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hi, i'm hilary, a.k.a. hilly. i'm 19. i'm filipina, irish, and german. i'm a sophomore at furman university - studying psychology ... for now. i'm forever changing and i'm incredibly indecisive. there have been a few people who've been able to riddle me out and accept who i am, however. for those people, i'm eternally grateful. i'm waiting for my chance to fall in love, but i'm in no big hurry. i fell in love with someone ... but it ended in heartache. so i'm not really looking anymore. i'm waiting for someone to find me. somebody that will want me regardless of my flaws - and will appreciate how much i care. i like music. and singing, sometimes. i can't dance ... but i like to try. =] i tried my hand at painting and have some decent work to show for it. i play the flute/piccolo/guitar/tenor sax/bass drum and other smaller who-gives-a-shit instruments. i consider myself very honest and open. ask me a question and i won't beat around the bush like most other people. i don't take people for granted. i hold onto them until it hurts, and that's most of the time where i screw up. i'm a fierce friend and i do the majority of the things i do to keep people happy. in turn, i stay happy, so it's a pretty fair trade. those who i care for know i would give up my spot in heaven for them. there's a lot more to me than meets the eye. and i know that someday someone will want me. most people that actually get to know me see someone completely different than who they thought i was, or so i've been told. i really just like having a good time and being with the people i call my friends. nothing else really matters. =] i love all things and all people, or at least i'm willing to give them a chance. so, if you want to know me, try me. i don't take myself too seriously. i laugh at myself in situations where most people would blush. but i'm always down for living it up. ;D
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Maybe I'm the joker - Maybe I'm the fool in your eyes - Maybe I'm the weak one - Maybe I'm a lie in disguise - Maybe I'm angry - Cause I'm the one whose always wrong - Maybe I'm not the one whose so strong - But did you think about it - Did you pull it in and pull out - Could you live without me - Did you ever really have a doubt - But do you understand it baby - When you say it's over it's done - Maybe I'm not the one
So If you're gonna Leave - Yeah you better get going - Cause I ain't wasting no more time - What you did and what you didn't - So if you're gonna leave - Yeah you better start running - Cause I ain't wasting no more time - On what it might have been
We can stand on reason - We can fight about all the things - This isn't for forever - This is more than a wedding ring - But do you understand it baby - When you say it's over it's done - Maybe I'm not the one
So If you're gonna leave - Yeah you better get going - Cause I ain't wasting no more time - What I did and what I didn't - So if you're gonna leave - Yeah you better start running - Cause I ain't wasting no more time
Whoa did it happen again - With the things that you wanted - for being a friend - How did it happen again - Just look onward baby - cause some day you might need a friend
So if you're gonna leave - Yeah you better get going - Cause I ain't wasting no more time - What we did and what we didn't - So if you're gonna leave Yeah you better start running - Cause I ain't wasting no more time - I ain't wasting no more time - On what it might have been