Grey_Sky

I CANT EVEN THINK RIGHT NOW.. SOMTHING GOT ME FEELING GUILTY..BUT YOU SLOWLY , BUT SO SURELY, I DONT KNOW WHY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.. I CANT FEEL BECAUSE IM LOST, NOT TO MUCH THERES NOTHING MORE.. IS IT YOU OR IS IT ME.. OR IS IT US OR IS IT TRUST.. OR IS IT DRUGS.. WHATS SHE MISSING, WHAT I WANT..BECAUSE IM SO GODDAM SELFISH, BUT YOU HATE ,STOP BEIN LAZY ., I DONT KNOW WHY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, I CANT FEEL BECAUSE IM LOST.. NOT TOO MUCH ITS ONLY ALITTLE MORE.. IM SO ALONE.. EMPTY AND LOST.. ITS EASIER TO LET YOU GO.. TIME WILL ONLY KNOW.. ASHAMED AND ALONE.. IS IT YOU .. IS IT ME.. LET ME SLEEP.....AND I WANTED YOU TO TURN AWAY.. YOU DONT REMBER BUT I DO.. YOU NEVER EVEN TRIED..DONT FALL AWAY LEAVE ME TO MYSELF. DONT FALL AWAY AND LEAVE LIFE BLEEDING IN MY HANDS AGAIN.. I HOLD IT NOW.. I FEEL THE DANGERS.. AND I THE ONLY PLACE THAT YOU LOVE TO GO.. SHES CRYS LIKE LIFE IS LIKE BLACK AND WHITE.. AND IM JUST THINKIN DAMM LIES.. BUT STILL SHE CRYS..IT SEEMS LIKE EVERYDAY IS THE SAME AND IM LEFT TO DISCOVER MY OWN.. EVERYTHINGS GREY AND THERE NO COLOR TO BRING HOME.. THEY SAY ITS OVER AND IM FINE AGAIN HERE....TRY TO STAY SOBER FEELS LIKE IM DIEIN HERE.. I AM AWARE NOW HOW EVERYTHINGS GOIN TO BE FINE.. ONE DAY, TWO LATE, IM IN HELL IM PREPARED NOW.. I FEEL A DREAM IN ME EXPIRE AND THERES NOONE LEFT TO BLAME IT ON..CUZ I CANT SEEM TO GET THIS THROUGH. WHY TRY TO STAY SOBER WHEN IM DIEIN HERE..YOU SAY YOUR LIFE IS A BORE.. CANT AFFORD FRENCH QUARTER QUICK.. AND YOU PAIL UP NEXT TO ME.. SPAWRALED ON THE PAVEMENT.. ITS SAYS .. SON.. TIME IS ALL OF THE LOCK YOU NEED.. IF YOU STAY LUCKY THEN MY TONGUE WILL STAY TIED.. AND I WONT BETREY THE THINGS I HIDE.. NOT ENOUGH YEARS BENEATH THIS BELT.. TO ADMIT HOW I FELT. LEAVES YOU COLD AND WET.. ANYWAY WAY YOU STRETCH IT.. DEFINE APPATHY , WATCH THAT YOU DONT CATCH IT..WHAT SO EVER I FEEL IS.. COMING TO LIFE.. WHATSOEVER FALLED OFF BECAME MY LIFE.. JUST WHEN EVER DAY SEEMED TO GREET ME WITH A SMILE.. SOME SPOTS ARE FADED.. NOW IM DOIN TIME.. CUZ I FEEL ON .. BLACK DAYS.. I FELL ALONG .. BLACKDAYS.. WHO SOEVER IVE CRADDLED.. IVE LET YOU DOWN..WISH I WAS TO DEAD TO CRY..SELF AFFLICTION FADES.. STONES TO THROW.. U DONT NEED TO BOTHER.. I DONT NEED TO BE, I'LL KEEP SLIPPING FARTHER.. ONCE IM DONE.. I WONT FALL DOWN TO ABLIS. WISH I WAS.. TO DEAD TO CARE.. WHAT I NEED TO CARE AT ALL. NEVER HAD A VOICE TO PROTEST.. YOU DONT NEED TO BOTHER.. I DONT NEED TO BE.. I'LL KEEP SLIPPING FARTHER.. ONCE I HOLD ON.. NEVER LOOK DOWN BY THE SEA..YOU HAVE A CHANCE TO REALLY SHINE NOW.. BUT PAITENCE WAS NEVER ONE OF YOUR TRUE VITUES. STOP TRYIN TO CONTROL EVERYTHING fuck WHAT THEY SAY.. SO WHY AM I WAITING.. THIS LIFE THAT IM WASTING.. IF THATS WHAT YOU MEAN.. HOW WILL THIS BE.. WHEN ALL IS SAID AND DONE..WILL I KNOW WHERE IM FROM.. REMEMBER ME.. WHERE WILL I BE.. GUES IM ON THE RUN.. AND TIME IS CATCHING UP BEHIND ME..I DONT FEEL THE SUNS COMIN OUT TODAY.. STAYIN IN.. GONNA FIND ANOTHER WAY. AS I SIT HERE IN THIS MISERY I DONT THINK I'LL EVER SEEN THE SUN FROM HERE. LORD KNOWS IVE BEEN AWAY.. AND YOU'LL LOOK AT ME.. AND SAY.. I'LL NEVER LIVE THAT WAY.. ITS OK. ITS JUST A FRESH CHANGE.. WHEN YA FEEL LIKE LIFE AINT WORTH LIVIN.. TAKE A LOOK UP AT THE RAIN WAY UP IN THE SKY.. WHEN UR DEMONS START POKIN .. BETTER START DREAMIN , WHEN YOU STOP DREAMS DIE.. KNOWS IVE FADED AWAY.. HEY LOOK AT HIM.. WHERE HE IS THESE DAYS.. LIFE IS HARD.. YOU HAVE TO CHANGE..