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I am the king of wishful thinking

I feel I'm fading like a flower, fading like a rose.

About Me

Be pessimistic, that's my motto! I'd like to get a new one, but oh, what are the chances of that happening?

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My Interests

wicca, harry potter, law&order:SVU, Crime Scene Investigation, culinary... i love to throw down in the kitchen... and FFXI (Final Fantasy XI Online), send me a /tell if you play on Lakshmi server... Azuriah is retired now so holla at my new character Tristen; AND BOWLING!!!!

I'd like to meet:


FRIENDS i would like to meet some cool new people, and maybe get in touch with some people i used to know. i have lived in like 30 different places, so as you can imagine, ive lost a friend or two along the way :) ATTENTION PROSPECTORS: if any of the following apply to you, i urge you to refrain from befriending me, as i'm quite certain it wont last... (if we are friends already, you snuck through, but bygones lol)... people who like to mope around and want to kill themselves nonstop, people who smoke crack or fiend for any type of drug, people who are overtly hateful of any race, people who hate video games, music haters, religious fanatics, people who insist that we meet and hookup, people who think im going to have sex with them, people who dont speak english (not racist, just don't speak anything but english, and im not even so good at that one), and well, people with mullets... im joking about mullets, i GIRLS the following is my "perfect" girl: a friend, with a good sense of humor; the ability to walk into a room and make me smile, without saying a single word; looks help but they fade; she is playful, teasing and sensitve; has great taste in music; she can say both "I'm wrong" AND "I'm sorry"; she must be ablke to cry in front of me and should be able to make me cry as well; so much fun to be around and have a wide range of knowledable discussion topics; she should share at least some of the same fantasies, with several common likes and dislikes; she HAS to like the 50's era; soft butch is a big plus; body art and piercings (nipples? yes please!). I'll know this person by a sign... a word, a symbol, a song, or a sound. She will be an overall AMAZING person. I have been hurt, so I have impossible standards as a way of protecting myself.
^^ Now taking application ^^ *winks*
Here are some pictures of Azuriah from final fantasy XI...

Dating & Relationship Advice
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Music:

Trance music is the best! Give it up for... 4 Strings, Reina, Ian Van Dahl, DaRude, Deepest Blue, Deborah Cox (she's more dance music than trance, but she still rocks my socks off!), cascada, louie devito, dj richie rich, iio, dj tiesto, daRude, deepest blue, BT, and KTU.
I do listen to some country... allison krauss, rascal flatts, reba mcentire, keith urban, chely wright, dixie chicks, julie roberts, amy dalley, big & rich, martina mcbride, mila mason, miranda lambert, josh gracin, ryan shupe and the rubber band, little texas, wynonna, shedaisy, tim mcgraw, faith hill, and a bunch of others.
then i listen to a lil bit of a bunch of stuff.... some rob zombie, some keith sweat, some kelly clarkson, evanessence, linkin park, simple plan, good charlotte, the temptations, meatloaf, alice cooper, a perfect circle, aerosmith, INDIGO GIRLS (hell ya!), anastacia, breaking benjamin, melissa etheridge, kd lang, mindy smith, michael jackson, natalie merchant, sophie b. hawkins, phil collins, nelly, mollies revenege, nonpoint, lost prophets, mackenzie phillips, roxette, sarah mclachlan, sting, CHER!! many others...
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Movies:

Bound, Better Than Chocolate, Moulin Rouge, Apt Pupil, Xmen (all of them), Harry Potter (all of them 333333), Fried Green Tomatos, Dirty Dancing, Practical Magic, Pay It Forward, Gone in 60 Seconds, The Patriot, Without a Paddle, Finding Nemo, Paycheck, Trapped, Armageddon, Lord of the Rings, Foxfire, Straight Talk, Cody Banks 1&2, Chocolat, Boys on the Side, Midnight in the Garden of Good and Evil, Donnie Darko, and i could probably name a few hundred more... if you knew my dad and my sister...

Television:

Law&Order: SVU, Everwood, House, Kyle XY, Family Guy, Drawn Together, Friends, Will & Grace, The Ellen Show, Reba, Futurama, MadTV, Saturday Night Live, Forensic Files, Medium, Lost, CSI, DeGrassi the next generation, Ellen (sitcom... thank you oxygen network!), and basically all the other crime shows out there... even Missing on Lifetime

Books:

the complete idiots guide to wicca and witchcraft is what i am currently reading (ok, so now, months later, i'll dub that book the ongoing project); im reading two novels at the moment: The DiVinci Codeand Stephen King's newest bestseller Cell... i often re-read the Harry Potter books; i also read bits and pieces of any of the 100+ magic books in the house, books on spellcrafting, herbs, clans, candles, colors, etc. And can i just say... NO CHARMED CHICKEN!!!

Heroes:

Ellen DeGeneres; my mommy - the woman has such a beautiful mind and is made of magick. Blessed Be Mama Witch!

My Blog

Six Years, a poem by Alice Bloch

Six Yearsfor Nancy, by Alice Bloch A friend calls usan old married couple I flichyou don't mindOn the way homeyou ask why I got upsetWe are something like what she saidyou say... I sayNo We aren't mar...
Posted by I am the king of wishful thinking on Wed, 30 Nov 2005 10:03:00 PST

Self Interragation (sp?)

  MY FAVORITE&.. 1) Color: a smokey foresty shade of green will do 2) Number: five 5 Cinco Go F-I-V-E 3) Ice-cream: maltball something or other and chocolate malted crunch 4) Car: hmm.....
Posted by I am the king of wishful thinking on Wed, 30 Nov 2005 08:45:00 PST

Laundry

Wandering through fields of jaded oblivionplaying mindless mind games that extend to the heartInto the depths of my soulWith no escape, and coincidently, no entranceInto thehorizon of my unwielding mi...
Posted by I am the king of wishful thinking on Tue, 29 Nov 2005 11:04:00 PST

Vague

You asked me why i said "never and i gave you a vague excuse...to save you...and to save me. I didn't answer because the truth is soemthing we both know,but are too afraid to admit....To save each oth...
Posted by I am the king of wishful thinking on Tue, 29 Nov 2005 10:56:00 PST

Song of Myself

Song of Myself (a parody by Alexis Gonzalez)   The stifling fog settles low, announcing my state to the world. I too am a veil; I too am a hazard.I release my viscous presence through the veins o...
Posted by I am the king of wishful thinking on Tue, 29 Nov 2005 10:48:00 PST

emotions

emotions are never enough...they are just a vague recollection of a thought we had...or have...a naive way to make us grow...they are a trap for all that is true and pure,turning the innocence of inge...
Posted by I am the king of wishful thinking on Tue, 29 Nov 2005 10:32:00 PST

Come A Little Closer

come a little closer baby i feel like layin you down on a bed of sweet surrender where we can work it all out there ain't nothin that love can't fix girl it's right here at our finger tips so come a l...
Posted by I am the king of wishful thinking on Mon, 28 Nov 2005 09:23:00 PST

Massacre (My beltated Ode to Thanksgiving)

Massacreby Alexis Gonzlaez The kitchen is warm and busyMothers, sisters, and uncles weave   in and outof each other, rushing through   last minute perfectionsThe kids play in the y...
Posted by I am the king of wishful thinking on Tue, 29 Nov 2005 09:46:00 PST

Too Much to Ask

Its the first time I ever felt this lonely I wish someone could cure this pain Its funny when you think its gonna work out Til you chose weed over me, you're so lame I thought you were cool until ...
Posted by I am the king of wishful thinking on Mon, 21 Nov 2005 11:35:00 PST

Nobody's Home

"Nobody's Home" I couldn't tell you why she felt that way, She felt it everyday.And I couldn't help her, I just watched her make the same mistakes again.What's wrong, what's wrong now?Too many, ...
Posted by I am the king of wishful thinking on Mon, 21 Nov 2005 11:26:00 PST