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e m i l y. ♥

I'm what's here to show you something's missing

About Me

i am emily i am 19 i am alive and i REALLY appreciate what that means.
i love that feeling you get when you listen to a really beautiful song, and you're happy and you're sad and you feel alive
my favourite colours are green and blue
my favourite people are my mother and father
if you can think of one time in your life when you were happy and loved then its all worthwhile.
i am happiest at dawn by the ocean listening to the waves feeling the sand under me and thinking beautiful things.
i zone out ALL the time, i'd rather live in my head than reality.
i believe in karma.
i believe in love, and hate and that indifference hurts worst of all.
i love my friends
i love my dog (R.I.P. Jack)
i dislike peanuts
i dislike coconuts
i get sad when i see perfect things. i guess because the only thing that can happen after something is perfect is disintegration. that makes me sad
i hate liars, vindictive, manipulative, backstabbing hurtful people. they are small and they mean nothing to me.
i believe in the end you're all you have, so you have to love yourself. you're all you have to have to at least like yourself.
i believe reality exists at the end of your dreams.
i want to be a social worker or an adolescent counsellor or a sexual assult counsellor. because everyone has something they need to talk about. and if i can help ONE person then i guess i'll be okay and happy. i just don't want anyone to be no one, or FEEL they are no one.
things are changing so fast this year, and i can't slow down change and its kind of scary...and i have to wonder, is everything what i want it to be?
i love my home and i love what home means home is where the heart is, don't be afraid to make your own home!!!
don't be afraid to take the past head on.
and i definately definately definately believe... that deep down... the soul CAN endure
peace, love, understanding...forever!!!


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My Interests

I'd like to meet:


adopt your own virtual pet!

Music:

Art of FighitngBusdriverSufjan StevensThe Cat EmpireDave Matthews BandM83Rob DouganDeftonesP.O.DEelsRage Against The MacnineRed Hot Chili Peppers -Coldplay –Adema -SwitchkickerAudioslave -The DepartureYouth GroupThe Polyphonic SpreeArchitecture in HelsinkiThe BeatlesBernard FanningThe DearsJosh PykeThe DoorsJeff BuckleyJohn LennonThe KooksKing CrimsonStyrofoamVasco EraMichael FrantiJohn Butler TrioRufus WainwrightMartha WainwrightA Perfect CircleThe CureThe KinksAntiskepticSoundgardenAugie MarchThe Beautiful GirlsBlindsideThe Butterfly EffectThe CranberriesEditorsEELSEskimo JoeFourth Floor CollapseInterpolJebediahJimmy Eat WorldThe KillersLinkin ParkMobyThe NotwistPalladiumThe PanicsPlaceboPowderfingerThe Red PaintingsSnow PatrolSpartaAt The Drive-InThe Mars VoltaThe WhiteroomYouth GroupThere’s heaps more but I can’t think of them

Movies:

rain envy (not the jack black piece of shit) american beauty grave of the fireflies

Heroes:

♥ my parents ♥

My Blog

Reasons for Leaving

I'm supposed to be this way Isolated Desolate Malcontent Infuriated Solitary Because I finally understand If my life was perfect, if everything was grand, completely and utterly cruisey and ea...
Posted by e m i l y. ♥ on Sat, 04 Aug 2007 10:49:00 PST

portrait of a dead soul

ScratchesAnother fake diseaseIs there reality in this?Or it just a dream?Checkered floorsWe've come a long long wayIt seems we all just look the like stonesIt makes us all the sameAnd I feel aloneTher...
Posted by e m i l y. ♥ on Sat, 16 Jun 2007 07:08:00 PST

we're all looking for something

There was once a little wave, bobbing along in the ocean, having a grand old time. He's enjoying the wind and the fresh air         &nb sp;  ...
Posted by e m i l y. ♥ on Sun, 03 Jun 2007 02:33:00 PST

stand up!!!!

We live in a sick fucked up fucking world. I'm not having a bitch. It's a fucking fact  Not only do we abuse and mistreat ourselves, but the beautiful innocent animals that love and trust us to ...
Posted by e m i l y. ♥ on Sat, 12 May 2007 04:59:00 PST

Disintegration

I went to see my great aunt today, she's dying. Its so hard to watch someone who was so happy and jolly and grandmotherly to me turn into this wasted gaunt frightened lady. Her eyes look bigger that h...
Posted by e m i l y. ♥ on Wed, 07 Mar 2007 12:03:00 PST

josh pyke fill you in

And then the weatherman said to go back to bed,because it's shame to go outside when the wind keeps howling now.So for a little while there I lived inside a cave,and there were bears and bugs and leav...
Posted by e m i l y. ♥ on Sun, 14 Jan 2007 02:55:00 PST

you're gone but its okay

The pumps are off And no ones walking on their own Our little soft soles upon the stones And I'm drunk And can't get home Silver moon cuts. Falls into your yard It splits the trees down to form a guar...
Posted by e m i l y. ♥ on Sun, 07 Jan 2007 09:11:00 PST

change

There's something I've realised in the last couple of weeks; but it's become a thought now, slowly like a realisation of self, I guess. You can be as nice, understanding, empathetic and helpful as you...
Posted by e m i l y. ♥ on Tue, 26 Dec 2006 02:45:00 PST