Mr. T's Baby Baby

I may not have everything but, I have self-control. And for that-I am unimaginably thankful and gracious. Recently, I had to face my biggest challenge. I had to look face to face with my reality and ask myself what should be done. This force was ruthless and relentless, constantly perplexing my mind and creating more controversy in my life. I lost my sanity and broke promises. I broke promises I had believed so firmly in and took pride in. I lost all accredidation. It was a struggle to deny this force while also an imposition and hassle within my life. This force brought my world to shambles. One day, I found myself laying in this wreckage, so scared and so angry. I asked myself how I could let go of something I loved so tremendously. The answer was quite simple...the love was false. It was an excuse, a temporary excuse. I compromised so much for bullshit. I look back now though and my journey is far from over. The force is not with me any longer but, it is always watching me close by, trying its damndest to hold me captive once again. Everyday, I have to remind myself what is real and what is not. I have to remind myself to be strong and to contain my self-control. I have to remember all the damage that accrued. I have to remember what is truly significant in my life. I let the fire in me burn out before and I am committed and pray everyday to let my fire burn as bright as it once did......
Free Countup Timers at WishAFriend.com ..Well first things first, my name is Jenn. I am 24 years old but, have been said to be an "old spirit". I live in Haddam with my fiance, Rick and our cats, Smokey and Bandit. We plan on moving into a bigger place during the summer. I am a Residential Instructor at a group home in East Haddam. I am taking time off from school right now but, I plan on going back this coming fall. For now, I am going to enjoy being engaged and eventually begin planning the wedding of my dreams. Rick and I are planning on having the wedding in May of 2009. Now that the facts have been presented, I can tell you a little bit about who I am. I am a free thinker, a fighter, and a goofball. I enjoy any challenges that come my way. I live moment to moment as often as I possibly can. I accept my reality as is rather than being in denial or having regrets. At times, I can overanalyze or overrationalize (but what female doesn't?) Anyways, I appreciate the simple things in life and am enjoying my journey thus far.*N*R*F*S* I edited my profile at Freeweblayouts.net , check out these Myspace Layouts!
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