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Zivilian Jay

I AM the alpha-male and my name really is Zivilian.

About Me

I am Immortal

Fame itself has been described as a method to "achieve immortality", if only semantically, so that the name or works of a famous individual would "live on" after his or her death. This view of immortality places value on how one will be remembered by generations to come.
appetence, longing, lust, desire, yearning, passion

This is my destiny, my portal to immortality. Its to late to stop me my train has left the station. It only takes a minute of your time to realize I love life and everything in it. My passion for photography and the arts,It is only paralleled by my logic and innate ability of seeing through you.I look deep into ones eyes. Its a black and white difference between those who blindly stare back unsure of what to make of the situation.Or those who's pupil and iris are constantly changing focus but never moving. Unable to focus past two glass orbs into my soul.Thinking, analyzing wondering. As you think your starting to play games with my mind you don't stop to realize the board has already been played, your about to be checked. Wat seemed so easy now seems like a trap. A never ending battle through time, suddenly you panic. as if you couldn't breathe.Do u want to run and hide? Or do u want to be so close that you feel the adrenaline that is everything i am pass through you. Can you handle all i have to offer. Do you dare follow behind me into this world i have created, or will you boldly walk beside me and become one with those that will always be?

I am Immortal

Zivilian Photography

Comment Me

Sometimes I play dead, Fully aware of the situation around me. Your the one whos going to end up letting your guard down.And when u do. Ill strike you down.

My Interests

Idc what u think of me. if u think im some emo fucker and think
all i do is whine on my page. well.. get the fuck over it. its
myspace. hence MY space. so get the fuck out if u dont
like it. alright?

I Dont trust anyone anymore. and im scared.

Basicly my life sucks iv went threw so much bullshit, just to get hurt
over n over n over. It sucks. Nobody can be honest with anyone
anymore. Just about everyone i know lies n cheats and lies some
more. Iv lost all my friends pretty much sept for a few . thoses are
my bestfriends. there still here. every1 else has shown there true
colors Im never going to trust anyone fully again. Not for a LONG
time atleast.. But then again im not done yet either. Iv delt with this
shit this a long time. Im sure as hell not going anywere now.

I never give up on something i belive in. ever..
so yea im still here. . So basicly

im here. im waiting. ill keep fighting this endless bullshit
bc thats what iv alwasy done. and its all worth it.

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I dont even have the same group of friends anymore. i got 2 bestfriends really
they havnt fucked me over. and theyve always been there reguardless.. No matter
how fucked up and crazy my plan is. they go with it.




Alex Kopp!
My fucken partner in crime. fuck with us. and ul find urself on the easy backhand of
the biggest prank ever imagined.

PAUL This fucken asian is always fucken there. PERIOD. always ready . Never leave home without him hes like a one man asian army! Exspecialy since he really IS in the army now ;) lol.

SO w/e im not going anywere think what u will

loyalty and honor is everything to me
im faithful to a fault..
hopeless romantic
u know were i stand

dont abuse it



I'd like to meet:


Music:

anything shirley likes sike not really well i do but mostly rcknroll or heavy metal u knowhammerfall blind guardian and all thoses other awesome bands

Movies:

The Tao of Gung Fu, Bruce Lee:The Legend, Chinese Connection, Enter the Dragon, Fists of Fury, Game of Death, Return of the Dragon, Way of the Little Dragon, Bruce Lee the Lost Interview, Shirley, Fist of Fear, Touch of Death, Return of Fist of Fury,Shaolin Temple, Born to Defend, Dragon Fight, The Master, Fong Sai Yuk, Fong Sai Yuk 2, Last Hero in China, Bodyguard from Beijing, Fist of Legend, Black Mask, Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon, Hero, Grave of the fireflies, Spirited away, Totoro!!!!!! word...., Ghost in the shell, Green Mile, Saveing Private Ryan, Resident evil, Don Juan Demarco,

Television:

SHIRLEY SHIRLEY SHIRLEY SHIRLEY SHIRLEY SHIRLEY SHIRLEY SHIRLEY SHIRLEY SHIRLEY SHIRLEY SHIRLEY SHIRLEY SHIRLEY SHIRLEY SHIRLEY SHIRLEY SHIRLEY SHIRLEY SHIRLEY SHIRLEY SHIRLEY SHIRLEY SHIRLEY SHIRLEY SHIRLEY SHIRLEY SHIRLEY SHIRLEY SHIRLEY SHIRLEY SHIRLEY SHIRLEY SHIRLEY SHIRLEY SHIRLEY SHIRLEY SHIRLEY SHIRLEY

Books:

Another one got caught today, it's all over the papers. "Teenager Arrested in Computer Crime Scandal", "Hacker Arrested after Bank Tampering"...

Damn kids. They're all alike

But did you, in your three-piece psychology and 1950's technobrain, ever take a look behind the eyes of the hacker? Did you ever wonder what made him tick, what forces shaped him, what may have molded him? I am a hacker, enter my world...

Mine is a world that begins with school... I'm smarter than most of the other kids, this crap they teach us bores me..

Damn underachiever. They're all alike

I'm in high school. I've listened to teachers explain for the fifteenth time how to reduce a fraction. I understand it. "No, Ms. B, I didn't show my work. I did it in my head..."

Damn kid. Probably copied it. They're all alike.

But one day i made a discovery. I found a computer. Wait a second, this is cool. It does what I want it to. If it makes a mistake, it's because I screwed it up. Not because it doesn't like me . ..

Or feels threatened by me..

Or thinks I'm a smart ass...

Or doesn't like teaching and shouldn't be here..

Damn kid. All he does is play games. They're all alike

And then it happened... a door opened to a world... rushing through the phone line like heroin through an addict's veins, an electronic pulse is sent out, a refuge from the day-to-day incompetencies is sought... a board is found.

"This is it... this is where I belong..."

I know everyone here... even if I've never met them, never talked to them, may never hear from them again... I know you all...

Damn kid. Tying up the phone line again. They're all alike..

You bet your ass we're all alike.. we've been spoon-fed baby food at school when we hungered for steak... the bits of meat that you did let slip through were pre-chewed and tasteless. We've been dominated by sadists, or ignored by the apathetic. The few that had something to teach found us willing pupils, but those few are like drops of water in the desert.

This is our world now... the world of the electron and the switch, the beauty of the baud. We make use of a service already existing without paying for what could be dirt-cheap if it wasn't run by profiteering gluttons, and you call us criminals. We explore.. and you call us criminals. We seek after knowledge.. and you call us criminals. We exist without skin color, without nationality, without religious bias... and you call us criminals. You build atomic bombs, you wage wars, you murder, cheat, and lie to us and try to make us believe it's for our own good, yet we're the criminals.

Yes, I am a criminal. My crime is that of curiosity. My crime is that of judging people by what they say and think, not what they look like. My crime is that of outsmarting you, something that you will never forgive me for.

I am a hacker, and this is my manifesto. You may stop this individual, but you can't stop us all... after all, we're all alike /p

Heroes:

If you only understood

how much it truly hurts

to hear your words

then see them elsewere.....

im sorry i dont comprehend

how love can work this way.


love is |1|+|1|=|2|
not 1+2=3-1=2+1-1+1-1

My Blog

im sorry, hell no fuck that

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Posted by This Ninja Waits........ on Sun, 01 Apr 2007 11:31:00 PST

EH

Man latly i jsut feel stupid like i cant do anythign right and ia lways screw shit up i guess i am retarded iuno   =/ 
Posted by This Ninja Waits........ on Sat, 03 Jun 2006 09:14:00 PST

FOOLED AGAIN

once again i have been duped i guess i kidna feel like all my insides are turned upside down and i feel like crap but this isnt the first tiem so i might as well get over it if i can =( no more ma...
Posted by This Ninja Waits........ on Wed, 08 Mar 2006 08:09:00 PST

O Man

i met this girl shes pretty much to sum it up straight up amazing like magic thats it period !
Posted by This Ninja Waits........ on Tue, 21 Feb 2006 04:32:00 PST

Keep Marching On

seems like i cant seem to keep anyone close to me anymore =/  everyone finds an escuse to leave me it sucks =/ i wish i could jsut find somone who accualy truthfully liked me and wanted to be wit...
Posted by This Ninja Waits........ on Wed, 18 Jan 2006 05:01:00 PST

Stupid Survey

: Fill it out.....Body: y=yesn=noTHERE IS NO MABYWOULD YOU...[_] give me your number? (_ _ _) _ _ _- _ _ _ _[_] kiss me?[_] let me kiss you?[_] want to get in my pants?[_] watch a movie with me?[_] ta...
Posted by This Ninja Waits........ on Mon, 15 Aug 2005 01:37:00 PST

Casiann

is back niggers i love her to death
Posted by This Ninja Waits........ on Sun, 14 Aug 2005 10:59:00 PST

Sum up the summer

school starts again.. on monday... bleh i dont want it to thsi summer was awesome with my friends... sam and me.. tore up the neighborhood plenty of times...lots of videos lots of fun the summer c...
Posted by This Ninja Waits........ on Sat, 13 Aug 2005 09:45:00 PST

FUCK FUCK GO TO HELL

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK ...
Posted by This Ninja Waits........ on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

R.I.P Chewie

My hampster chewie died in the prime of his hampsterhood =( may he rest in peace
Posted by This Ninja Waits........ on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST