J-SIN

Im one not to be taken lightly. Many say I take life so seriously. I do. Its life, there is nothing that isnt serious about it. If I look familiar, you may have seen me around. I lived in New York for a while. Durring my time there I got around and met lots of people very quickly. I stood out quite a bit out there, even for the goth scene. I was in a Beer commercial which did go on air though I never actually saw it on T.V. but have heard it was all over myspace and youtube. Ive also been on local news, the Rocky Mountain news, the Westword, the Discovery Ch., and the Denver Hearse Club. Im still freinds with them, though I had to sell my Hearse a few years ago. Ive been through more in the 30 years of my life than most. I live in emotions that run so deeply, they are often life threating. I am the type of person who reacts on actions, and with actions. If you love me, I'll give it back as much as you can take. Im as loyal as they come. I stand up for what I believe in. If I dont like you, everyone knows it. I wont hide anything. And you will be among the first that knows it. Ive always thought that respect is something that is earned, rather given. I admit it is hard gaining my trust and respect, but once you have it. Its hard too lose it. But on the other side, I hold a grudge. Its hard for me to let things go and get over them. Betrayal is not something I overlook. I will hold that against someone for such a long time. My life has been one of great highs and lows. Ive been in love to the point I was sure she'd be my wife. Life on the otherhand had a different plan. She was taken from me, her family, and freinds. The shockwave of deppression that followed is someting I deal with to this day. It makes me bitter, angry, and cautious of everything in my life now. I was into a religion that was fed by pure Hate, I took it so far and never looked back. Many say I crossed the line of no return. Im not proud of it now, but I bring it up only as example of the life Ive lived and the life I now live, and the neverending struggle I face. But it made me who I am, and in its own way shaped the ideals by which I stand by. I love the things that are bleak, dark and wrong in life. In some ways I bring them into my everyday life and thrive on them. Maybe thats why people are so afraid to strike up conversations with me. Maybe they are affraid of what they will find.....Or maybe they just arent so intrested in me. There are those few people out there that, just really dont like me. They dislike me so much that they go out of their way spreading rumors, making shit up, and anything too ruin my reputaion. That fact that I have that much of an impact on their lives without me even trying, makes me smile, almost as much as compliments do. Nevertheless, Im actually I really nice guy once you get to know me. If you look beyond the makeup, and serious expresions. I'll talk to damn near anyone unless you give me reason to ignor you...MyGen Profile Generator