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we live in the sunlit world of what we believe to be reality. But...there is, unseen by most, an underworld, a place that is just as real, but not as brightly lit...a Darkside.
There’s things about me you don’t know. Things you wouldn’t understand. Things you couldn’t understand. Things you shouldn’t understand.
I am a "idea" person, who sees everyone and everything as part of an often bizarre cosmic whole (butterfly effect). I&..39;m Kind.. warm.. I like to help (at least, my own definition of "help") other people, I have no idea - maybe its something DEEP DEEP DEEP - back to my childhood.. . It just makes me happy - to make other people happy.. My way of showing I " care " to those who I truly do care about.. Anyway moving on.. and leaving the corny crap behind. I tend to be a contradiction; an extroverted introvert. I am extremely driven and overly lazy . I Don't want to know.. What's going to happen next.. just let it happen - because i enjoy it.. Yeah, i love the feeling.. of not knowing.. but knowing, everything will work out.. ( am i making any sense ? ) . I live for surprises.. Romance... all the " little things " the corny love movies.. that I know will one day become a reality.. I live for Love.. not the stupid .. yeah we've been dating for 3 weeks now ! i think i love u ! - No.. none of that crap.. that feeling, Of not being able to live without her.. the kind, that no matter where you are.. What your doing.. she’s on your mind.. the kind where, you know each other so well/ have such a deep connection.. You could be anywhere.. and if you feel a certain way.. or she does, One look.. and you understand.. You just understand how she feels.. and when your having a bad day..just hearing her voice, Makes everything better.. the kind where she’s not just your lover.. she’s your " best friend " and that's how i feel about "my chimp
I think too much.. About everything.. and nothing. Useless retarded things that make don't even matter.. I wonder what if too much... I think about my past and those who were in it too much.. I'm too curious..I ask way too many questions. I hate when people think they have you all figured out.. You don't.. trust me.. When you think you do.. I'll change on you ..
"I accept Chaos, I'm not sure if it accepts me." -- Bob Dylan
I've been through quite a lot this past year.. I've thought about a lot of things.. things I should have/ could've.. done. - Differently. Regrets. They say " don't dwell on your past.. live life.. and move on " but of course.. As all quotes.. a lot easier said.. then done. I'm honest.. But i'm not Blunt, I tend to tell the truth, In a nice manner.. " sugar coated " as they say, But no - that's not what it Is.... The way a person speaks, can be just beautiful.. the style, the words they choose to use.. the way they say it / put it. Its just important to me.. that my friends.. are people who actually, have manners.. Who know how to talk –
I'm really not as bitter as i sound.. I promise :] People take a first glance at me and think "badass" cuz of my size but in reality im just like a Teddy Bear... tough in the outside but soft in the inside.
I've cared for those who don't care for me. I have regrets, I've lived my dreams. I once won her heart, she then who broke mine. I think about every minute of my day, and some of those minutes i waste. I have friends.. yet only a few " true " ones. I have been fake ( we all can't say we haven't ) but to those who mattered I haven't. I love to be around alot of people, and i love being alone. I have taken things for granted. I've hung with the wrong people, then i've hung with the right. i've lied, i've told the truth. I've created.. then i've destroyed. I used to walk hand in hand, but now i walk alone. I've walked away, but then i ran back. I've explored, then I've hidden. I've spoken from my heart, I've spoken from my mind, I see how it is, and I say how they are. I say I don't follow anyone, yet in reality we all follow each other. I've stolen.. I've given. I've changed and ruin lives. I've helped others, who I know will never help me. I've been all talk, but then i've proven my word. I'm a go - ge tter. I'm a lagger, I'm driven. I've procrastinated, I've achieved.. but also failed. I've met people who I never believed would hurt me, but in the end I found the last tear down my cheek. If i've learned from my mistakes.. then why must i keep making them? I've been ignorant, i've been open minded. I've taken advantage, and also been taken advantage of. There's been times i've been right.. and there's been times where im right again =]. I've taken things into consideration, yet failed to consider the important things. I don't prioritize, but i know my priorities. I'm immature, but i've grown up in more ways then others. I think .. i live .. i love.
This is who I am. Accept it because I don't change for anyone but myself. Whether you want to be friends with me or not it's your lost, I'm just being real.
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