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thardus

survival never goes out of style...

About Me

.. live forever or die trying...

My Interests

music (listening to, writing & playing), reading, cooking & eating, good movies, cartoons, videogamesi like pretty much anything that will let me escape from my thoughts for a while... i like the moon through fog in graveyards and sunsets that look like the end is coming...(please,please,please) i believe in the zombie apocolypse and am trying to help bring it out about (no, really) sometimes the simpsons make me cry... i love my friends so much it hurts, but am bad at showing it... if you can find me, i will always share any smokes, whiskey or food i have...

I'd like to meet:

the lesson of the moth..... i was talking to a moth the other evening he was trying to break into an electric light bulb and fry himself on the wires...why do you fellows pull this stunt i asked him because it is the conventional thing for moths or why if that had been an uncovered candle instead of an electric light bulb you would now be a small unsightly cinder have you no sense...plenty of it he answered but at times we get tired of using it we get bored with the routine and crave beauty and excitement fire is beautiful and we know that if we get too close it will kill us but what does that matter it is better to be happy for a moment and be burned up with beauty than to live a long time and be bored all the while so we wad all our life up into one little roll and then we shoot the roll that is what life is for it is better to be a part of beauty for one instant and then cease to exist than to exist forever and never be a part of beauty our attitude toward life is come easy go easy we are like human beings used to be before they became too civilized to enjoy themselves...and before i could argue him out of his philosophy he went and immolated himself on a patent cigar lighter i do not agree with him myself i would rather have half the happiness and twice the longevity...but at the same time i wish there was something i wanted as badly as he wanted to fry himself...-archy

Music:

(no particular order): bill kiley, ryan donnelly, fugazi, low, bonnie 'prince' billy, nick drake, old mans child, ghost, tom waits, godspeed you black emperor!, outkast, sonic youth, the jesus lizard, girls against boys, tomahawk, notwist, pedro the lion, dr.dre, macha, black heart procession, blonde redhead, r.e.m., mr. bungle (and patton in general), ween, blur, doc watson, pixies, sixteen horsepower, unsane, the good the bad and the queen, r kelly's trapped in the closet...

Movies:

the big lebowski, undead, the reflecting skin, tekkonkinkreet, amores perros, audition, fido, sin city, crouching tiger hidden dragon, dawn of the dead, motogenocide, donnie darko, 28 days later, the house of yes, indiana jones trilogy, anything by david cronenberg, spinal tap, the prestige, zombie movies in general...

Television:

the simpsons(i can and occasionally do watch them for days on end), arrested development, family guy, invader zim, home movies, aqua teen hunger force...

Books:

everything by douglas adams (r.i.p.), the complete stories by franz kafka, chung kuo series by david wingrove, philip k dick, transmetropolitan, the family tree and the gate to women's country by sherri tepper (seriously, read these books... if you can't afford to buy them, let me know and i will send them to you), ishmael by daniel quinn, steppenwolf by herman hesse, the foundation/robot/empire novels by isaac asimov, lord of the rings by j.r.r. tolkien, uncle john's bathroom readers...

Heroes:

homer simpson, the dude, douglas adams, fugazi, for proving that you can make it in the music industry on your own terms and with out selling out... harrison ford, for being the sensitive bad ass we want to be...teachers, yeah, some of them suck, but it's one of the hardest, most unappreciated jobs out their, and among the most important, and there are lots of great teachers out there who are over worked and under payed... so why don't we spend more money on prisons and the military?

My Blog

sobriety is the curse of the thinking class

i feel as though my tolerance for drunk people has been waining... and yes i am aware that this might seem quite hypocritical to some of you... i miss how drinking was when we were kids, when even get...
Posted by thardus on Thu, 20 Dec 2007 03:44:00 PST

self destructo corey haims

it's quiet strange having had to experience the experiencial act of pulling yourself out of the pit you have from made for yourself from every layer of filth your personally had to scrub the rest of f...
Posted by thardus on Wed, 28 Nov 2007 02:19:00 PST

inside the somnia

fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck.....these are the nights that hurt the most... i'm not willing to drink anymore so i pass out, but i am too proud/retarded to take my ambien like a good little boy, and it's r...
Posted by thardus on Mon, 27 Nov 2006 05:44:00 PST

autobot

i think these days when i open the store and i get little>no sleep are the closest thing to being a robot... my brain reacts and my body moves, but i no longer have any control of what it does... i am...
Posted by thardus on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST