Colin

I want to be of service. I want to help people where they are, to get them to reach for things they've only dreamed of, or give them the means of which to reach their dreams and goals. I want to defend every kid that was ever picked on in school because I was too, and I was also the guy who picked on others. I've a ways to go in figuring out who I am. I am full of dreams and visions, ideas and concepts. What I lack is initiative. Some would call me a dreamer. Some would call me a do-er. Some would say I lack motivation. In that sense, I don't believe I lack motive, I lack direction. I don't know where to start. Sometimes I get all caught up in trying to figure out where would be the best way to go and don't even to manage to put on foot forward. I love God, and aspire to do so with all of my being. I don't question his existence, although I undoubtedly question his methods. I must admit myself in humility, that I can not always see the logic, the emotion, nor the intention. And that frustrates me. But I do know there is a plan for each one of us. I found prayer to be a foundation to my faith. Fellowship the building blocks of my character. I have desires, temptations, heart-aches, and joys. They sometimes co-inside and sometimes not. I have a lot of growing up to do and a lot of learning/relearning too. I have made a promise to keep for the rest of my life: I will pursue the Truth. And so far, it has led me to God. And He has told me to Love.