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D-Saxum (Derek)

Clown Town: no shelter, no anything Clown Town: single angel, no exit.

About Me

"She Reads Books While She Walks," Anonymous (infamous slam poem)
She reads books while she walks.
Her long white skirt is kind of see-through,
but that just might be my imagination.
Her black bra straps wrap around her sun-tanned shoulders peaking ever so gently out of
her blue tank top stopping just below her waist line.
She's worn this outfit before.
But she gets shit done in it.
She reads books while she walks.
Her ring tone came with the phone,
but she never hears it anyway.
She doesn't have a favorite TV show,
but she has a place where she always gets coffee.
She doesn't call it her favorite though.
Her skirt sticks to her hips on Mondays and Wednesdays
but blows in the wind on Tuesdays and Thursdays.
Her job would like to give her a promotion,
but that would mean she'd have to start paying off her student loans.
She reads books while she walks.
She periodically misses her Poly Sci class.
You know the one with the old Professor
who reluctantly lets her answer all the questions.
But luckily the cute boy who sits behind her took notes.
She'd date him if she didn't have a purpose in life.
And if she wasn't already seeing this other guy.
He's not the one and she doesn't mind that she'll never meet his mother.
But she repels pity; this whole relationship shit fell off her priority list a long time ago.
She reads books while she walks.
Because think of all the productivity that can be produced from point A to point B.
Her point B lies light years away.
Her point B is so bright that it still lights the long, long trip from point A.
Her point B is talked about with a hint of admiration and a dose of jealousy by those who fell into their point B's.
Her point is not to just be.
It is to believe.
It is to become.
It is to bestow upon others what she's learned.
Her gift of wisdom.
Her blood rush of compassion.
Her vein-slapping of sensibility.
Asking her what classes she wants to take next quarter
is like asking a six year old boy what he wants for his birthday.
Asking her what she wants to do with her life
is like asking Tolstoy to jot down a few words about conflict.
Asking her if she is free on Friday night because you'd like to get to know just a little bit more about her
is like asking NASA if there is any spare room on the space shuttle for a star-gazing stowaway.
She reads books while she walks.
And be careful because if you ask her out she might just say yes.
She might just talk to you for hours about the work of the one psychologist who you remember learning about but quickly forgot about after the midterm.
But the way she explains how the waves in your brain respond to physical stimulation penetrates your rib cage.
Rips your heart strings out of your chest.
Ties knots not even boy scouts can figure out.
And lets what's left fall to the ground.
Every little inch of string.
Every little inch of what makes your soul sing.
And she says, you shouldn't have asked me out cause I don't have time for encores.
She reads books while she walks because our closest star only gave her 24 hours a day.
But she's never had anyone tell her that she is her own star.
She makes her own light.
She makes her own orbit.
She makes her own energy.
She reads books while she walks but her footsteps write poetry.

My Interests

musics, reading, writing, poetries, shows, completing puzzles and connecting the dots

I'd like to meet:

I no ho i want to no so thank yo.

Music:

Pretty much anything, but I'm a sucker for emotion, meanings, and voices worn down by too many cigarettes

I am currently, at this very moment, infatuated with:
Travis Morrison, The Mountain Goats, Neutural Milk Hotel, Tupac, The Decemberists, Broken Social Scene, MewithoutYou, Damien Rice, Ben Gibbard, Deseparecidos, Smog, Sufjan Stevens, Dispatch, The Eels, and The Microphones

Movies:

Donnie Darko, Pi, Requem for a Dream, Snatch, Fight Club, Garden State, Howl's Moving Castle

Television:

Propaganda!

Books:

James Joyce (_A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man_ and _Dubliners_),

Franz Kafka (all of his short stories),

Allen Ginsberg ("Howl" and "Unconditional Love"),

Henry David Thoreau (_Walden_ and "Civil Disobediance"),

Kurt Vonnegut (_Slaughter House V_ and _Carts Cradle_),

Ernest Hemingway (_A Farewell to Arms_, _The Sun Also Rises_, and "The Undefeated"),

George Orwell (_1984_ and _Animal Farm_),

J.D. Salinger (_The Catcher in the Rye_ and _Franny and Zoey_),

Herman Hesse (_Siddhartha_),

Lao Tzu (_Tao Te Ching_),

_Rig/Sama/Yajur/Atharva Veda_,

_Perks of Being a Wallflower_,

Ray Bradbury (_Tangerine Wine_ and _Fahrenheit 451_,

Ayn Rand (_Anthem_ and _We the People_),

Thomas Luz

James Tate
and
Chairman Mao Tsetung (_Little Red Book_)

Heroes:

Anyone who is genuinely nice and honest... And Friedrich Nietzsche :)

My Blog

Sometimes, the sunshines everywhere.

AxesIf a tree (once upona stump)at the topof a hill,packed uphis bags (tight)and triedto movehills,then he(that is the tree)would find his roots(like vinesor veins)to be the hillit(him)self,so trying...
Posted by D-Saxum (Derek) on Thu, 26 Jun 2008 02:15:00 PST

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We, (i.e. you and me)were eachpuzzledand forcingtogetherpuzzle pieceswhich werepuzzling becausethey didn't(and still wouldn't) fit.It seems as ifwe've stoppedtrying to make anysense of there beingan i...
Posted by D-Saxum (Derek) on Fri, 23 May 2008 01:50:00 PST

Kneespeek

Yo! Hey mr. knee, this is quite a pleasure - m[unintelligible]umbleI haven't so much as thought once about you in a really really long time. - really? [once-prickled follicles lower their standard, ex...
Posted by D-Saxum (Derek) on Wed, 14 May 2008 02:24:00 PST

An Early Spring Morning (ProsePoems)

Natural Invisibilities       &nbs p;    There is a bird native to the deep, damp tropical rainforest, which is called the wingless impossibility becaus...
Posted by D-Saxum (Derek) on Wed, 19 Mar 2008 04:18:00 PST

Jackals

They found itThe evidence rotting under the floorboardsBones float in water closetsThe wolves gave you to the laughing jackalsIn exchange for a possible promise of aMaybe better futureBecause bad habi...
Posted by D-Saxum (Derek) on Mon, 25 Feb 2008 08:16:00 PST

N-e-e-dlework

I apologize, if my eyesDon't meet your eyes All of the time.They droop down and aroundBecause I like finding new patternsIn the woodwork, patchwork, needlework, godwork.If you're wondering why I don't...
Posted by D-Saxum (Derek) on Fri, 15 Feb 2008 10:47:00 PST

Everything that follows, like all that precedes, is a blatant lie:

All statements are false,Because we live like skeptics.All emotions are causeless,With an audience of cynics.When it comes to friends, we can never learnAnything about anyone ever,If we call each othe...
Posted by D-Saxum (Derek) on Tue, 15 Jan 2008 07:31:00 PST

Ill Catch You on the Flipside

I'll catch you on the flipside; When all of this bullshit seems right, because my life looks fine with my head in between my knees, and maybe once everything gets flipped on its nose, all these suspec...
Posted by D-Saxum (Derek) on Fri, 04 Jan 2008 02:53:00 PST

Crisscrosstmas

Christmas is no longer crisscrossed across houses and homesBut no longer crisscrosses across kin and compassionBecauseChrist was created, crying in a crooked cradleNot calling out carols along the cau...
Posted by D-Saxum (Derek) on Tue, 25 Dec 2007 10:55:00 PST

Little Hermit Head

Little hermit headWith your needle and threadStitching perforationsInto every interactionI can see where few seams are still leftAnd I am waiting to hear everything ripAnd I am waiting to feel your lo...
Posted by D-Saxum (Derek) on Mon, 17 Dec 2007 12:49:00 PST