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Chiller - May 3rd
Bamboozle - May 4th
Prom - May 9th
Relay For Life - May 16th
Seaside - May 30th-June 1st
Jimmy Buffett - June 14th
Graduation - June 18th
Graduation Party - June 21st

I just want to rip my skin off and start again from scratch.

Maybe in few hours or a few days I will find the time and the inspiration to write out something describing myself at this point in my life. A few months, or even days, after that I'll probably change the entire thing again because I've changed. Your safest bet is to just talk to me, but if you want to wait for a small autobiography, then by all means, go ahead.
I want desperately for people to see things through my eyes, even if just for a moment. I chase sunsets with my car and stop in the middle of the road to take photographs. I am no photographer, but I won't lose a beautiful scene. Nothing is comparable to the night sky and I wish I had wings. I belong in the 1940s or the 1980s. I want to fall back into my writing.
When I speak, my mind goes through a filter. I have all of these amazing thoughts, but when I try to convey them, all that comes out is worthless babble, offensive words, and anger. One day my thoughts will become separate and people will truly know what I am like on the inside; not the careless, absent-minded girl that they see before them. There is so much more.
I think too much, I feel too much, I change often. I'm turning my life around. I am sick of wishing that I could do more when I know that I am more than capable of doing so. I only want positive influences in my life and some people are going to be surprised about who I consider negative. I don't need this bullshit; it's restricting. I am going to grow as an artist and a person. I will become enlightened and happy. And it all starts right now.
I need them. I adore all of my friends. If you are not on here, it doesn't mean I don't love you.Rossifer. My fucking angel. No one quite understands how lost I would be without this boy. I have known him for over two years now and he means the absolute world to me. We have put each other through so much hell but also have had some of the best times of our lives together. He is my guardian angel and has been there for me even when I was at my craziest. He knows more about me than I ever wanted him to, but now I realize that I wouldn't have it any other way. I can turn to him for anything and he will help me; he's really the only one that knows how. Our bond is priceless and I wouldn't trade it for the world. I have never met another boy like him and I doubt that I ever will.Whitey. BEST SEVEN YEARS OF MY LIFE. This girl has been there through everyfucking thing. I can't even begin to explain what we've experienced, from travelling together, making silly movies, and pissing people off. Somehow, we always seem to get what we want. From the day she wrote in the third stall to our most recent trip to Rutgers, this girl has never failed to amaze me.