Steven SolidSTEEL [Is A Fire Zombie]

About Me

"I like your Christ, I do not like your Christians. Your Christians are so unlike your Christ." -Mohandis Ghandi
I'm a statue, I roll with the punches.
I'm a realist, I believe only in logic.
I write words with hopes that they will stretch into so much more.
I believe that the silver linings of clouds only signify thunderstorms.
I will not tolerate being lied to.
I read comic books.... a lot.
I live for music.
I play Hellgate London, so get at me at Username:SolidSteel
"L.G. Fuad"
Let's get fucked up and die..
I'm speaking figuratively, of course..
Like the last time that I committed suicide.. social suicide..
Yeah, so I'm already dead on the inside,
But I can still pretend with my memories and photographs,
I have learned to love the lie.
I wanna know what it's like to be awkward and innocent, not belligerent.
I wanna know how it feels to be useful and pertinent and have common sense.. yeah
Let me in, let me in to the club, cuz I wanna belong,
And I need to get strong, and if memory serves,
I'm addicted to words and they're useless.
(In this department)
Let's get fucked up and die..
I'm riding hard on the last lines of every lie,
And the BMX bike of my life is about to explode,
I'm about to explode.
I'm a mess, I'm a wreck.
I am perfect, and I have learned to accept all my problems and short comings, Cause I am so visceral, yet deeply inept.
I want to thank you for being a part of my forget-me-nots and marigolds..
And all the things that don't get old..
Is it legal to do this? I surely don't know.
It's the only way I have learned to express myself through other peoples' descriptions of life..
I'm afraid I'm alone and entirely useless...
(In this department)
Let's get fucked up and die.
For the last time with feeling
we'll try not to smile
As we cover our heads and drink heavily into the nights
That still shock and surprise.
I believe that I can, overcome this and beat everything in the end
But I choose to abuse for the time being,
maybe I'll win, but for now I've decided to die.
Sister soldier
Youâ€™ve been such a positive influence on my mental frame
If I could ever repay you,
I would, but I'm hard up for cash
And my memory lacks initiative.
God damn the liquor store's closed,
we were so close to scoring
it hurts, it destroys 'til it kills..
I am tired and hungry and totally useless.
(In this department)

My Interests

I'd like to meet:

Someone who will support me no matter what
Someone considerate
Someone who will give me the bad news as well as the good
Someone confident.
Someone to enjoy conversations with
Someone with morals like mine, that they stick to
Someone who really, truly gets it.

Heroes:

No one can save us.

My Blog

A little closer

What's behind those thriving eyes?What's rekindled that awe inspiring mind?I hope tongues are in synch with minds,and they operate for the same end.I hope these cigarettes don't burn in vain.My ears a...
Posted by Steven SolidSTEEL [Is A Fire Zombie] on Fri, 28 Sep 2007 11:05:00 PST

Your Murderous Safety Net

At first, I could only see the sun on the horizon,From atop this mound of rubble.But a light on the ground caught my eye.Closed closets now rest wide open.Skeletons swinging through the air.These once...
Posted by Steven SolidSTEEL [Is A Fire Zombie] on Thu, 27 Sep 2007 04:55:00 PST

Hidden In Plain View

For what seems like oh so long, I've stood for oh so much. Living and loving in the purest fashion. An attempt that oh so failed; Holding your own's just not in fashion. A life lesson has been learne...
Posted by Steven SolidSTEEL [Is A Fire Zombie] on Wed, 27 Sep 2006 09:22:00 PST

For a second

This is my somber moment, undeserving and inexplicable. For when reflected on, it was always present, and when held back, it was always so surface, but when let go, it was so non-existant. Why shelte...
Posted by Steven SolidSTEEL [Is A Fire Zombie] on Thu, 15 Jun 2006 07:13:00 PST

I resign

Forgive my thoughts, they tend to wonder. They made the assumption that the haste in which we were made would not be characteristic of this lifespan. I believed it would play out as if carefully craft...
Posted by Steven SolidSTEEL [Is A Fire Zombie] on Thu, 15 Jun 2006 07:03:00 PST

If Only

I would be grateful were you to make us blind and save us from the sorrows of seeing. Our only faults are our ever curious minds and wandering eyes. Make me blind, make me see no further than what is ...
Posted by Steven SolidSTEEL [Is A Fire Zombie] on Tue, 16 May 2006 07:35:00 PST

So What if I Like Taking Back Sunday?

It is with this, that I am so concerned, The losing of myself, to something worse. The expectations for that Ive yearned, Could be the capital of this curse. Never the less, oh please, what kind? How ...
Posted by Steven SolidSTEEL [Is A Fire Zombie] on Fri, 12 May 2006 08:24:00 PST

Today's thoughts

It's been so long since lenses met light, that the images are impossible to make out. A perpetual motion machine, with a new task every moment. These tasks are lived through thoughts, as the vessesl l...
Posted by Steven SolidSTEEL [Is A Fire Zombie] on Fri, 28 Apr 2006 08:44:00 PST

Bad Wiring

I thought we'd take this ride together, regardless of length. But rest assured, you jumped out as soon as we hit traffic. A few blocks up you knocked on the window. It was at a red light so I figured...
Posted by Steven SolidSTEEL [Is A Fire Zombie] on Fri, 23 Dec 2005 10:14:00 PST

Black Diamond

It's so bright in here that dark objects are interesting. I awoke as someone else with all of my bad habits. I haven't learned a thing, I'm a coward. I'd love to see the sky, but the clouds catch my e...
Posted by Steven SolidSTEEL [Is A Fire Zombie] on Sun, 09 Oct 2005 03:45:00 PST