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Cataclysmic Splendor

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About Me

The collegiate phase of my life has finally come to a close; hello real world, I am sooo not ready for you. Since graduation, it has been one set-back after another- and I'm not talking minor, insignificant speed bumps, I refer to career-altering, life-changing roadblocks. But alas, that is life, eh? We must do what we can with what we have and truck on. So I was at yet another crossroads whereupon I had to choose between two jobs and I chose the one that seemed most appropriate for me at this particular point in my life. It may not be the best pay, but I loved the atmosphere of the facility and the institution's philosophy, and hence I chose it over another position that may have paid better. Alas, for me, it is not about money, but rather loving what you do.I read alot, though when I was still taking my undergrad classes, rarely did I indulge in what was required with a few exceptions. On a similar note, I'm a first-class procrastinator in all that I do (for the most part). I work best under stress, what can I say? And unfortunately (or in the grand scheme of things, was it perhaps fortunate?), I have had nothing but stress until just yesterday when it seemed my world was opened back up before me and all the possibilities I wasn't able to see finally began to materialize once again. Since graduation, I have made a multitude of sacrifices, and sometimes it seemed to me and to others that I was sacrificing myself and my life, but in the long run, I feel those sacrifices have strengthend me and my faith that people can overcome their obstacles and eradicate the negative forces that cloud their vision (something I needed to be reassured of in order to best meet the needs of the individuals I will serve) and I know those same sacrifices definitely will have had a powerful impact on the man I will always love. I've been to hell and back numerous times with him, but he saved me from myself before he began to truly lose his grip, which then allowed me to learn the lessons of patience, forgiveness, hope, and unconditional love, and in the end I think we both will rise out of the ashes to become more powerful and successful than we could have ever previously imagined.I'm sarcastic as hell and tend to be cynical. My sense of humor can be best described as both dark and immature. I'm a perfect paradox, a walking contradiction. Basically, I "waste" my time reading all the news I can handle (and more), historical fiction, non-fiction, sci-fi, philosophical greats, education journals, etc. etc. I also write when the inspiration so arouses me.I'm not big on tv, though I typically have some ridiculous news program on in the background (yes, even FOX, because it never hurts to keep tabs on one's 'opponents') IF I'm not listening to music. However, when I really have the desire to sit back and sip on a cup of coffee and be lazy, I tend to watch the Sci-fi, History, and Discovery channels. Well, and the Daily Show, sometimes Southpark. But mostly, I read, write, listen to a lot of music, and am an active and engaged American...Wow, yeah, so I sound a tad neurotic. Caring about things never tends to go over so well with the common folk...That being said, theres your preview.
Your Seduction Style: Fantasy Lover
You know that ideal love that each of us dreams of from childhood? That's you!
Not because you posess all of the ideal characteristics, but because you are a savvy shape shifter.
You have the uncanny ability to detect someone's particular fantasy... and make it you.
You inspire each person to be an idealist and passionate, and you make each moment memorable
Even a simple coffee date with you can be the most romantic moment of someone's life
By giving your date exactly what he or she desires, you quickly become the ideal lover.
Your abilities to make dreams come true is so strong, that you are often the love of many people's lives.
Your ex's (and even people you have simply met or been friends with) long to be yours.
No doubt you are the one others have dreamed of... your biggest challenge is finding *your* dream lover. What Kind of Seducer Are You?
Your Brain's Pattern
You have a dreamy mind, full of fancy and fantasy.
You have the ability to stay forever entertained with your thoughts.
People may say you're hard to read, but that's because you're so internally focused.
But when you do share what you're thinking, people are impressed with your imagination. What Pattern Is Your Brain?
Your Hidden Talent
You have the natural talent of rocking the boat, thwarting the system.
And while this may not seem big, it can be.
It's people like you who serve as the catalysts to major cultural changes.
You're just a bit behind the scenes, so no one really notices. What's Your Hidden Talent?
You are a Self-Discoverer
You're not religious, but you've created your own kind of spirituality.
Introspective and thoughtful, you tend to look inward for the divine.
You are distrusting of all forms of organized religion.
You especially dislike religious gurus and leaders, who you feel are charlatans. What's Your Religious Philosophy?
People Envy Your Compassion
You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain.
People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them. What Do People Envy About You?
How You Are In Love
You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time.
You tend to take more than give in relationships.
You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.
You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.
You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard. How Are You In Love?
Your Love Element Is Fire
In love, you are a true listener and totally present.
For you, love is all about feeling more alive than you've ever felt.
You attract others with your joy and passion.
Your flirting style is defined by your strong ability to communicate.
Fun and play are the cornerstones of your love life.
And while your flame may burn too brightly, it's part of your appeal.
You connect best with: Wood
Avoid: Water
You and another Fire element: will likely burn out quickly What Element Is Your Love?
Your Eyes Should Be Brown
Your eyes reflect: Depth and wisdom
What's hidden behind your eyes: A tender heart What Color Should Your Eyes Be?
You Are a Visionary Soul
You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness.
Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connected to your soul.
You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable.
Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings.
You have great vision and can be very insightful.
In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself.
Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend.
You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer.
Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul What Kind of Soul Are You?
You Are a Rainbow
Breathtaking and rare
You are totally enchanting and intriguing
But you usually don't stick around long!
You are best known for: your beauty
Your dominant state: seducing What Type of Weather Are You?

My Interests

reading, writing, relaxing, traveling, listening to/creating/playing/singing music, drawing & painting, debating, philosophy, education, politics, history, nature, spirituality, self-improvement/enlightenment

I'd like to meet:

Who knows? Someone with some balls (of the f*** the world variety)? Just looking for friends, but you can never have too many of those!

Music:

Too much to list. I'm extremely versatile....But to give you a sampling- Belle and Sebastian, Alkaline Trio, Screeching Weasel, Guttermouth, Sex Pistols, Blur, Doves, Placebo, Pulp, Strokes, Green Day, Jimmy Eat World, Zachary Walker Band, Modest Mouse, The Hives, JJ72, The Verve, The Flaming Lips, Abandoned Pools, Badly Drawn Boy, The Marvelous 3, Muse, Scissor Sisters, old school No Doubt, Sublime, 311, Garbage, Weezer, Kenna, Bush, Pete Yorn, Oasis, Goldfinger, The Cure, Keane, David Bowie, Billy Joel, Janis Joplin, Lynard Skynard, Pink Floyd, Jimi Hendrix, the Doors, Bob Dylan, Van Morrison, Bob Seegar, Jurassic Five, Beastie Boys, 80s stuff, plenty of classic rock, even 50s/60s mo-town and such, classical music and some country. Lots and lots of music...

Movies:

Forrest Gump, Clerks (and anything by Kevin Smith), Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas, The Matrix & the Animatrix, Dazed and Confused, SLC Punk, Sid and Nancy, Drugstore Cowboy, (recently saw Van Wilder, so that must be added), lots of documentaries...Again, plenty.

Television:

Daily Show, Southpark, Family Guy, King of the Hill, Simpsons, Countdown, Everybody Loves Raymond, Nick at Nite, Adult Swim, Quantum Leap; Sci-fi, History, Discovery, news networks, CSPAN, etc.
Which Family Guy character are you?
Loretta
You are a strong black woman who has a very easy time controlling your man. You usually hurt your husband while having sex with him.

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Books:

wow, too many to list, as par usual...Umm, to scratch the surface: Flowers for Algernon, Fear of Flying, Stranger in a Strange Land, Captains and the Kings, Burr(Gore Vidal), The End of Education, The Third Secret, The Origin of Death, Confessions of a Recovering Slut... many philosophical works, sci-fi thrillers, historical fiction, satire (such as America), educational and political informative works, etc. Specifics are unnecessary here. Ask me. I'm tiring of filling out this form.

Heroes:

doctors, teachers, our troops, anybody and everybody that stands up for and/or devotes their lives to others (sounds cheesy, I am well aware, but thats the truth)...but if I had to be specific, lets go with Ann Coulter. That crazy woman could care less if she knows what the hell she is talking about, yet she exudes confidence and an air of superiority even in what one would presume might be the most humiliating of circumstances (read: 'Canada went to Vietnam, I'm sure of it!'). I'm jealous.

My Blog

Muffled Mind

Right now I am not certain what I think of much of anything. My mind is racing, my heart pounding, and dear god does it sting I haven't an outlet for the pain Though I try in vain To inhale and ...
Posted by Cataclysmic Splendor on Wed, 28 Jun 2006 10:03:00 PST

Confusion

Confusion A splitting headache Caused by the contusion inflicted upon my heart.. Optimistic dreams but a pessimistic mind The ultimate hypocrisy That stands the test of time.. How does one eradicate T...
Posted by Cataclysmic Splendor on Fri, 10 Feb 2006 12:40:00 PST

Injustice

I'm not entirely sure what I think about much of anything anymore. You can control your life and it's outcome to some extent, and I'm all about taking responsiblity for your actions and recations, but...
Posted by Cataclysmic Splendor on Tue, 24 Jan 2006 04:56:00 PST

The Illusion of Resilience

The Illusion of Resilience   At a loss Yet again Momentary hope Washed away Where to begin?   Forever Does not exist With the exception of Despair That, indeed, persists   Broken promi...
Posted by Cataclysmic Splendor on Sat, 14 Jan 2006 10:56:00 PST

The End- goodbye to many, hello to just as much

And another chapter of my crazy life has come to a close...Today was my last day student teaching- it was hard enough having to say goodbye to my students, but they went and threw me an incredible sur...
Posted by Cataclysmic Splendor on Sat, 17 Dec 2005 05:00:00 PST

What NOT to do

Those of us blessed with any semblance of intelligence are also, unfortunately, free of common sense. So yeah, I've done yet another stupid thing. (Seems I do an awful lot of things that can be classi...
Posted by Cataclysmic Splendor on Mon, 07 Nov 2005 01:33:00 PST

The Seas of Impractical Desire

The Seas of Impractical Desire   The waves crest and swell As if in tribute To the sea of insatiable passion Locked in the depths of a probing heart And a voice now muted The wind whispers promis...
Posted by Cataclysmic Splendor on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Sacrifice

Sacrifice Eros' golden arrow piercing but only one The other struck with indifference Destiny manifested Tears etched and frozen across time Released from the sky in torrents flowers bud and bloom In...
Posted by Cataclysmic Splendor on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

On the Nature of Life

On the Nature of Life Time simultaneously stands still and courses at an inconceivable velocity Life is but a mirage expressed as a veracious monstrosity Hedonistic desires and sadistic pleasures Mo...
Posted by Cataclysmic Splendor on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST