(READ BEFORE ADDING ME)
I am Jordan, I am me and me alone. I have the same nature as all other humans, but unlike most I can see it, most people live in lies they built themselves. Do not say you are not shallow, you are. Do not say you are not greedy, you are. Do not say you do not lie, do not use people and do not care what others think, you do. The thing is we cannot see it ourselves because we don’t want to, we created a lie and we don’t realize we’re lying, it usually only others can see it. Me? I am shallow, vain, self obsessed, hypocritical, prejudice ect but I am truthful. Though I am all these things it doesn’t make me a bad person because deep down you know you are too. Besides that, if I talk to you, I am generally caring, generous, helpful, truthful and a good friend ect. I will not say “do not judge me†because it only takes a second to judge and I would be lying if I said I don’t judge. I will not say I do not care what others think because I do, I am self-conscious as everyone else and self-hating, though if I don’t know you what you say won’t bother me. I value friendship and those who try to establish friendship with me. I value intelligence above all things. My life is hollow empty and meaningless as is yours, but I realize it. I do not tell people what to believe, I tell people what I believe and it is their choice wether to listen or not. There is no such thing as equality and never can be, you yourself know that you are better then some people and some are better then you. If I seem stuck up its either just you, or I find you boring and annoying. I am not a Satanist, I do not believe in god or anything greater then ourselves. I believe we do not truly know anything and never can. There is no reason to life except our own beliefs and values. I do not fear death because death is not a conscious feeling. If you wish to get to know me then talk to me before you decide wether you like me.
Why white?
-Because it is honest, modest and un-intimidating. White because it is simple and is fresh, people choose black because they think it is different, but how is it different to be the same as everyone else?
Individuality;
You are not an individual, you are not different, forget the freak your just nature. No matter how hard you try you are no different to anyone else. You can not fight your who you are, who you are is human and you share the same qualities as the rest of us. You destroy everything you touch; you are judgmental, shallow and greedy. You are flesh and bone and blood and nothing more. You cannot be different in the end your just another empty wasted lie. If you think you are different you are obviously naïve. Do not complain about conformity, you conform wether you realise it or not. You conform by listening to music that others listen to (wether its mainstream or not) you conform with clothes, (being Goth or punk or hippie whatever isn’t nonconformist you are conforming to a group) You conform to with your friends, you are like your friends, you conform to the rules of society. If you wish to escape conformity kill yourself. If you have problem with rules then work to change them, would life be better with out rules? Some maybe but there must be order. With out the laws of society the world would fall into chaos. You conform.
(I am A conformist)
Hypocrisy;
We are all hypocrites and we all hate ourselves because deep down we know we are what we despise. Most often the things we hate about other people are qualities we ourselves hate. Do not be angered at a lair, you are a liar, even me saying that is hypocritical because I hate been lied to, yet again I am a liar just as you. I do not use people? Some one made me realise that I really do use people even those who are friends. It doesn’t mean I am not their friend but it just means part of the friendships foundations are personal gain. Eg. I surround seem to surround myself with people who I know are attracted to me, it does not mean I am not their friend but still I am subconsciously using them. Friendships are built around some kind of personal gain for both parties, well mostly though one may not always gain something. Do not tell me it’s a lie because you know its true even if you cant see it. Just think about it and you will know I am right.
(I am A hypocrite)
Judgemental;
I am vain, shallow and judgemental. Judgement is natural and it is necessary, how would you be able to measure trust, form friendship, know when to believe some one? We all judge and it is not wrong. But we are also overly judgemental. As soon as you see someone you judge them by appearance, you are more likely to treat some one who is attractive better then one who is ugly. We are less likely to talk to some one who is ugly and we are less likely to take some one seriously if they are weird looking. At first glance you might think some one is “cool†or a loser. Do not hate judgemental people because you are. It is part of our nature, the body is but a shell, a vessel to the mind but we use it to judge a person. We are but animals, we think with our eyes and genitals, we are but beasts who live to fulfil our carnal desires and want. Most people are mentally blind and see nothing past the flesh and blood, our bodies are a mask of our mind and is all most people choose to see. (I am judgemental)
Stereotypes;
I hate stereotypes-I stereotype-I am stereotyped
Everyone complains about stereotypes but everyone does. Though I think that many stereotypes have something behind them but they are taken out of proportion. I stereotype because they can be true but I do not believe some one is a stereotype eg. I think most Goths listen to metal, most emos are or claim to be bi ect. I think that of a group but I do not think it of the individual people. Just say I hate punk and you are punk it does not mean I hate you, it means I hate punk (I don’t but its an example) If some one sounds queer or dresses like a queer I am likely to stereotype and think they are gay. It’s the way the mind works. I hate prejudice of all kinds but I am prejudice. I do not hate gay people but if I found out one of my friends are gay I would likely treat them differently. I stereotype race; I assume most Asians are smart, I assume most Tongans are big, I assume most Americans are loud and arrogant even though I know they aren’t. (I am prejudice)
Soulless;
The only thing that separates us from just being flesh is our mind and our ability to think (our so called soul). Id say the majority of people are empty and pointless, well at least half our population. When you look into their colored eyes all you see is grey and blank expression. They have brains that function, that gives them the ability to, walk, eat, drink, talk ect, but they have no true thought. All they know is a small area, that involves them, and yet they hardly know about even that, they think only with in their box. They seek to obtain no knowledge, they know what they know and are happy to advance no further. They have no ambition, nothing they can achieve, no soul. These people have no purpose, they are animals, eat, crap, sleep, they only know instinct. Then there are those who are intelligent yet they are still soulless, all knowledge they know is things that have already been learned, they have no new ideas, they only know what they read, see, hear, though they are academically intelligent they are still hollow. People do not realize that they must learn from them selves not just from experience.
My definition of a soul;
The soul is something you are not born with; it is something you must earn through obtaining wisdom, knowledge, and thinking independently. When I say independently I am not referring to conformism or thinking different by dress of music, but as to learning what has not been learnt, learning what has other then what is taught, thirsting for knowledge. The soul is energy, a spark that certain people seem to have. The soul has nothing to do with morality, good or bad right or wrong, but the existence of a true mind. The ability to think out of the box, a thirst for knowledge, and an ability to obtain it.
Most of you would not have souls.
(I wrote this last year)
I am A Goth;
So I must be depressed and suicidal I must spend all my time summoning the devil and slitting my wrists. If you believe this do not talk to me.
-I do not worship Satan
-I do not slit my wrists and never have
-I do get depressed but so does everyone
-I wear black but I will wear other things
-I am not psychotic
-I don’t only listen to metal
-I do not hate my life anymore then most people
-I do not torture animals
-I am not a necrophiliac
Do not:
-Add me and tell say lame sir jokes such as “good day to you sir†or “how do you do sir†or “sir yes sirâ€. If you do I am likely to block you.
-Do not try to convince me of your beliefs if you have nothing to back yourself with.
-Do not tell me who “I†am.
-Do not use me, do not drain me, if I help you do not complain to me every time something goes wrong in your life
-Do not add me if you are going to waste my time
So you know:
-If I don’t talk to you I am either busy or don’t like you
-I appreciate people who take the time to talk to me
-Do not add me if you don’t plan on talking to me
-If you add me and do not talk I will probably delete you
-If I seem stuck up its because I am
-If you think you hate me you obviously don’t realize how much I hate myself
-I do not believe in any God apart from myself
-I am nothing and I am everything
-I love Jordan above all things
Quotes;
-All it takes is one bad day to turn the sanest man to madness
- I neither affirm nor deny the immortality of man. I see no reason for believing it, but, on the other hand, I have no means of disproving it. I have no a priori objections to the doctrine. No man who has to deal daily and hourly with nature can trouble himself about a priori difficulties. Give me such evidence as would justify me in believing in anything else, and I will believe that. Why should I not? It is not half so wonderful as the conservation of force or the indestructibility of matter. . . .
- It is no use to talk to me of analogies and probabilities. I know what I mean when I say I believe in the law of the inverse squares, and I will not rest my life and my hopes upon weaker convictions. . .
- Is there a God? I do not know. Is man immortal? I do not know. One thing I do know, and that is, that neither hope, nor fear, belief, nor denial, can change the fact. It is as it is, and it will be as it must be.
-The only true knowledge is knowing we know nothing at all
-It is know judgment of health to be called sick by a morally incorrect society
-A fool becomes wise when he knows he is a fool, A wise man becomes a fool when he thinks himself wise
The heart;
“a hollow muscular organ that pumps blood around the body, in humans situated in the center of the chest with its apex directed to the leftâ€
Our emotions have no link to the heart, there is nothing special about it, it does not cause us to do things and it does not control us. It is a pump, a valve and nothing more. Do not follow your heart because it is nothing, do not feel with your heart because it is nothing and do not love with you heart because it is nothing.
(unfinished)
