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♥ happily blue

sleep: the state of nothingness that means everything

About Me

I question unquestionables and believe in questionables. Story of my life.

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My Interests

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i like to read interesting books according to me, i love bugging people for knowledge, and i love being outdoors. i picked up an interest in aikido but im no expert. i love scenery and finding inspiration wherever it pops up from. im also contemplating a cultural culinary journey-basically trying out foods from all cultures whether hidden or exploited.

I'd like to meet:

I want to meet people that keep it real, that are unique and genuine, whose ideas are inspiring and whose attitudes arent based on superficiality. People that teach me new things, that make me mad, that are simple, people that make me happy, people that have a future, that are able to withstand interesting conversations, that value respect and dont interrupt when people are speaking. I like individuality and emotional intelligence.

Music:

JAZZ, grunge, alternative, and everything else with a good beat. john coltrane, miles daiv, soundgarden, stone temple pilots, red hot chilli peppers, oliver nelson, alicia keys, christina aguilera, and herbie hancock are amongst my favorites.

Movies:

Kill Bill Vol 1 & 2, 300, Blood Diamond, Lord of War and anything that strikes a nerve.
Your Inner Muse is Melpomene
You are most like this muse of tragedy.
While you aren't depressed, you don't shy away from sadness.
Although you do tend to be gloomy, you have a sensitive side.
And this sensitive side helps inspire and help others.

Books:

brave new world, civil disobedience, and

Heroes:

none. i dont believe in heroes, i dont think we need anyone's exact ideals in order to strive. we dont need flocks of sheep, this society needs individuals. However i do believe in admiring people's strengths and achievements.

My Blog

a loyal friend

i wanna go to the beach!!!!my thoughts are waiting for me there....my pen trembles at the fear of run onsmy notebook fears my random stabbings due to angry outburstsmy left hand pains already at the l...
Posted by ♥ happily blue on Sun, 06 Apr 2008 07:12:00 PST

feeling worthless (low self-esteem day)

i feel shitty when i compare my live to others, i have accomplished nothing, just procrastination and bullshit excuses and lack of discipline. im enrolled at school, yay! but what am i doing? i dont e...
Posted by ♥ happily blue on Sun, 30 Mar 2008 02:05:00 PST

chapter 5 isnt what i was expecting

so here i am. almost two weeks at being twenty and i feel old. i know im young but considering that om 20 i dont know jack! my mother loves to give me a hard time about my inability to cook, wash, and...
Posted by ♥ happily blue on Sat, 22 Mar 2008 02:04:00 PST

dear aphrodite

i really appreciate you cutting me some slack, however i would love it if you left me alone and let me LIVE!!! do i not deserve happiness? do i not deserve to be truly loved? what have i done that get...
Posted by ♥ happily blue on Thu, 20 Mar 2008 12:18:00 PST

am i a bad friend?

natural instinct of mine is to nurture: hug, advice, comfort, listen, run hand over back, give my two cents, play with the hair, anything of the like; i do to show that i care and that im paying atten...
Posted by ♥ happily blue on Sun, 16 Mar 2008 01:13:00 PST

where can i find you?

soulmate....wtf is that? how do i know if i found him? no no, this is no way to complain about my current beau, hes awesome but sometimes i wonder and my eyes wander, and i ponder about my love life a...
Posted by ♥ happily blue on Thu, 13 Mar 2008 05:36:00 PST

randominity

as im approaching my 20th b-day i am encountering slow realizations which i know are going to mount to an epiphany (yes i like to throw that word in, what are you going to do about it?) one reason why...
Posted by ♥ happily blue on Tue, 04 Mar 2008 11:57:00 PST

...........

its hard to love when your mind is filed with paranoiayou hear things.....you see things......and you know whats going on, you know yourself too damn well to tell reality from horrible fantasy, no its...
Posted by ♥ happily blue on Fri, 22 Feb 2008 09:53:00 PST

today is shitty im blogging it

its bad enough i had to work, i wanted to tag along in his judo class and see fun things. anyways, i get to work and go along with my day only to see that im the only one making use of time and do shi...
Posted by ♥ happily blue on Fri, 22 Feb 2008 09:17:00 PST

motivation to live

im inspired by the beauties of life. its chaos, romances, pains, and pleasures-all motivate me to seek the greater knowledge there is yet to know. why shit goes down, why shit goes up, and how it brea...
Posted by ♥ happily blue on Wed, 20 Feb 2008 09:49:00 PST