I am a daughter, a sister, a grand-daughter, a niece, a cousin, a friend, a student, a young girl and a grown woman. I am unusually hard to hold onto. I am confident and scared, terrified and excited. I am loving and caring, and thoughtful, and hopeful. I am sick and tired of some shit in my life. I am proud and friendly, and careful and careless. I want to be taken care of sometimes and I am super independant. I am broken and whole. I am misunderstood, misguided, mislead. I wish on stars and dream my dreams. I pray to God and cry my tears. I smile on the outside, while I am dying on the inside. I listen to others who will not listen to me. I will walk on eggshells when needed, and I would walk on fire. I do not know if I will ever find my soulmate, and I am ok with that. I stand up for myself and those I love. I speak my mind and do things my way. I will not compromise what is in my heart. I only lie if it is for a friend and a really good reason. Smiles are contagious, pass it on. I fall sometimes hard and even for a long time, but I know there are people in my life that will help me up and wipe off the shit I feel for in the first place. I love natures beauties like the sky, trees, thunder storms, shorelines, and the stars at night. The people who mind don't matter, and the people who matter don’t mind. I would rather regret something I did then something I was to scared to try at the time. I sometimes fight with my friends and family, yet I love them unconditionally. Well-behaved women rarely make history. I am confusing and I will tell a total stranger everything about me. I may be a bitch but at least I am honest. Music is my therapy along with my friends. I am confident yet sometimes I doubt myself. When I was in high school all I wanted was to be 21 now all I want is to be in high school again… life was much easier. It's better to be unhappy alone than unhappy with someone. If you are not happy alone you will never be happy with someone. I hate change but always want more out of life. I sin but I am not the devil. Behind every bitch, there’s a guy who made her that way. I know I am not perfect and I know I am not a whore. One thing I could never do is cheat, and I mean it. I am loud, unorganized, irresponsible… but I am fun. I can forgive but I can’t forget. I don’t talk shit about people...cuz people worth talking shit about are not worth my breath. It is hard to stay strong when nothing seems right and everything is wrong. I will brighten up your day even if I can not brighten my own. I believe in karma, even know something I do not know what I did to deserve somethings. Beautiful young people are accidents of nature, but beautiful old people are works of art. I will not remember every Friday night, but I will remember who was there. I am full of love, I am full of hate. It has gotta get better right? I am selfish when I need to be and yet so giving. I can sit at home on a Saturday night, or party like a rockstar on a Thursday. I want to be left alone even know I am lonely at times. My heart is big if you can get it's key. I am selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes. I am out of control and at times can be hard to handle. But if you can not handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell do not deserve me at my best! Yes, I have fucked up, fucked people up, and been fucked up. If I learned from it then I guess it was not a mistake but a learning experience that may have cost me something dear. I am sure I will get my heart broke again, and that I will break someones if I already have not. I am good, but I am no angel. I know a lot of people, I would do anything for a few. I get bored easily, yet the simplist things are fun with the right people. Nothing in life is ever black and white. I decided to have stop worrying about the past, and I have stop planning for the future, from now on I am just going to let whatever happens happen. I don’t know what tomorrow brings so live for the moment.ALOT OF MY QUOTES ARE FROM MARILYN MONROE.....
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