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About Me

Im 19 and im a pretty kewl guy im white black and japanese. yet most of the time im mistaken for a hispanic or an italian. i hate drama. there is already enough in life why make it any harder to make it another day without worrying about stupid things. i have 3 older sisters. 2 are step and the oter is my real sister. i have 3 dogs and a fish. i love music and love to play my piano and guitar and sing all the time. I am like nobody else i am an idividual that likes to be themself. i always had a quote. "i can only be me because if im not who am i?" umm if u dont know already im gay. im originaly from pemberton and i miss them dearly i now go to rv. i always look at people from the inside out. i dont look what kind of clothes your wearing. i always believed that you should be equally nice to everyone and treat everyone with respect. i dont care what a person looks like on the outside only on the inside.although i do care about how they act. the people who have all the looks and all the physical beauty tend to be assholes on the inside. i have gone out with guys and most of them werent nice ppl. lol so i guess i am kinda attracted to the bad boy image lol. but i also like the good boys just as much. just havet gotten any yet. my favorite color is blue. lol odly i am colorblind but still have a fav color. ask and i will explain lol. i have alot of friends but am always looking for more ppl to talk to. very rarely do i not get along with someone. i may seem nice but plz for your own safty stay on my good side. i have recently gone clubbing and i absolutly love it. it was really amazing. nothing liek i had expected it to be like. so i guess u can say that is a new hobby. i try and keep my myspace updated so it may change OFTEN. i am always writing poetry so if u want read it. but be careful of its content i can not promise its all happy go lucky stuff. i can have just as a good time at home as i can out. it really depends on my mood. i am really easy to talk to so people generally come to me witht their problems and even if i cant help i am a great listener and i dont tell ppls business. i am a very free spirit. it is impossible to tame me. that does not mean i am an idiot either, it just means that i live like this is my last moment. i dont want to die in regret or fear.so i am very spontanious and if i acn do it i will.lol like i will want to go to the beach at 11:30 at night and if i have a way to i will go. i lve to drive so most likely i will be the one driving there. thats pretty much it im easy to get along with and if you want to know more about me just ask meMySpace tweaks and layouts at MusicTweak.

My Interests

I'd like to meet:

i would like to meet some more friends. you can never have too many! i have learned that forever means different things to different people. i have had friends that said they would be there forever but lasted only a few years. i have only a few really close good friends. they mean so much to me. a guy who means somthing to me.
GAY SURVEY! - You Should Really Only Take This if You're Queer...
...Background...
What's your name?: Ben
Where are you from?: NJ
How old are you?: 19
Gender?: male
Heritage/Race/Ethnicity?: lol other
Do you go to high school/college?: yes
Do you have a job?: yes
Do you have a vehicle?: yes
Are you Lesbian/Gay/Bisexual/Transgendered?: gay
Are you single/dating/in a relationship/rebounding?: single
...Homo Stuff...
When did you realize you were queer?: when i was 12-13
When was your first crush on a member of the same sex?: 12-13ish
Are you out?: yes
What was that like?: painful
Do your family/friends treat you differently?: kinda yea
Have you ever been discriminated against because you're a homosexual?: YES!
When was your first real gay relationship?: when i was like 13
Ever been really, really in love?: yes
How do you feel about gay marriage?: i believe in civil union but not marriage
Are you sick of kissing breeders' asses?? (for normalcy): lol no cuz i dont do it. fuck them
Do you think people "choose" to be gay, or that they're born this way?: born. why would someone choose a life like this?!?
Do you believe in the "gay gene"?: lol no
How do you feel about gay bars?: love them lol
How do you feel about queer movies/books?: lov them as weel. as long as they are not over the top
How do you feel about "fag hags" or people like them?: i have many so i love them as well
Are you proud?: hells yea!
...Your favorite...
Foods?: seafood
Books, authors?: jk rowling, steven king, interview with a vampire
Movies?: all of the above
Type of music?: anything
Bands?: none really
Musicians?: mozart
Qualities in the same sex?: respect, love, humor
Sights?: anything scenic
Feelings?: love
Smells?: sexy cologne
Sounds?: a manly voice and possible a good singer
Things to do in your free time?: sing, play piano, read, hang out with friends
Drinks?: lol ummmm i am going to say non alcoholic cuz i dont know who will see this
Quiet spot?: my head
Night spot?: room or club lol
Place to be kissed, touched..?: lol way too personal for here
...Do you...
Like, or play sports?: yes football i love to play with friends
Enjoy working out?: yes lifting the most
Play any instruments?: yes piano
Sing (well) ?: lol yes i would like to think so
Sing in the shower?: always
Prefer staying in or going out?: going out
Smoke?: sometimes
Care if people smoke when you don't?: no
Have tattoos?: yes! need more!
Have piercings?: yes
Honestly think a good personality, or good looks are more important?: they both have their important parts
Do anything creative?: i dunno
Have crazy ex's that are just insane?: lol i think i am the crazy ex
Like to dance?: yes
Get goofy and romantic? Explain...: lol ummmmmmmm i am alwasy goofy and always romantic so i guess i kinda intertwine them
Have any crushes?: eh kinda
Have a particular type?: masculine preferably
...What is...
Your biggest fear?: death of family
The most romantic thing anyone has ever done for you?: nothing
The most romantic thing you've ever done for someone?: lol i cant say way to embarassing
Something that makes you smile?: cute guys
Something that makes you laugh?: my biffle
The most important things to you?: friends
Your biggest ambitions?: to succeed in somthing and amke a positive difference
Your best qualities?: personality
Your worst qualities?: motivation skills
Your biggest turn-ons?: itelectual conversations
You biggest turn-offs?: muscle heads
The song that you relate the most to?: no idea. i dont think one has been made yet
The best thing you've ever done?: learned how to trust myself
The worst thing you've ever done?: cant say
Wrong with America?: lol lot but there is an equal amount of good and bad
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My Blog

ugghhhhhhhhh

i am facing the world, all by myself. no noe to guide me. no one to help. they claim i am irresponsible. they claim that i dont care. they say i shouldve picked another path. well they werent even the...
Posted by on Mon, 04 Aug 2008 11:02:00 GMT

lmao a great , memerable , fun night!

omg! i have had ont of the most amazing memerabla moments in my life!. ok so its around 8:30 9:00ish at night and all of a sudden the phone rings like five times but because my mom decided to use all ...
Posted by on Thu, 12 Jun 2008 01:38:00 GMT

Poem for Ghana Girl(you know who you are)

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Posted by on Tue, 10 Jun 2008 02:26:00 GMT

pains

Dear god, help me take away the pain. I cant take it any more. It feels like a million tiny paper cuts, or a thousand open sores. I cannot find an open wound. I do not see the red. &nbs...
Posted by on Sun, 08 Jun 2008 10:40:00 GMT

from 10things i hate about u

I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair.I hate the way you drive my car, I hate it when you stare. I hate your big dumb combat boots and the way you read my mind. I hate you so mu...
Posted by on Sun, 18 Feb 2007 16:07:00 GMT