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Or Get Myspace Comments====================================Technically my name is La Nese. ==================================================== ====================================This year has probably been my roughest year yet. I allowed someone…well 2 people really… to cause me to act out of character. I don’t know why I did. I simply allowed them to get under my skin and did something silly. Lol, it is funny how I can laugh about it now without it taunting me and plaguing my membrane. Long story short… I have finally learned that no matter how long I have known someone if they are causing me more harm than good I should let them go. Like Vivian Green said, “I like it, but I don’t need it”. Who would have thought that it would only take one word … TRUST … to completely deteriorate 14 years of knowing and connecting with him? And as easy as it was to connect with him it is even easier to disconnect from him. All it takes is one click of a button... Take a deep breath … What started the first day of kindergarten should have ended summer 07, the summer prior to 12th grade … *click… Exhale and don’t look back. It is time to move forward. Like the caterpillar, I will emerge with a new breath. ==================================== ====================================Continuing the sour note==================================== ====================================As most of you know I have a problem with fibbing. I try to tell the truth always no matter what. I have begun to notice a commend trend amongst the people who are in my life. You people really can’t handle truth. Not the truths that you’ve created for yourselves, but the truth as in someone else’s strong willed opinion. Those who know me well know, or at least I hope you know, that I have strong opinions about things that I don’t like or agree with. But this is how I see it. Just because I don’t agree with it doesn’t mean I wouldn’t support you in it. In fact, when I have ever said hey you know what I don’t like you FRIEND because I don’t agree with the choices you make? Name one time! And don’t you dare say, “You know when”. Like 4311 I do! Do you want truth? I’ll give you truth. No I don’t agree with some of the things you have done in your past and I most likely wont agree with everything that you will do in your future. Yes, sometimes I can’t stand you and the silly way that you think. And yes I will confess that at times I have wished that I didn’t consider you to be my friend so that I could simply walk away from your hurt. I don’t understand why you hurt so much. But I do know one thing. I have always been willing to give you a shoulder to lean or cry on and ears to vent to. You can’t deny that… or maybe you can. Maybe you got so wrapped up in the standards that I set for myself that you didn’t pick up on the meaning of a true friend. Maybe you didn’t notice that I am open to all walks of life. What’s good for me may not and most likely will not be good for you. But I get it… It’s not me hating you it’s you hating yourself. When you are ready to talk or just need to vent you know how to find me… I’m soooooo predictable. :D I wish you well in life and I truly hope that you find happiness and love within yourself. ~PEACE IN~ ==================================== ====================================Ok. Back to the “About Me” part. :P==================================== ====================================Currently I am attending IUPUI majoring in mechanical engineering technology. I know I know. It is a weird choice for a girl but I like it. I enjoy creating things. It’s much more personal when you can say, “I made that”. Yeah I made an amplifier and it works!!! Well I have only used it once. I’m kindda scared it’ll catch fire or something. Lol. Hey don’t judge me! I made it in Tech 105 and guess what! Out of the 20 students, 19 males and 1 girl (yes me!!), my amplifier was the only one that did not spark a flame when our final products were tested. So ha suck on that! Lol j/k. But no, seriously you have no idea how good that felt being the only student whose amplifier worked properly. That feeling is what I am chasing after. I don’t know how or where I’ll find that felling again but I am dedicated more than ever to find it once again. ==================================== ====================================Hummm I think this is long enough. My apologies for my venting. I’m a bottler. I bottle everything up until someone or something causes me to boil over. That is another thing I’ll have to work on. I guess I’ll be writing poetry more often from now on. Oh yeah, If you have any questions send me a message. I promise I wont take 4 months to get back to you. Lol
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