Where do I begin? My life has not been normal to any means, Up until October 1st, 2005. (my 35th birthday) EVERYTHING CHANGED!!!!!!!!! I did not believe in anything, including myself with the circumstances that I have had, Trying to acquire the American dream, WHAT A LIE!! The media sold it and I bought it, hook line and sinker. Looking for happiness outside myself thinking that if I had the right car, the high paying job, the right physical appearance, the right living circumstances, the right partner and friends I would be happy. I spent most if not all of my time adjusting the external world, trying to make it conform to my wishes, surrounding myself with the things and people that made me feel comfortable, secure or stimulated, and yet could not find lasting happiness. Alcohol and drugs were an escape, that made my life an even more personal hell. I was at my ropes end, in total frustration I finally surrendered, the something very profound happened-
I was AWAKENED to ALL THAT IS followed by forty days of visions and an experience with death that I survived to share about.Happiness is a state of mind, not found in external conditions. The real source of happiness lies within and not in external circumstances.I put my energy into what I do want in life and that is to be able to live life without limitations, an unconditional person, I know who I am, I have a total different outlook on life with my experience with death, and willing to express what I see life really about, living happy joyous and free, from the constraints of past beliefs from the mind.
What I see in the world today is upsetting most everyone associating who they are by what they have, millions of people living as foes, Is it not to late to learn how to love instead of hate? Appearances are very deceiving, I am a real as they come most cannot handle my honesty, I have nothing to hide, we all have something to learn from one another, from past failures to accomplishments, and future goals and aspirations. I am on my way to the top, and not willing to settle for less.Remember we are one!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
