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Close your eyes..it means more.

reen0523

About Me

I have had a rollercoaster of a ride the last 2 years. I have learned a lot about my life and myself. I have learned to be thankful for every breath I take. To say things when they are on your mind. To let someone know how much they mean to you. To say I love you as much as possible. Life is nothing but a gift. I have seen how much I can take, and what will break me. Nothing is ever easy, but it sure is better with wonderful people in your life. I dont' like to believe in regret but I do have some regrets in my life. I choose to see the good in people, although sometimes I get hurt easier that way, its a fact of life. We learn about people everday and who they truly are.I find that no matter where you are in this world, it is nothing unless you are in it with the right people. I have learned that I have a purpose here on earth. I couldn't possibly thank God everyday for my friends, family and health. I lost someone very special to me and I will forever be changed from this experience. I have felt my world fall apart, and I am slowly trying to get it back together. Life is hard, we faces difficulties, and we learn to fight through them. I have become someone I am learning to be proud of. Time heals all but, Im still waiting, I will get there someday, that I am sure of.~~~~

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My Interests

Coffee.Sleepovers.spooning.art.music.singing loud.pino noir.my cats.random silliness.laughing.celeberity magazines.my little sister.shopping.girl talks.my amazing boys.useless trivia. people magazine crosswords.driving with friends. fashion. dreaming.hot weather.not working.smiling.dance parties. pedicures.lunch with mom.my insane family.making people laugh.laffy taffy jokes.sweatpants.cvs or any kind of drugstore. wawa trips late night. movies with my homies.playing air gutiar with my sister.monkies.hoodies.flip flops. jager.lucky charms. decorating.dressing up. staying in bed all day. love. honesty. good friends

I'd like to meet:

Lend me your eyes, love, so I can see that blue sky - A Gateway to Heaven And the stars late at night Lend me your hands, love, to brush across the ocean White foam and water Leave the earth to kiss your skinLend me your ears, love, so I can hear clearly Waves crashing soundly On the sand by your feet Lend me your face, love, so I can feel beautiful - Touched by the sunlight That has seeped through the clouds Lend me your mind, love, so I know what you're thinking - To dream of the life that you and I could've hadLend me your voice, love, - A gift from the angels! - To sing lovely verses As the sun starts to set Lend me your love – oh' god - I can't even feel it I'd give up forever just to know where you areLend me your eyes, love, so I can see that blue sky - It's a gateway to heaven And the stars late at night Lend me your mind, love, so I know what you're thinking Lend me your heart, so I know why you left***She felt it … felt his death in the emptiness that had spread through her heart.***~M.V. 4-22-07 you always knew how to make me smile, you have changed my heart forever and for that I will always love you:)"

Music:

People are often unreasonable, irrational, and self-centered; Forgive them anyway. If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives; Be kind anyway. If you are successful, you will win some unfaithful friends and some genuine enemies; Succeed anyway. If you are honest and sincere people may deceive you; Be honest and sincere anyway. What you spend years creating others could destroy overnight; Create anyway. If you find serenity and happiness, some may be jealous; Be happy anyway. The good you do today, will often be forgotten. Do good anyway. Give the best you have, and it may never be enough; Give your best anyway.

Movies:

I love you. And not in a friendly way, although I think we're great friends. And not in a misplaced affection, puppy dog way, although I'm sure that's what you'll call it. And it's not because you are unattainable. I love you. Very simple, very truly. You're the epitome of every attribute and quality that I've ever looked for in another person. I know you think of me as just a friend, and crossing that line is the furthest thing from an option you'd even consider. But I had to say it, I can't take this anymore. I can't stand next to you without wanting to hold you. I can't look into your eyes without feeling that longing you only read about in trashy romance novels. I can't talk to you without wanting to express my love for everything you are. I know this will probably queer our friendship-no pun intended-but I had to say it, because I've never felt this way before and I like who I am because of it. And if bringing it to light means we can't hang out anymore than that hurts me. But I couldn't allow another day to go by without getting it out there, regardless of the outcome, which by the look on your face, is to be the inevitable shoot-down. And I'll accept that. But I know some part of you is hesitating for a moment, and if there is a moment of hesitation, that means you feel something too. All I ask is that you not dismiss that-at least for ten seconds-and try to dwell in it. there isn't another soul on this fucking planet who's ever made me half the person I am when I'm with you and I would risk this friendship for the chance to take it to the next plateau. Because it's there between you and me, you can't deny that. And even if we never speak again after tonight, please know that I'm forever changed because of who you are and what you've meant to me..~Chasing Amy~

Television:

We're NOT perfect. We laugh too hard.We're way too loud and we make completefools of ourselves. We're much too comfortablewith each other, and a little too close for comfort.Our smiles are genuine, & we make our drinkstoo strong,but somehow we know that beingtogether is whats going to make us last forever

Books:

Sometimes we become attached to what's familiar, and sometimes we hold on to things that are safe and predictable, even if they are bad for us.

Heroes:

My friends because they each have amazing qualites that make them irraplacable. My family because after all we have been through we manage to still not want to kill each other. My sister for being so smart and so strong at such a young age.

My Blog

At peace.

Have I told you lately that I love youHave I told you theres no one else above youFill my heart with gladnessTake away all my sadnessEase my troubles thats what you doFor the morning sun in all its gl...
Posted by Close your eyes..it means more. on Fri, 30 Nov 2007 12:23:00 PST

5

five months....I cant explain how much this is finally setting in. I miss you. I love you. I wish you were here.
Posted by Close your eyes..it means more. on Sun, 23 Sep 2007 01:25:00 PST

My Heart...My Max.

"I felt something catch in my throat, a sudden surge of sadness that caught me unaware. it almost managed to take my breath away . that was the thing; you never got used to it. you never got used to t...
Posted by Close your eyes..it means more. on Wed, 29 Aug 2007 01:08:00 PST

1 year ago..

Its so strange how so many things can remind me of you. A song, a movie, when someone screams something obscene, or just laughing at something so stupid no one really understands. People tell me Im do...
Posted by Close your eyes..it means more. on Fri, 20 Jul 2007 07:11:00 PST

I miss him -all the time.... I miss him. It's not waves, it's constant. All the time.

..> if heaven knew the reasonthat I'm in the state I'm inangels would come calling just to bring you back home againif I could tell them whyI feel the way I dothey would come running just to bring ...
Posted by Close your eyes..it means more. on Thu, 24 May 2007 07:44:00 PST

I miss you...its not easy

I couldnt sleep last night, matter of fact I really cant sleep a whole lot, because you aren't here. I keep thinking Ill see you or Ill get your call. I cry and cry, but that won't bring you back. I h...
Posted by Close your eyes..it means more. on Tue, 01 May 2007 02:29:00 PST

Max 4-22-07

Pain comes in all forms. The small twinge, a bit of soreness, the random pain, the normal pains we live with everyday. Then there's the kind of pain you can't ignore. A level of pain so great that it ...
Posted by Close your eyes..it means more. on Tue, 24 Apr 2007 03:02:00 PST