Another year of travelling the world.. attempting to be inspirational.. learning who I'm not.. and who I am.. and who I want to be.. How my life is meant to be lived out of an understanding of who Jesus is.. and how it is.. and how it isn't yet.. But if I could say who I want to be thats probably better than who I actually am cos it doesn't always measure up. I want my life to point to Jesus.. to not just be lived out of a safe understanding of value and principle but for it be a determined representation of the guy who lived and died for me, who gives me life, value, identity, future and a hope.. who didn't take the easy option, but is all guts and soul... and thats what I want my life to be... to live for Him and to live for others.. and to care.. and to let my heart get broken again and again and again by what I see around me... and to fight... for life for others, for justice, for whats 'right' and I believe.. despite being told so many times that its not true.. that there is 'right'.... I don't have a big plan, a strategy, objectives.. any of those things that give credibility, reputation.. and even legitimacy.. maybe I'm not legitimate... but.. in my own way I want my life to count.. I want it to be real.. I want to live for more than myself...
