Free at Last |
Can you imagine how you would feel if you were diagnosed with a terminal illness two years ago and then all of a sudden, after living with this horrible burden, it just magically goes away? Thats the ...
Posted by Emily Lauren on Wed, 15 Aug 2007 09:04:00 PST |
Megan |
Rehab again. God knows what for... only that you fell off a wagon or two. Un-fit mother. She can't nurse if you dont hold her head. The baby will stop crying if you change her diaper... un-fit mother....
Posted by Emily Lauren on Wed, 30 Aug 2006 11:02:00 PST |
Justin |
An hour later and I am still crying. No matter what happens before I move, tonight was the final goodbye, the breaking of the last connection to the life that I lived before. You know me so well, but ...
Posted by Emily Lauren on Wed, 30 Aug 2006 01:39:00 PST |
Bye Bye California! |
Well, this is it. I am leaving tomorrow. So here is all of my really sappy goodbyes to everyone. Please bear with me. Nathaniel, you have been a really awesome friend. I dont know how I could have got...
Posted by Emily Lauren on Sun, 25 Jun 2006 08:55:00 PST |
torn |
I cant sleep. I cant sleep at all lately. The date gets closer and it more and more nights lying awake in bed. I try to write but my words are ashes. I try to paint but its stale. Each color becomes m...
Posted by Emily Lauren on Fri, 09 Jun 2006 12:47:00 PST |
3:03 AM |
I cannot sleep. There is too much electricity in the air. In my mind I should be tired, yet there is no sleep in my eyes. Wind ravishes the tree outside my window. Her branches were bare when I moved ...
Posted by Emily Lauren on Sat, 22 Apr 2006 10:59:00 PST |
Like Sex to Deftones |
So I did it again. no, not that. Its so bad i cant even write it, not here, not in my journal, I cant even tell my best friend. Shit. I really am one of the most fucked up people I know. And the...
Posted by Emily Lauren on Wed, 22 Feb 2006 09:06:00 PST |
Puke |
Sad to say that it takes a stomach full of puke to make me an angel.
Justin got super wasted at my house last night... he is the funniest person i have even seen drunk. I will never forget him running...
Posted by Emily Lauren on Mon, 16 Jan 2006 06:21:00 PST |
Fragile (in blue marker) |
So I am finally making a little progress on my packing. Its so strange to wrap all my pretty things in newspaper, put them in boxes, mark them as fragile. All I can do is hope they wont break. Yet, at...
Posted by Emily Lauren on Fri, 16 Dec 2005 09:24:00 PST |
Failure |
This blood isnt strong enough, not red enough, the cut too shallow. It trickles through my heart without effect and trails though my head like water. Surround myself with red, enraptured, but it ...
Posted by Emily Lauren on Thu, 27 Oct 2005 05:17:00 PST |
