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About Me


I am really horrible at writing these things but I'll give it a go. I start not knowing what to write about and then I end up writing 500 pages worth of stuff that’s on my mind. When I first heard of Myspace, I thought WTF! Another trend dumb teens have fallen for. I generally don’t “judge books by their covers” if I’m not at least somewhat informed. I gave it a try and now I’m an addict to Myspace. I think I may need rehab for Myspace. J.k ;=). Some people may think that I’m shy and innocent because I can be pretty reserved and quiet when you first meet me (depending on the situation) but once I feel comfortable around you I can be pretty talkative and opinionated (maybe too much?). My mom says that when people give me “wings”, I will “fly real high”. I’m not going to explain the metaphor it speaks for itself. I can definitely be blunt but not hurtful and I have a pretty pervy mind and rather politically incorrect sense of humor at times, once I know you won't be offended, of course.

My soul wants to rebel against society's ways and discrimination. Social distortion is an evil disease that we should stamp out. I like to think that I'm reasonably intelligent and happy to discuss anything and offer my opinion and thoughts. I like to walk like I wanna walk, talk the way I wanna walk, dress the way I wanna dress, act the way I wanna act. I know when its time to work and when its time to play. For a 23 year old male, I think I’m very responsible. It maybe the way I was raised. I used to be such a “caged animal”, I “escaped” to run free and “flew” away. Since moving out on my own in 2003, I think I’ve done very well for myself. I pretty much walk to the beat of my own drum. I’m open to listen to other’s ideas and discuss opinions. I can’t hate anyone for their opinion even if it seems way off the wall or if it’s bullsh*t.

I can pretty much smell bullsh*t a mile away. LOL. So don’t try to play games with me. I can’t stand games. I typically deal with the cards I’m dealt. If I’m in a relationship, I don’t want to be the other person’s parent or financial support. I don’t do drugs, its one thing that sickens me. I drink socially but I know my limits. I don’t drink to get drunk even if I’m stressing or having problems, I just drink to relax and have a good time. Does that make me a light social drinker? I’ve lost so many people in my past due to their drug addictions and alcoholism. My friends in High School never offered me drugs. There were times when I could not deal with life. I was going through so much from Elementary, Middle, and High School, College, Work. I just didn’t know how to deal. I tried to get overly involved with school activities like Drama Club, French Club, Spanish Club, Math Club, Environmental club, National Honor Society, Decathlon, anything to keep my mind off the pain that I felt inside. Anything to drown out the emptiness that I felt. Nothing could fill up my pain. I felt so insecure, so unloved. I just couldn’t deal with it. I went to Europe for a few weeks and felt like I belonged there. It almost felt like home. I’m still lost. The emptiness is still there. I write lyrics, poems, and short stories to control the empty thoughts. I just can’t find anyone to understand what is going through my mind. Loneliness kills me at times but I think I’m strong. I haven’t lost hope for something better. I’m so bad sometimes, I digress from what I’m actually trying to finish saying. LOL.

I’ve had friends with major drug problems and three of them committed suicide. It was hard on me and hard on their families. I’m sure there are some of you that can relate one way or another. Addictions only bring inflictions upon those you love. I’ve had friends that have gone through addictions in High School and college, it’s sad. All I can do is try to be there for friends that are going through hard times. Sometimes it seems I can help so many people but I can’t seem to help myself. Is that how the wheel turns? I don’t want to play the victim in “soap opera”, that is our world, life. I’m just a mere “actor”, like everyone else. The “stages” are set and we do our “scenes’ and exit. Sometimes, it can be really hard for me to trust people. I feel that if I give them my heart, they will use it and tear it apart. So I have trouble letting too many people in but that doesn’t mean I don’t interact. I just feel that everyone’s failed me one way or another and that I don’t have anyone to rely on.

Sometimes, I listen to music so that I can get through my day. The instruments and haunting lyrics lift my spirits. TV and Movies elevate me out of the real world. Fashion takes me to a new level of thinking. Reading books takes me to a different world, where I can be the characters or envision them like a movie. Nature refreshes my soul. I love being creative. I love the thought of listening to others and having them listen to me without judgment. I just recently moved for the third time. I hope this time; I don’t have to move again until my lease runs out. It seems I don’t know where home is. I’ve never felt home anywhere. I did in Europe, Miami, NYC, and L.A. but not in Houston. Does that mean I should move?

I will just make the best of it, like I’ve done on the past. All we can do is move on from the past. Pick up the pieces, learn from past mistakes, mourn our losses, deal with it, take responsibility, and move on. My best friend and I are starting a blog/column. So I should be posting some of those blogs on here and the rest will be on the blog site aptly titled "Shallow Friends" on 08/07/07! I’m also writing a few songs for Remnants this really cool new band. I’m working on their site and Myspace page. It will be up soon. So many new things happening in my life. How exciting! You won’t always be bored around me. LOL. I’m hoping to take some winter courses since I haven’t been able to go to school fulltime. We shall see what comes of that. I just want to graduate UH already. I feel like so many 23 year olds already have careers and that I’m left behind, but I know that everyone has to take their own pace. It will be so funny if my sister graduates college before me. God knows, she already graduated May 2007.

Honestly, I'm not expecting much to come of me putting my profile on here, but if I can just meet a couple of cool people to hang out with or chat with (if something more comes of it great, but I'm not expecting that), then I suppose it's worth it, eh? Nyet? Non? No?


xoxo Nik ..

My Interests

I like long walks on the beach when I’m in Malibu,South Beach or on the Mediterranean(not Galveston, TX’s murky, seaweed water), I’m addicted to Starbucks Soy Vanilla Lattes with a hint of chocolate, I love, love love Godiva Passion Truffles…yum…mmmm…so wickedly delicious, video games, gamers, skaters,tattoos,Popping my fave champagne Moet & Chandon, Designer duds like Dior, Gucci, Prada, LV, Dolce, Tom Ford, A/X, Versace, Ferre, Fendi, Rockers, Punks, Goths, Fashionistas, Poets, Romantics, Dreamers, Achievers, Funny People, Funny Movies, Hot Guys, Pin Up Girls, black eyeliner, black nail polish, black eyeliner, Ferraris, Fast cars, vintage muscle cars, muscles, Sushi, Sailor Moon, Luna P, the Cosmos, Stars, Romance, Suicide Boys, Suicide Girls, Pirates, Deserts, Deserted islands, Musika, Russia, France, Italy, Canada, Germany, Switzerland, NYC, L.A, South Beach USA, Mexico, India, Japan, Harajuku Boys, Harajuku Girls, chatting online, writing columns, giving advice, witty sarcasm, volunteering, charity, Dior sunglasses, Fashion magazines, delicious red cherries, amaretto sours, vodka, Diet Coke, Evian water, Margaritas, Cosmopolitans, Tequila, Hot Topic, rocker belts, high rocker boots, easy breezy days, wrestling, hot wrestlers, hot divas, sexy pictorials, photography, guitars, vintage Gibson les pauls guitars, models….mmmm. I dislike wars, hot muggy weather, cocky rude arrogant people, liver and onions, jerks, mean heartedness, lies, mindgames, negative people. I’m not sure what else to put here. I’m like not thinking str8. well that’s cuz I’m not ;) I really try not to focus on the negative, I don’t like to feel sad. Ok. Happy things…happy things.

Music:

I have such a varied and eclectic taste in music as you can see from my list that goes on forever! Music has to touch and lift me to another world. When i connect with the instruments, with the rythmns, and with the lyrics that’s when you know I love the songs. Some of the artists that I love and inspire me are: Evanescence, Garbage, Lacuna Coil,Groove Coverage,OK Go,The Cranberries,Red Hot Chili Peppers,Dashboard Confessional,Dangerous Muse,DJ Keoki,Groove Armada,Diskoteka Avariya,In-Grid,Russkij Razmer,Glyuk'Oza (Glukoza),Virus,Audioslave,HIM,Avenged Sevenfold,Matchbox 20,Our Lady Peace,Paulina Rubio,Shakira, Jewel,Fey,RBD,No Doubt,Gwen Stefani,AFI,The Killers,Fall Out Boy,Jet,Evan’s Blue,Shinedown,Seether,Nine Inch Nails, Staind,Weezer,Papa Roach,Gorillaz,The Donnas,30 Seconds to Mars,Three Days Grace,Nichya,t.A.T.U,Tema,Yulia Savicheva, Ya-Ya,Marilyn Manson,Breaking Benjamin,Plain White Ts, Saliva,Army of Anyone,Hinder,Stone Sour,Sneaker Pimps,Kelli Ali,Velvet Revolver,Stone Temple Pilots,Soundgarden,My Chemical Romance,Green Day,Sum 41,3 Doors Down,Korn, Mudvayne,311,Foo Fighters,Disturbed,Linkin Park,Alanis Morissette,Rage Against the Machine,Beck,Oasis,Incubus,Our Lady Peace,System of a Down,Blink 182,Coldplay,Staind,The White Stripes,P.O.D,The Offspring,Groove Coverage,P!nk, Ruslana,Deen,Weezer,Willa Ford,Tarkan,Yellowcard, The Who, Rolling Stones,Aerosmith,PPK,PROPAGANDA,Ruki Vverh, Turbomoda,Hole,Madonna,Britney Spears,Christina Aguilera, Kelly Clarkson,Avril Lavigne,Nelly Furtado,Oreja De Van Gogh,Kabah,Juanes,Julieta Venegas,Mana,Gloria Trevi, Alejandra Guzman,Sting,Sevendust,Sepultra,Starsailor, Static X,Danity Kane,Rasputina,Bif Naked,The Cardigans, Paul Oakenfold,IIO,Taking Back Sunday,Arman Van Buren, She Wants Revenge,The Used,The Panic Channel, Panic! At the Disco,Bullet for my Valentine,Nirvana,The Smiths,Smashing Pumpkins,Radiohead,AFI,Dj Tiesto,Sasha,Felix Da Housecat,Fergie,Black Eyed Peas,Lauryn Hill,Hoobastank,Good Charlotte,Hilary Duff, Lindsay Lohan,Deen,Bjork,Tori Amos,Cheap Trick,Type O Negative,Depeche Mode,12 Stones,Sean Paul,Adema,Alien Ant Farm,American Hi-Fi,Godsmack,Auf Der Mar,Avril Lavigne, Basement Jaxx,Beastie Boys,Bowling For Soup,The Calling, Chemical Brothers,Chevelle,Ciara,Missy Eliott,Danity Kane, The Coors,Courtney Love,Counting Crows,The Crystal Method, The Cure,Daft Punk,Deftones,The Distillers,Dirty Vegas,Don Omar,Daddy Yankee,Ivy Queen,Duran Duran,Fatboy Slim, Fischerspooner,Foo Fighters,Fuel,Hawthorne Heights,The Hives,Iron Maiden,Incubus,Jimmie Eat World,Kasabian,Kelis, Kylie Minogue,La Ley,Lil Kim,Liz Phair,Maroon 5,Metallica, Michelle Branch,Melissa Etheridge,Molotov,New Found Glory, Nickelback,The Offspring,Pj Harvey,Puddle of Mudd,Queen, Queensn of the Stone Age,The Rasmus,Relient K,The Rapture, R.E.M... Could this list be any bigger? I think I need to get a bigger Ipod!

Movies:

The difference between liking and loving a movie is if it touches me deeply i love it, if it entertains me i like it. Does this make sense? Anyways, here are a few movies that i like and love too many to list:Amelie, Run Lola Run, Fucking Amal,Saw 1 and Saw 2, Texas Chainsaw Massacre, Legally Blonde, Never Been Kissed, ET, Carrie 1 and Carrie 2, Cujo, I Know What You Did Last Summer, Scream, Scary movie, White Chicks, The Little Mermaid, Big Daddy, Schindler’s List, X-men Trilogy, Resident Evil 1 and 2, The Messenger, Underworld 1 and 2, Ever After, The Grudge, Stargate, Charlie’s Angels, Donnie Darko, Edward Scissorhands, I Robot, The Sixth Sense, The Wedding Singer, Doppelganger, Shrek, Minority Report, The Sweetest Thing, Vanilla Sky, There’s something about Mary, A Life Less Ordinary, My Best Friend’s Wedding, She’s the One, Rocky Horror Picture Show, Hedwig and the Angry Inch, Zoolander, The Fifth Element, Dazed and Confused, Return to the Blue Lagoon, War of the Worlds, 10 Things I Hate About You, Not Another Teen Movie, V for Vendetta, Meet the Fockers, Meet the Parents, Silent Hill, House on Haunted Hill, The Haunting, The Hills Have Eyes, Clueless, The Break-Up

Television:

TV rots the brain but i like to be entertained. Some of the shows i watch are...CSI: Las Vegas, CSI: Miami, Inked, Swat, Family Guy, The Simpsons, Dog Bounty Hunter, WWE Raw, Standoff, Ugly Betty, Desperate Housewives, Project Runway, Hell’s Kitchen, ANTM, Friday Night Smackdown, The Simple Life, Laguna Beach, Mad TV, Heroes, True Life, Veronica Mars, The Class, Brothers And Sisters, Cops, America’s Most Wanted, Dateline investigations, Hex, After seeing the season premiere of the O.C. on Myspace. I think i'm hooked on to that show... Nip/Tup..should i say anything more?...Family Guy...I love Stewie..i miss Daria...lah..lah.lah..lah..lah..

Books:

I love reading. Good reads are: Pandora, The Vampire Armand, Cry to Heaven, Memnoch the Devil, Interview with a Vampire, The Vampire Lestat, Tale of the Body Thief, Queen of the Damned, Sex and the City, A Tale of Two Cities, Wuthering Heights, The Tempest, Bram Stoker’s Dracula, 1984, Exit to Eden, Belinda, The Claiming of Sleeping Beauty, Beauty’s Punishment, Taltos, Beauty’s Release, The Witching Hour, Lasher, Blood and Gold, Merrick, Vittorio the Vampire, The Last Vampire Chronicles, The Feast of All Saints, Servant of the Bones, The Mummy or Ramses the Damned, Violin, Brave New World, Fahrenheit 451, Lord of the Flies, The Catcher in the Rye

Heroes:



My Blog

Rebel. Be free.

"Rebellion" by my friend Brit. Be wary of othersThe ones closest to you The poison they feed youAnd the voodoo that they doBut in rebellionThere's a sparkle of truthDon't just stand thereDo what you g...
Posted by Nik on Tue, 14 Aug 2007 11:14:00 PST

Crash

Crash   The world seems to crumble, I fear the end is near. No one close to hold dear. Lies and excuses is all it was. I could tell when you began to fumble. ..:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:sch...
Posted by Nik on Thu, 26 Jul 2007 06:17:00 PST

Sweet Insanity

Sweet Insanity I told you to leave, Now I'm condemmned to be alone. Don't force me to want to live, Don't tell me to move on. ..:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:office" />&...
Posted by Nik on Thu, 26 Jul 2007 05:23:00 PST

Love Cautiously

 Love cautiously ..:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:office" />  The days have past us by, The years have flown by. They skies have stopped crying, And my eyes are...
Posted by Nik on Mon, 23 Jul 2007 09:05:00 PST

Celebrity Skin

 Celebrity Skin ..:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:office" />  You're a shining star in my eyes, The blinding lights hide truth. You fly too high in the skies. Un...
Posted by Nik on Mon, 23 Jul 2007 08:39:00 PST

Afternoon Wood for the ladies and some gents...

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Posted by Nik on Sat, 21 Jul 2007 10:58:00 PST

When someone does not love you back

  This is a really nice video about loving a guy and he doesn't love back. Or atleast can't seem to want to show it. Take it for what it is. Here's "Jesse" by Ivri Lider. He's Jewish, Israeli, Ga...
Posted by Nik on Sat, 21 Jul 2007 07:17:00 PST

On overdrive...

Dear Nik,  I'm so hard up. I mean I really need to get some. I don't want to go online cruisin' or hooking up at a bar or club. I can't stop thinking about getting it on. Please help... Miss On O...
Posted by Nik on Fri, 20 Jul 2007 09:21:00 PST

Virginity?

What constitutes virginity? When do we lose it? Do we have more than one to lose?
Posted by Nik on Fri, 20 Jul 2007 09:08:00 PST

Updates

I'm still trying to update my myspace layout, i'm thinking of redoing the blog, i just have too many ideas floating in my head. I will see what i come up with this weekend. I'm still trying to ge...
Posted by Nik on Fri, 20 Jul 2007 09:02:00 PST