'm sick of just blaming myselfWell I'm sick of escaping I'm sick of erasingYour face and the places That give me a trace to youBut I will never find youI can't hold on I'm feeling numb From everything you do And put me through When I was part of youI'm feeling numb From holding on To everything that you Had put me through When I was part of youWell if I can deceive you Then why can't I leave you aloneWell if everything's painful Then why do I wait forYour face or the place That will give me a trace to youBut I will never find youI can't hold on I'm feeling numb From everything you do And put me through When I was part of youI'm feeling numb From holding on To everything that you Had put me through When I was part of youSiento el amor Siento el dolor Siento el amor Siento el calor Siento el amor Siento el dolorBut I will never find youI can't hold on I'm feeling numb From everything you do And put me through When I was part of youI'm feeling numb From holding on To everything that you Had put me through When I was part of you

My Blog

emotion sickness

so i came to this conclusion last night after someone making a playful comment along the lines of "we're just toying with your emotions..." (srsly, no harm was all in fun)but that statement brought me...
Posted by on Wed, 24 Jun 2009 06:41:00 GMT

emotion sickness

so i came to this conclusion last night after someone making a playful comment along the lines of "we're just toying with your emotions..." (srsly, no harm was all in fun)but that statement brought me...
Posted by on Wed, 24 Jun 2009 06:41:00 GMT

goddamn dilemma

when someone comes into life, how long are you supposed to wait before you can trust them? like is there some time limit that most of us are unaware of? i dont know. i'm pretty sure i dont have some i...
Posted by on Fri, 13 Mar 2009 08:24:00 GMT

let me feel your pain

sing to me your mournful sonnet of suffering and painwhisper the words of your tragedy to my everlistening earshare with me the darkness that consumes your worldlet me join you in your toilsome oblivi...
Posted by on Sun, 01 Mar 2009 20:00:00 GMT

scary actually.

it occured to me today that i have lost the will to sing. i've lost the will to fake smiles anymore.  i've lost the will to try anymore.i'm so fed up with trying to convince myself that its going to a...
Posted by on Sun, 22 Feb 2009 00:11:00 GMT

stupid romance movies

So i'm sitting here listening to some music that if there was a movie made of my life, i would kill to have it on the soundtrack. its got me thinking about what type of movie it would be and then what...
Posted by on Mon, 16 Feb 2009 18:14:00 GMT

the friend zone

the friend zone. a place that kind of sucks, but kind of doesn't.  its a weird spot to be stuck in and i seem to be stuck there all too often.  its my own fault really; if only i wasnt such a wuss and...
Posted by on Fri, 16 Jan 2009 06:59:00 GMT

Debatable Material....

So, today for some odd reason I am in a mood to debate things.  Life.  Religion.  Politics.  Ethics.  Really anything.  I just feel the need to debate (its obviously been a long time since I have had ...
Posted by on Fri, 09 Jan 2009 09:24:00 GMT

life, not a bowl of cherries.

Has anyone ever realized something that they were trying their damnedest to not notice.  Something you knew was there but you just didnt want to face.  Eventually you are going to be forced ...
Posted by on Mon, 15 Dec 2008 04:42:00 GMT

im writing a book. let me know what u think....

PROLOGUE   400 years.  Thats how long I have been stuck in this hell otherwise known as existance.  400 years.  And though the world has changed, many times over, I remain the same...
Posted by on Fri, 12 Dec 2008 20:42:00 GMT