Welcome to my page, home of the insanity and the mundane that is my life. I'm rarely ever on this thing, but I figured and update or two was in order. I'm going to try and do a few things more off track than my previous goes at this.
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Formerly a diehard World of Warcraft gamer (read:addict), and have been know to spend countless hours rotting away in front of the monitor at my PC. I played a Mage on the Draenor server, and I must say, I kicked some serious e-ass. Just got a (relatively, depending on perspective) new PC as well, pics are posted. FOR THE HORDE! Recently cancelled my account due to personal and financial issues. WTB new game to keep my attention.
And what's a good gamer without his tunes, right? I'm into metal (see side), tho my favorite sub genres are definately Swedish/Norweigan death metal as well as traditional Tampa based death metal. But I'm also a fan of classic rock and have been know to jam to that as well. Fuck emo, fuck goth, fuck punk, and any and all associated tags. Die in a fire. I don't play guitar, mostly cause I'm white and have no rhythm, I'm also left handed and don't posess the dedication and patience to learn. I also really love to attend live shows. Seeing a band perform is an experience like no other. The adrenaline rush overwhelming, and worth every ounce of blood, sweat, and tear you offer. But most importantly, it's about showing repect to the bands and appreciation for the music they create.
I drive an 04 Mazda3. Not much done to it yet, cause I'm a poor college student. If you like cars, go talk to my brother. He's the car guy. All I know is if its got AC and nice paint, I'm usually going to like it. Got into a wreck with it, and finally got it back.
Speaking of college, I attend USF, picking out random classes that spark my interest. I'm on the 8 year program most likely. I've gone through several majors, from Biology, Communication, Information Technology, and back to Undeclared. As it stands I've been debating a history major, mostly due to little to no math requirements. Seriously, fuck math.
As for that inevitable crutch, the almighty dollar bill, I was forced to seek employment at my local Chili's as a server. Worked there for 5 years. I'll be quite honest about this too, as I really hated my job. Every single miserable shift I had to deal with cantankerous senior citizens who felt entitled to as much free items as they can get their wrinkly old hands on, small children who cry and make messes that their parents leave for us to clean, rednecks that don't understand the concept that 2 for 1 means you tip on the whole bill, not half of it, teenagers that drink 18 sodas, and just about every single stereotypical minority that has something associated with them. If you've seen the movie Waiting you might have some clue as to the nightmare that was my job. But that's all in the past now, seeing as how the company is doing the "corporate" thing now, and no longer has need for me. Good riddance.
Lastly, on the topics of Religion and Politics, I generally don't put much stock in either. Both are men claiming superiority over you and trying to dictate anything and everything, whether it concerns them or not. Generally though, I tend to side with liberals, simply because their policy isn't dictated by the bible. (Just this year 2 different legislators trying to introduce a "Bible Appreciation Day" state holiday, and Jesus themed liscence plates.) Case in point.
I'm not perfect. Not by a long-shot. I never claimed to be. But there are a few basic principles that I live by. (I wrote these out many a year ago, but I still find them relevent.)
1) Honor - Without honor, a man has nothing. To me, honor is knowing who you are, what you're capable of, and respecting yourself. If you don't respect yourserlf, why should someone else? I'm not saying that you have to be perfect, or even attempt perfection, but at least put some effort forth. More than likely, a person is expecting something or dependant on you for something, and when you let them down, you're actually letting yourself down. This brings me to my second point.
2) What you get out depends on what you're willing to put in. - If you're going to do something, do your best. I'll admit. I'm lazy. I don't like to work. I don't think there is anyone who does. But if you're going to do something, make sure that you do it to the best of your capabilities. Chances are that whatever sort of work needs doing isn't particualrily important or fun, but doing it half-ass only sheds light to the kind of person you are. Don't sacrifice your integrity to get done faster.
3) I forgive, but I never forget. - For those of you who already know me, you know that at times I can be a perfect gentleman, and at other times I can be a complete asshole. More often than not, it's the latter of those choices. Socialization is not one of my stong characteristics, and I see it as a very unfortunate thing when I bring out the bad sides of so many people. I carry a lot of grudges, and very rarely do I abandon them. That's why it irks me to no end when I see people at each others throats one day and having a casual conversation the next. I know many arguments are formed and ended on the basis of bullshit, but I also believe that there are and will be people in life that you're just not going to like or get along with. It's a fact. It's how you deal with these people that defines who you are. Personally, I consider myself pretty outspoken. If I have a problem with someone, I let them know. These usually result in confrontations with no possible positive results. It's my belief that you see a person's true nature in a fight. That's why I know a person can change their appearence or their behavior, but they can't change who they are.
4) Don't let hate consume you. - Do I hate? Yes. Am I an envious person? Yes. This is how I partially explain my behavior. Some people have the personalities where they want to please everyone. They're the center of attention and everyone wants to be around them. Am I one of those people? No. And I guess, upon further introspection, I both envy and hate them for it. They have something I've never tasted, a forbidden fruit if you will. Yes, I know that many times such popularity is ficticious, but still, just once, I would like to know what it feels like. This is how I can partially explain why I don't always show my defining personality traits when meeting new people. I could try to change, but I wouldn't succeed. There's no use in trying to be something you're not.
5) Have a sense of humor. - I can tell you for a fact that the most unhappy people in this world are those without a sense of humor. That, and don't be a prude about "offensive" jokes. Most all jokes are offensive to some ethnic or minority, be it blacks, jews, or blondes. They're funny because they're true. Yes, I make stereotypes, but so what? The worst thing you can do is tell a racial joke with some friends and laugh at it, but as soon as a person from that background walks buy, you act all offended. Or when someone makes an ethnic joke about themselves and you claim them to be offensive, but you laughed at it when someone else you knew said it. Have a laugh, but don't be a hypocrit.
6) Get your hands dirty. - The only way you're going to learn something is by doing it. If it means you fail at first, then so what? Don't be afraid of failure. The point is that you succeed in the end, and getting there is half the fun.