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nikki bean

if i held your breath at least we would touch

About Me

oh, hello. im nikki
:o)

it's funny how you find you enjoy your life
when you're happy to be alive

when i grow up, i want to teach young girls that they are not sex objects to men.

and ps: sometimes i like to pretend like im a race car driver

i have to feel all my feelings instead of numbing myself to them. and actually, when i allow myself to do that, they pass more quickly. i spent my entire life telling everyone i was "ok, damnit." but when you surrender to the uncomfortable feelings, there are gifts on the other side;allowing yourself to feel loneliness forces you to reach out.letting yourself get angry gives you strength, energy, and motivation.

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My Interests

God, america's next top model, eating alot, grad school, knowing myself. BEING REAL.

I'd like to meet:


and of course, your butthole

Music:

anything, seriously. anything. except screaming. well, to make tyler happy, i'll admit its not as scary as i used to think it was.

Television:

america's next top model and sex & the city... just like every other female alive

Heroes:

PB and J, Grandmo, and Heidi because she really really is my conscience

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My Blog

Is there really a God?

But how can I love a God I'm not sure exists? Is there really a God?(This is a section from a book I'm reading by Chuck Colson. He was asked that question, and this is his response)This is a huge ques...
Posted by nikki bean on Sat, 08 Mar 2008 09:31:00 PST

More than a carpenter

sooo after church the other night, Jan says to me, "I need a book from the bookstore!" so we went.. haha and it's this little room built on to our church with what else, books. but they are all God ...
Posted by nikki bean on Tue, 05 Jun 2007 04:55:00 PST

Things I've Learned (mostly the hard way)

Things Ive Learned: (mostly, the hard way)   School: -typing out your notes really does help you study -making note cards from your notes is good for memorization -gett...
Posted by nikki bean on Thu, 20 Jul 2006 06:41:00 PST

QVC: The Evils Within Your Television

This is a cry of help for my mom! So for those of you who don't know my mother (whom I call "Mo"), she is obsessive about QVC and shopping on tv. At least once a week the UPS man brings a nice brown ...
Posted by nikki bean on Fri, 23 Jun 2006 06:41:00 PST