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Annie

I'm flippin' fantabulous...in layers...like pastry or something else deliciously flakey.

About Me

I’m complicated like all life here, gaining confidence and contradicting my ego at every turn…I’m a rebellious follower and a rogue conformer. I’m a charming bore; senile and competent; and, a bit hard to tie down (lies, all lies). I prefer jobs that torture rather than please because in the end, they reap the highest rewards. I’m pleasantly unhappy or sadly ecstatic. I prefer to drink and eat meat, but abstain and then over-do. So, my sister has dubbed me, “a closet carnivore.” I can be loving and loyal to a fault, if you’ve broken my nutshell. I hate and love things in the same minute. I am easily pleased and yet so dissatisfied with myself. I’m cocky and deserve a notch down or two. Yet, give me praise, I am worthy. I’ve hated living and therefore sense the greater meaning of life; I’ve loved living and therefore fear the certainty of death. I’m wired like a film noir. I live a picturesque existence. I wish for the world to change, for kindness to spread and multiply like reality TV, like religion, like grief. I’m patient. I’m stubborn. I’m a good person. I love dichotomy and the grey inbetween. I worship it like a belief. We are not the sum of one opinion. I’ve loved a stranger and hated a friend. I am human. We are human. And we are drunken monkeys…clumsy with the heart of the world. I will hug you. I will love you. I will be distant. I will be present. I welcome you as a teacher. Fill my sweet life, so that I may drink more. For it is in giving that we receive…and I’m willing and open !

My Interests


I'd like to meet:

Dakinis, angels, darlins, people, an end to suffering, all the enlightened and not-so-enlightened beings, great friends, ghosts-of-lives-past, livers and diers, freedom, God, a new version of me...and you. OH! and Nerdfighters.

Books:

Handbooks on how to save lives.

Heroes:

Green Tara (Infinite Compassion)
Bex...My Life Couch...on the Left. Joseph Campbell The lady with the lamp...Florence Nightingale Lily Tomlin

My Blog

Solidifying a Feeling.

I was reminded of a quote of the Dalai Lama today that says you do not have to love everyone, but can you just try not hurt anyone.  I remember this idea being the center of all my interact...
Posted by Annie on Tue, 14 Oct 2008 02:26:00 PST

Too Bad Im a Neurotic

In the last couple months, I've never been so aware of my budding relationship insecurities...I think because most of my past relationships and even close friendships have begun more li...
Posted by Annie on Thu, 03 Jul 2008 01:10:00 PST

Jesus would drive a Smart Car

I had to rent a Toyota Highlander...cuz my car was trying to go KAPLOOIE.  So for a day, I was that lady that drives around in an SUV who has no children and/or dogs...just an insane ne...
Posted by Annie on Sun, 15 Jun 2008 05:03:00 PST

Good food and booze...yes please!

I'm having this internal obsession about dinner parties.  See, I gained a group of friends in the last couple of months...and many are deliciously retarded foodies.  So not only are the...
Posted by Annie on Mon, 09 Jun 2008 04:48:00 PST

Sweet Potato: Part Uno

Short story of how a Sweet Potato kicked prudence in the right tit...which is to say, the correct tit.  A month or so ago an unexpected Chicagoan sent me a text message a...
Posted by Annie on Tue, 15 Apr 2008 12:00:00 PST

Fairy Dust, Fairy Dust, Fairy Dust!

Life appears to be treating me well...of course I’m always looking for the beer in its hand and the left raised in a backhand formation.  Blessed be, to the karma machine.  My n...
Posted by Annie on Mon, 07 Apr 2008 11:29:00 PST

Hers and Hers

I signed all these things...to get a new place today.  Gave them money orders...and am patiently waiting to pass the credit check.  The rest of the evening has been spent doing the...
Posted by Annie on Wed, 20 Feb 2008 02:05:00 PST

Asshats and Uprisings

Karmic uprisings are occurring. I've hurt a few people in my life immensely and have watched them survive to be better people.  I always thought that I, being the evil grain that made that pearl,...
Posted by Annie on Wed, 16 Jan 2008 11:03:00 PST

I Heart Jesus

My 4-year-old neice informed a couple of weeks ago that Jesus was not dead like our dog Penny but that He lives in our hearts.  I don't know what brought that out of her from Kelly and ...
Posted by Annie on Thu, 20 Dec 2007 11:58:00 PST

From the Trenches

I feel like all I do is sleep, distract myself with various electronics, work and talk about how my relationships are not working.  The welbutrin failed miserably...I spent three hours in a hore...
Posted by Annie on Wed, 05 Dec 2007 01:53:00 PST