Sick Twisted Version Of The Girl Next Door

About Me

Want my name?Ask it.
I dont add just anyone, and delete often.Otherwise, I'd have 908740 myspace "friends"
I am nothing spectacular,but if i pretend to be, you'll just find yourself believing it
Up until 2/3 months ago, i was in high disagreeance with druguse.Though once you start, its hard to go back. The rainbows colour has faded.
Im not on here often or long, i live a life outside a computer
Friends? Only the true ones bear value in my life. The rest? Either a good fuck or fun to do a line of coke with.
Im brutally effing honest. Dont like me? I dont care
Individuality is important. Be yourself-though in reality there has to be an extent- and i WILL push it as FAR as i can
Im openminded, spiritual and non judgementalbr>
I get strong vibes immediately.If youre one of the many "bad" vibes, youre done.
Still struggling to find my orientation, im 95% sure im a lesbian. Bash gays? I bash straights.
As for writing, that along with the writings of Rev.M.Manson pretty much saved my life.
I've been through every type of abuse possible, still neverending, my father was the spark to a fire since i was 9.Because of this, i have several mental disorders, one including MPD(multiple personality disorder)Crazy? Maybe..but who isnt? without it, i wouldnt be who i am today.
I play dumb(for many reasons) maybe youve noticed
Not everything is black and white, try searching for grey
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My Interests

I'd like to meet:

I believe in fate and choice.Sometimes our choices may lead us astray from our fate, but if it was meant to be, fate will lead you back to your destiny.De ja vu is a sign of this.Good or bad thigns happen for a reason, though in the end, whose ultimate fate is being determined?

Life is a constant struggle, and everyones got there own definition of the word;but within the struggle, if you cant find it in you to laugh you got nothing.Even if temporary,laughing takes it all away

I wish I could make fake people see; Looks, popularity or money arent whats most important. If you spend life trying to impress the people in it, you dont actually enjoy or see the precious rareities it has to offer.

Fuck labels, Im me. Unfortunately, everyone has a label, society makes it inevitable.Otherwise, how else does one know how to treat you?

To me, little things mean the world. Even the smallest of actions can say SO much

Piercings/Tats= hXc sexy

Moshpits? Pleeeeease. Physical pain turns me on

Videogames?OMFG, YES! Resident Evil all the way.

Anways, you can STOP reading my profile now. Havent you better things to do?

My Blog

Going back to my thoughts with the white rabbit

I used to think that I was schizophrenic, thinking the government was trying to monitor everyone, and that society was controlled by Corporations. Was big brother watching? Was corporate advertisi...
Posted by on Wed, 20 Aug 2008 22:18:00 GMT

Im sick of fakes thinking its cool to....

Say youre bisexual/gay or whatevPeople are constantly coming "out of the closet" saying there bi, namelywhen reallly, they're not.Ever notice the stereotypical thing that, basically all the "bi" peopl...
Posted by on Mon, 21 Jul 2008 09:21:00 GMT

another brick in the wall

&13;&10; This is the most beautiful girl in the world. I'm sure you'd agree. I love her SO much, but sadly I don't show it enough. Something inside of me is forcing me away from her, and I can...
Posted by on Mon, 12 May 2008 08:16:00 GMT

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is what ive beeni come on myspace shortly, ignore all messages,maybe post a bulletin or two, then leavei just dont feel the urge to talk with peoplebut i miss alot of you..and still care about those w...
Posted by on Wed, 07 May 2008 22:35:00 GMT

Victim Impact Statement

Hi. I'd introduce myself, but everybody here already knows. As far as you're concerned, I'm just another name on a piece of paper, proof of the endless sickness life can offer. I understand I must get...
Posted by on Mon, 21 Apr 2008 17:34:00 GMT

sweetest poem ever

Whether with blonde or black she holds everything i lack her smile hold my heart, it is my mid day sun and with every passing mile, my journeys almost done and, oh, the softest skin, i wish to kiss an...
Posted by on Fri, 11 Apr 2008 22:51:00 GMT

Daddy DID(before i discovered the "justice" system)

you will rot in your cell everything you feared, has now become so real suffering so lonely i turned the tables now dont you wish you were the father you always claimed? Justifying seemed lucid, alway...
Posted by on Fri, 28 Mar 2008 11:13:00 GMT

Indifference

As the days fly by tree branches turn to blades stretching towards the sky reaching to sever me As the days fly by clouds turn to black crashing towards earth, hoping i fall beneath its wrath As the d...
Posted by on Fri, 28 Mar 2008 11:04:00 GMT

I am Daisy Randone, Susanne Kaysen, Lisa Rowe

The walls are white its cold and bright typical of what you’d expect the rules extreme, its nothing the movies make it seem with a loss of boredom,shes resorted to insanity
Posted by on Fri, 28 Mar 2008 11:02:00 GMT

confused

she wrote me this then wrote me something else calling me a bitch..but i didnt read this til now : I dont want yu to be mad at me.I dont know exactly what i did. im sorry though.i cant fucking keep it...
Posted by on Tue, 04 Dec 2007 17:07:00 GMT