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...pathetic am i...

Alone people will always be alone... - an old friend

About Me

I am a little cute brown kid, who always seems to find himself in the deep depressed existance, called life. Not much to say but that i really care bout the things that go on around me, but i have this reputation as an "asshole" and i am but for those who know me, i am the best person in the world. I am not sure why i live, i used to have a reason but that was thrown in my face and i have almost come to terms with the fact that i am useless and no one can ever love me. Pessimistic is the word most can say describes me but i prefer the word "realistic" cuz the world is not a fuckin fairy tale and it took me awhile to realize that but it is something that rules my life. There is much i can say and everyone knows that but it means nothing cuz i am me and i am...well that is all preception. Many see me differently and i don't agree with any but i can't control others opinions cuz that is what makes them who they are and i am no one to say they are wrong or right. Eh...shit happens every damn day and i like to be prepared for that stupid shit. Well...i will end with this "Life is a ..." you fill in the blank cuz it is your blank and no one elses...

My Interests

Work, video games, rain, sky, tree, everything that emcompasses this world and adds beauty to it will always keep my mind going.

I'd like to meet:

Doesn't really matter...i am just waiting to die...

Music:

Ok...Metallica, The Used, Counting Crows, The Early November, Nevea Tears, Motion City Soundtrack, Third Eye Blind, The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, Beck, Metric, Devendra Benhart, The Academy Is..., Say ANything, UnderOath, Aqualung, The Flaming Lips, The Fray, The Format, Azure Ray, Halifax, Utada Hikaru, Taking Back Sunday, Plain White T's, Rise Aganist, All American Rejects, Bloc Party, Damien Rice, Story of the Year, Flyleaf, Firescape, Punchline, JM, Armor for Sleep, Emanuel, Choidos, Northstar, Name Taken, RCHP, Silverstein, Lupe Fiasco, Dashboard Confessional, Senses Fail, Brand New, Blink 182, Saosin, Thursday, The Velvet Underground, Tegan and Sara, Modest Mouse, 30 Seconds to MArs, A Change of Pace, Al Green, And Then I Turned Seven, Beck, Blue October, Cartel, Cary Brothers, Coldplay, Death Cab for Cutie, The Decemberists, Flyleaf, Frou Frou, Gym Class Heros, I Love You But I've Chosen Darkness, Jenny Lewis, The Shins, Tilly and the Wall, The White Stripes, Wolf Parade, Hawthorne Heights, ATDI, Blood Brothers, Bleed the DReam, Fall Out Boy, From First to LAst, Boys Night Out, Dave Melillo, A Static Lullaby, Bane, Across Five Aprils, People in Planes, Amber Pacific, Yellowcard, Angels and Airwaves, Rage Against the Machine, Emery, ANberlin, MArvin GAye, Incubus, Holly Brook, Sparta, Greely Estates, Bayside, Just Surrender, Box Car Racer, Rilo Kiley, Hidden in Plain View, Houston Calls, Foo Fighters, Slipknot, Pantara, AC/DC, Iron MAdian, Nirvana, Staind, Kayne West, Korn, Pink Floyd, Zepplin, Hey Mercedes, Smashing Pumpkins, Rolling Stones, Danger mOuse, The Starting lIne, Track Record, Fuel, Jack Johnson, Jets to Brazil, Thrice, Anna Nalick, Matisyahu, Jimmy Eat World, Straylight Run, I am the Pilot, I am the Avalance, Clap Your Hands Say Yeah, Our Lady Peace, Mudvayne, Sinai Beach, MAntis, Paramore, Matchbook Romance, Secret HAndshake, SR-71, Ben Harper, The Working Title, Eagles, Rob Thomas, Matchbook 20, Postal Service, The Spill Canvas, The Darkness, Jet, From Autumn to Ashes, Hatebreed, He is Legend, Count the Stars, A Change of Pace, Rufio, Spitalfield, a Dozen Furies, Saves the DAy, Train, Hoobastank, Midtown, lostprophets, Smile Empty Soul, MC LArs, MC Chris, Secret Lives of the Freemasons, MCR, Brandtson, Bury Your Dead, Killswitch Engage, demon Hunter, Funeral for a Friend, James Blunt, Jamisonparker, The Bled, The Chariot, Unearth, Hopesfall, All Time Low, Showbread, The Killing Tree, Evergreen Terrace, Fort Minor, Linkin Park, Circa Survive, A Thorn for Every Heart, System of a Down, Limp Bizkit, Death from above 1979, The Black MAria, Joe Wilson, Static-X, Sounds of ANimals Fighting, Imogen Heap, Augustana, The Submarines, Thom Yorke, Scary Kids Scaring Kids, A Wilhelm Scream, Lamb of God, XTC, Animal Collective, LIve, Pearl Jam, Lifehouse, It dies Today, Every time i die, Finch, Choose your side, So They Say, the Fully down, Stretch Arm Strong, The Receiving End of Sirens, You inSeries, 18 visions...and lots, lots more...

Movies:

Disney, Kevin Smith, Quentin, samurais, anime...also just make me laugh and cry and i will like it

Television:

Cartoon Network, Toon Disney...that's bout it. Oh now i must add one of the most elite shows ever...LOST!!!

Books:

not much for reading...

Heroes:

Jeff...and of course DEATH but mainly Jeff...

My Blog

my hope restored

Aliveby RaikoEveryone makes mistakes at timesIt's not something embarrassingDon't waste these scarsKeep on going laughing, and it'll all be good(RAP)That's right, breathe in a silent breathLook to the...
Posted by ...pathetic am i... on Wed, 17 Jan 2007 11:39:00 PST

holding dear...

Grey RoomWell I've been here before, I've sat on the floor, In a grey grey room, Where I stay in all day, I don't eat, but I play, With this grey grey food, Desole, If someone is prayin', Then I might...
Posted by ...pathetic am i... on Mon, 11 Dec 2006 12:06:00 PST

the shit i think bout...

"Can't Be Saved" Follow your bliss, it reads on my chest. I know I got it tattooed for a reason. Why can't I just hold it true? 'Cause I'm still crashing all the funerals Of these people that I nev...
Posted by ...pathetic am i... on Sat, 11 Nov 2006 02:03:00 PST

all i really wanted...

all i really wanted was for you to... Don't Confess Tegan And Sara Don't think i'll confess Don't think i'll confess that i Don't think i'll deny Don't think i'll deny that i Don't be so hard on yours...
Posted by ...pathetic am i... on Wed, 18 Oct 2006 07:11:00 PST

Purpose...

It seems that I have found somewhat of a purpose in my sad existence...to help you.* you being anyone who reads this...so just ask and i am sure i can help cuz that is what i am here for...i am only h...
Posted by ...pathetic am i... on Fri, 13 Oct 2006 07:18:00 PST

Mario VS MArio

two different people...two different lovesLa Professor La Fille DanseWell I don't know if I'm wrong 'Cause she's only just gone Here's to another relationship Bombed by my excellent breed of gamete di...
Posted by ...pathetic am i... on Sat, 07 Oct 2006 12:29:00 PST

thoughts...

to live is to die and to die is to live well then...which do i perfer? i am not really finding any clarity in life anymore so i decided to say fuck it and go with the flow...i feel there is only one p...
Posted by ...pathetic am i... on Tue, 03 Oct 2006 12:31:00 PST

in an attempt to understand...

Lately i can't really think or speak...at least not like i used to and those who know me and talk to me know what i am talking bout. I can't figure it out...it is just a bit strange to be quiet for aw...
Posted by ...pathetic am i... on Tue, 19 Sep 2006 12:17:00 PST

Some Mix for the Beaner...

E made me a cd on 6/11/06 at 1:30 in the morning while we were on the phone...i didn't know what she was doing but she said she was making me something. I was thinking it was that really good hot coco...
Posted by ...pathetic am i... on Tue, 05 Sep 2006 12:48:00 PST

The Passion of the Christ

Ok...for all those who know me, you know i have a strong distaste for religion and all that emcompass it. I have just watched the Passion of the Christ, or as i call it the Passion of the Jesus, again...
Posted by ...pathetic am i... on Mon, 28 Aug 2006 08:44:00 PST