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MySpace Codes"ME"You look at me and see this person with a smile and a glow. You look at me and think I'm okay, but know inside that I'm not. You look at me and see a pretty face or so you say, but it takes a lot to make it look so. You look at me and you see a strong and caring person.Each day I wake up, I wonder how hard it will be for me to make me the person you see? Each day I wake up, I wonder if I can fake the smile? Each day I wake up, I wonder if I can make you think I'm okay? Each day I wake up, I wonder if I can make my face as pretty as you want? Each day I wake up, I wonder if I can make myself strong enough to make it through the day?I only wish it were as easy for me as it is for you, to make me be the person I want to be. I only wish that I did not have to work so hard to be the person you see. I only wish that you could know how hard it is for me, so that maybe you could make it easier for me to be me. I only wish that I could be the me I was before."Me"See beyond me, The me that only you could see. There you are, with your boyish smile I start to dream, with these eyes of mine. You seem to be so near, Yet so distant I could barely feel What is it that draws me to you? All these crazy things you make me do. All these tears you make me cry, Pain that makes me want to die. See beyond me, The me that only you could see. I'll try not to guard my heart, And maybe then you'll see Me.
"Me"When I get close to people I can't help but push them away. I can be your best friend then your enemy by the end of the day. I`m afraid to love I`m afraid to lose maybe I`m just afraid just afraid to be used Most people say they're lucky to still be close to me 'Cause with most people they just give up and let me be. My friends know who I am and they love me for me they know when to be there and when to let me be. My friends never ever give up on me they stay by my side and love me for me."love's torment"heaven teased by a moon-beam's shine while hell's dark promise hides its design with the bright sun boiling in burning skies;broken doll, bat your eyes. wooden boy, tell your pitiful lies; my soul, my love, they cannot fly. beaten down, despite all they try;none hear my anguished cries while inch by inch, my heart doth climb only to be cast down again, never to rise and, once broken, sighs a lover's sighfor hope has run dry... this lover dies.oh, how heaven teases like a moon-beam's shine, while hell's dark promise- overhead glides with the bright burning sun... in boiling skiesA Love Lost!So what do you do when you've lost the only good feeling you've ever known? You can cry about it for days on end but what good does it do to wallow in the feeling of emptiness and loneliness of the feeling you're not all there, or about to go insane. I want to feel her arms around me and her love draped over my heart with a hold that says she'll never let go. But she has and I don't know what to do with myself. Should I leave this awful place and find my place in the sky where I won't have to see her or think of her or hear her voice but her love might still haunt me even then. Should I stay and keep fighting for what I know in my heart is still there? Or is it just a losing battle that I'll never win and if I die I'll go to hell and Satan will torture me with thoughts of my love lost?"The Stars Cried Not"The single point of light stood alone, far out on the black edge of eternity waiting. . .waiting. . .waiting for an answering spark, an understanding spirit from across the void of life's dull repetition; light drawing light into one great flame for a brief instant before flickering out of existence. in that moment between heartbeats, when the world isn't looking. to appear again somewhere else, another rhyme, another dusty tome, another lonely light looking for a home. . . and the stars cried not.
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"Me and You"Every day we spent together, was like a dream come true. I loved every minute of time, when time was spent with you.I thought you were for real, the things you told me, the love you showed me.All the long talks we shared, I felt like you really loved me, like you really cared.I'll never forget the way you held me, tight in your embrace. The way you'd pull me close to your face, and whisper, "I love you, and you no one can replace!"I miss the feeling I got, when you caressed my hand, and kissed it gently, you'd do it over and over again.I believe that I can safely say, you were my one true love, but you did not stay.You told me your heart had changed, and it wasn't the same. That you weren't feeling it anymore, so I felt like another game.A game to you, when you threw back all my fears, and now I'm left, with this pain and tears.Maybe one day you'll realize, just what you lost. But until, I guess I'll have to pay the cost.You hurt me too bad, to ever completely repair. You broke my heart into pieces, without a single care.And for some reason, I still love you with all my heart. The time we were together, I thought we'd never part.I would have never done this to you, never made you cry, because when I said, "I love you", I meant it. And if you didn't why did you say it...Why...?

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"Midnight Meeting"When shall I see you again? In a day? A week? A year? Some say absence makes the heart grow fonder But for me it brings despair and loneliness. My faith deserts me, my courage fails, my spirits darken Until they can lower no more. Then, like a heavenly figure, in those few, precious moments before sleep, You enter, brightening my night's imagination. I am with you for a day, one thousand lifetimes, a moment, all at once. I pray for no end to this midnight meeting, But then, just as suddenly as you arrived, you vanish. And in your place you leave the despair and loneliness that are all too familiar. Yet, now in my heart I keep you and our memory. Though it was just a dream it is an image of you I keep, An image which erases all unhappiness for just a moment As I wait for the day that we shall be together. Be it in this life or the next, I will wait until I can stay in your arms forever, And I shall be happy for eternity."GONE"When I was with you I never realized How much I loved the gleam in your eyes Nothing was perfect but it is all missed I'll always remember the first time we kissed I really hoped things between us would work out I thought I could be with you, without a doubt We had fun and I never thought it would endNow I feel I have lost a great friend I'll never fully understand why we parted And everytime I see you, I still get light-hearted Our relationship was different than any other one When we spent time together we just had a lot of fun Well, in conclusion to you I want to say I miss you and, please, come back my way, Someday!"Distant Shoress"Age flows with time like the lunar cycles or births and deaths throughout day and night Sometimes we pass others by merely conveying a cursory glance Sometimes we have common interests even stopping in momentary delight.Tonight there was you and of all the world I washed up on your shore Mayhap 'tis all over and done and we have had our fun achieving some tiny score.Then again we may have discovered another to listen and advise when we need to be found Life is intense but fleeting filled with pain and suffering- behold the littered battleground.As a child of the stars I welcome any and all to partake in my quest. It was a pleasure to speak to you, Moonchild, I'll attempt to succour at your behest.

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"Running Away"Oh hold me close just one more time Your perfect touch, your lips on mine 'Cuz Perfect things- they never last We steal our moments, oh so fast.Come with me, let's run away Hide awhile and there we'll stay. Cuddle close and hold me tight In your arms the world is right.Leaning near, you steal a kiss My blushing cheeks tell all of this Your laugh, so sweet, as you watch me. Oh, we'll love forever... they'll just see.hotties.html"Hilarious Videos /p ...."meetings"Into my life that first time we metSuch a feeling I had I could never forgetI close my eyes I see you thereWith you I have so much love to shareFor you believe to the end I care-------------------------------------------------------- ----"Meetings"The river flows to meet the sea. The tide rolls in to meet the beach.The plane goes high to meet the sky. The balloon goes up to meet the moon.My hand reaches out to meet you and yours. My lips tingle and pout when they meet yours.But most of all My love, heart and soul stretch so far Only to meet yours.

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"November Rain"I guess I knew that day- a fateful November day, the happiest day of your life, the happiest day of mine.it was raining outside- the heavens knew it then, the same old sad story doomed to be repeated again.I knew it would be different just by the look in your eyes; you were the one I would never have to cry.The safety of your word is gone, my pain penetrates the ground; even the heavens saw this coming and they aren't crying for me now."Missing You"I want to hold you - kiss you, and to avoid the "I miss you" just being without you - the air feels much colder and crueler every night is sleepless - unforgiving with no chance of relief never feeling completly here, as though an important piece is missingmy room is an empty universe without your presence - my world is you my heart - so full of the love I feel - aches for the warmth from yours I want to hold you in my arms - just smile - and feel completely happy to miss the safety in your gentle embrace - i'm numb without your touchlike a distant memory - your kisses so soft as a summer's breeze where are you - not here with me - not where you are meant to be all I have for now are dreams - to tide me as best they can nothing can truly satisfy - till you're again at my side - in my arms
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"Time"When the time comes I’ll be the first to cherish your day When the time comes I’ll be the one that keep Your Love till the end When the time comes I’ll sacrifice my life for you When the time comes I’ll be promise you happiness forever When the time comes I’ll tell the world how much you mean to me When the time time comes No one can take you away from me If the time never comes... You always be in my heart until the end of time!

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"Midnight Dew"All is fair inside the garden, bright and blue beside the moon,you and I, we meet again, with the midnight dew,your eyes flood into me, a heavy breath sounds through,and I am all I want to be when I am next to you.

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