oh hey |
just... that lonely feeling again. the really, really deep one. not exactly sad but extremely, well, ALONE!i think that i am wonderful, and capable, and honest, and generally good.. but it's not enoug...
Posted by jill on Sat, 19 Apr 2008 07:29:00 PST |
ego |
well. special chosen one! god’s child! pure, no sex before marriage. no drugs, no drinking. maybe some drinking. where are your lusty thoughts? your sinful wanderings? your monsters are represse...
Posted by jill on Tue, 01 Apr 2008 06:39:00 PST |
denial you were so sweet. |
i am still in love, and admitting how deep in denial i was is at once embarassing and painful.at least i’m not lying to myself anymore?
Posted by jill on Mon, 17 Mar 2008 10:35:00 PST |
interesting |
my hexagram for today..Hexagram 31General Meaning: The attraction of opposites is a powerful and fundamental force. The image of this reading is that of the attraction between a young man and a young ...
Posted by jill on Tue, 04 Mar 2008 02:18:00 PST |
boys again? |
i had a crush on this one guy, but he was way too cute for me. he knew it too. i had a crush on this other guy, but all we really had in common was wit and lust. i had a crush on this other guy, but a...
Posted by jill on Tue, 04 Mar 2008 10:15:00 PST |
perfection |
i was looking at a nice astral projection website and i found a beautiful quote."every one of us is perfection. We just have this veil over our perfection because we enjoy the immense thrill of redisc...
Posted by jill on Tue, 26 Feb 2008 09:44:00 PST |
decline |
when did my brain turn to mush? once poignant thoughts now dulled to "i like this and that" and entertained by meaningless television shows featuring poor saps wanting to be millionaires by picking th...
Posted by jill on Tue, 19 Feb 2008 06:56:00 PST |
thesis revelations |
so my senior thesis. monsters. created by people to embody the monsters within themselves. to embody anxiety, fear, hatred... any of the "negative" or "shadow" aspects of sane human beings. i am curre...
Posted by jill on Tue, 12 Feb 2008 07:52:00 PST |
the important things |
this weekend at work my former boyfriend/roommate, my coworker, my best friend had a seizure at work. i looked over and saw him completely malfunction. among others i caught him and helped him to the ...
Posted by jill on Tue, 05 Feb 2008 08:57:00 PST |
valentine’s day |
blah blah blah single blah blah boys blah blah.i want a real valentine! we'd go on a real date with real conversation and real romance. trouble is, no good candidates. my friends are friends, not vale...
Posted by jill on Thu, 31 Jan 2008 02:02:00 PST |
