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(~*Amongst the Stir of Lights*~)

What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us. -Anony

About Me

"Yes: I am a dreamer. For a dreamer is one who can only find his way by moonlight, and his punishment is that he sees the dawn before the rest of the world."- Oscar WildeIt's been a bittersweet symphony, this life. But, I refuse to give up the hope of one day finding my place in this world. To find rhythm for life's harmony. I consider myself to be an old soul that stays young at heart. I have been described as a "Fallen Angel", but this monicker is untrue, for I am unperfect. I have faults, as do we all. I have at times in my life been naive and have fallen into the monotony of conformity, which is to say, that I am only human. Honesty is one of the best qualities for a person to have and one of the best gifts for a person to give. It allows a person to be real, to be themselves, and to gain the trust and understanding of others. I strive everyday to better myself for the betterment of others. Many times, my actions have been considered abstruse, but there is a method to my madness. I believe that there is goodness in everyone, even those that may spite me. The belief in karma: that everything we do has a reason, reaction, and consequence. I believe that we are here for a purpose and the reasons, for said purpose, are there for our understanding and our control through the power of free will, which some say, is known as destiny. Through destiny, we are taught "life lessons", through which, we are granted knowledge to help us learn and grow. Where shall destiny take me? Of that, I am uncertain... but until my odyssey ends, I shall help those that I can. I give of myself unconditionally, without expectations of receiving anything in return. I will take only what is given. Unfortunately, this does elicit unwanted attention by those that take for granted and those that take advantage of, insofar as disassociation will allow. Personal growth is a necessity in my everyday life, so I keep my eyes and ears open to the world around me, especially to people, places, and things that intrigue me. I am an ever-expanding wealth of knowledge...it's just finding a positive outlet, in which to channel it. I tend to look at the bright side of things, rather than the negative. It is much easier to focus on the positive, which allows me to see humor in everything. I am simple, humble, and take nothing for granted, so I constantly look for opportunities that will bring about change. I pray that I am given the chance and the ability to keep changing, in perpetuum. To keep learning, evolving, and improving into the man that I'm supposed to be.

"To have no direction, does not mean that one has lost his way. He is only searching for a course, in which to travel." -JRL....

My Interests

To be influential is to be impressionable...I am A New Breed of Machine! Family, My sisters and brothers from different mothers, Hanging out with close Friends (Whom I Hold Very Dear- You Know Who You Are!). I would gladly give my life, so that you might live! Drinking Beer with the Homies!, My boxer puppy- Moe, My 2 fish- Jack and Tigger (more coming soon), Spirituality, Being one of the Renegades of Funk and an "Adrenaline Junkie", Music/ Concerts, Skateboarding, Road Trips (Places far, far away), "The Auto Shop", Movies, Books/ Magazines, Writing endlessly, Art, Weight Lifting/ Excercise, Ancient Cultures, Sleeping (ZZZ...), Food and Cooking.The purpose of this life: Do I serve a purpose or purposely serve?, the power of the mind, meditation, philosophy, psychology, spirituality, the eternal soul and spirit, life after death: reincarnation or resurrection?, the human aura and the transference of bodily energies, enlightenment, faith in the unknown, the strength of music, astrology, creation's power (to make and destroy), being able to fly without wings, the stories dreams tell, and the never- ending endeavor in creating myself and the life that occurs along with it...


Your Five Factor Personality Profile
Extroversion:

You have high extroversion.
You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends.
You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation.
Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!"

Conscientiousness:

You have high conscientiousness.
Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life.
Most things in your life are organized and planned well.
But you borderline on being a total perfectionist.

Agreeableness:

You have medium agreeableness.
You're generally a friendly and trusting person.
But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism.
You get along well with others, as long as they play fair.

Neuroticism:

You have low neuroticism.
You are very emotionally stable and mentally together.
Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly.
Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure.

Openness to experience:

Your openness to new experiences is high.
In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.
You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.
A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.
You Are a Prophet Soul
You are a gentle soul, with good intentions toward everyone.
Selfless and kind, you have great faith in people.
Sometimes this faith can lead to disappoinment in the long run.
No matter what, you deal with everything in a calm and balanced way.

You are a good interpreter, very sensitive, intuitive, caring, and gentle.
Concerned about the world, you are good at predicting people's feelings.
A seeker of wisdom, you are a life long learner looking for purpose and meaning.
You are a great thinker and communicator.

Your Personality Profile
You are dignified, spiritual, and wise.
Always unsatisfied, you constantly try to better yourself.
You are also a seeker of knowledge and often buried in books.

You tend to be philosophical, looking for the big picture in life.
You dream of inner peace for yourself, your friends, and the world.
A good friend, you always give of yourself first.

I'd like to meet:

Anyone that feels the need for growth in everyday life. People that have intelligent minds and are not afraid to speak or use it. Anyone that strives to give of themselves to the fullest extent in any given situation and expects nothing in return. More importantly, anyone that needs help with life's obstacles- You don't have to walk the path alone!Leave it to you to reach for a fallen soul. A soul that didn't reach for you. Only someone with a real heart will understand the feeling of falling, of falling alone, and extend a hand of love even though you weren't shown the same. The next time you're hanging, if you can work up a yell...yell out for me, and I will extend to you the same you have to me. As long as I breathe the air and walk this world, you will never be alone. Much love from one angel to another!

Music:

Cleveland's hometown boys- Bone Thugs N' Harmony and other rap artists with songs of substance like Tupac, Notorious B.I.G., Common, Kanye West, and Ludacris! AC/DC, Acid Bath, A Dozen Furies, A.F.I., Agents of Oblivion, Alice in Chains, A Life Once Lost, All Shall Perish, All That Remains, A Love Ends Suicide, American Head Charge, A Perfect Circle, A Perfect Murder, Aqualung, Arch Enemy, As I Lay Dying, A Static Lullaby, Atreyu, Avenged Sevenfold, Black Sabbath, Bleeding Through, Blessed Union of Souls, Blind Melon, Blindside, Blink182, Blood Has Been Shed, Blue October, Bullet For My Valentine, Burn the Priest, Bury Your Dead, Bush, Cake, Candlebox, Cell Dweller, Chevelle, Chimaira, Clawfinger, Clutch, Coal Chamber, Cold, Coldplay, Counting Crows, Creed, Crossbreed, Crossfade, Damageplan, Darkest Hour, Darwin's Waiting Room, Dave Matthews Band, Deadboy and the Elephantmen, Dead Poetic, Deftones, Despised Icon, Devil Driver, Dillinger Escape Plan, Disturbed, Doors, Down, Downset, Down the Sun, Drowning Pool (Dave Williams, R.I.P.), Dry Kill Logic, 18 Visions, E.L.P. (Emerson, Lake, & Palmer), Endo, Everytime I Die, Finch, Five Bolt Main, Flaw, Foo Fighters, Full Blown Chaos, Gizmachi, Godsmack, Goo Goo Dolls, Good Charlotte, Grade 8, Haste the Day, Hatebreed, Hotwire, Ill Nino, Incubus, Infirmus, In Flames, It Dies Today, James Blunt, Jars of Clay, Jimmy Hendrix Experience, Killswitch Engage, KoRn, Lamb of God, Led Zeppelin (John Bonham, R.I.P), Life House, Limp Bizkit, Linkin Park, Lost Prophets, Machinehead, Marilyn Manson, Martyr A.D., Mastodon, Memento, Meshuggah, Metallica (old school), Mike Patton and his many personalities, Misery Signals, Modest Mouse, Motogrator, Mudvayne, Mushroomhead, Nickelback, Nights Like These, Nile, Nine Inch Nails, Nirvana (Kurt Cobain R.I.P.), Norma Jean, Nothingface, Operator, Otep, Our Lady Peace, OZZY, Pantera (Dimebag R.I.P.), Papa Roach, Pearl Jam, Pink Floyd, Pissing Razors, Pitch Shifter, P.O.D., Poison the Well, Powerman 5000, Rage Against the Machine, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Saosin, Scars of Tomorrow, Seether, Sepultura, Sevendust, Shadows Fall, Shinedown, Sick Of It All, Skillet, Slipknot, Smile Empty Soul, Staind, Static-X, Still Remains, Strapping Young Lad, Stonesour, Stone Temple Pilots, Soulfly, Spineshank, Superjoint Ritual, Switched, Switchfoot, Sworn Enemy, Taking Back Sunday, Tantric, Taproot, The Acacia Strain, The Red Chord, The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, The White Stripes, Third Eye Blind, 30 Seconds to Mars, Three Days Grace, 3rd Strike, 36 Crazyfists, Through the Eyes of the Dead, Throwdown, Tool, Trapt, Trust Company, Twisted Method, Underoath, Unearth, Unloco, The Used, Velvet Revolver, Wallflowers, Walls of Jericho, Zeromind, and many, many more.

Movies:

The Definitive Classics- "The Goonies", Beetlejuice, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, Ghostbusters, Batman/ Superman/ Spiderman/ X-Men! Pretty much anything when it comes to movies! Horror, Action, Comedy, Suspense, Drama; you name it and I'll probably watch it, if I haven't already seen it. Two of my favorites are "Serendipity" and "What Dreams May Come".

Television:

Although I don't watch too much television: Headbanger's Ball! 24, The Unit, and The Shield. Any show where I can learn something (documentaries and such) to Enhance the Enlightened Mind! Discovery Channel, T.L.C., History Channel, Science Channel, Travel Channel, Animal Planet, Comedy Central, and Food Network.

Books:

Anything fiction (Stephen King), little bit of nonfiction, mythology, religion and spiritualism, the macabre, magazines (Maxim, Stuff, Spin, Blender, Rolling Stone, U.S. News and World Report, Men's Fitness, Best Life, and Forbes). So, pretty much anything that catches my eye.

Heroes:

God; for his great sacrifice to us.We are forever indebted to Him! Anyone that brings unconditional truth, guidance, love, and understanding to others.

My Blog

***Coming Soon***

Hello again, my faithful readers! New work is on the way! I think that maybe it's time for me to step it up a notch. I guess, we'll have to wait and see what develops. Stay tuned f...
Posted by (~*Amongst the Stir of Lights*~) on Sun, 09 Sep 2007 09:27:00 PST

Locked Away

Chance has passedAs memory falls to ashImages filter through the pastBlack and whites of you that clashRepeating in my headOverlapping each otherAs they spread Revealing yet another Chorus:So, I keep ...
Posted by (~*Amongst the Stir of Lights*~) on Sun, 22 Jul 2007 05:25:00 PST

Mystical Butterfly

Captured in a visionOf astral projectionYour winds penetrate still airAs glitter falls from outerspaceTo land as lightly as new fallen snowIn the flower upon which you restRadiance shines throughEclip...
Posted by (~*Amongst the Stir of Lights*~) on Sun, 15 Jul 2007 06:24:00 PST

This Side of Two-Faced

Having "diarrhea of the mouth" won't get you shit, but a big ass mess to clean up! Sometimes, it is better to have said nothing, than anything at all!   Forked tongues have bredTo spread their s...
Posted by (~*Amongst the Stir of Lights*~) on Tue, 15 May 2007 06:37:00 PST

An Open Book of Failures

This poem explains the "fatal decline" of my life, over the last 6 months.  I am out of "Hell's Hole", with the help of those who shall remain anonymous. Thank you! You know, who you are!!!I...
Posted by (~*Amongst the Stir of Lights*~) on Sat, 14 Apr 2007 01:15:00 PST

Seek and Find

Keep looking and you shall findThat you are not that far behindPeople are out there searching,Just the same as youFor their significant other,I know this much is trueSo stay strong in faith and lovePo...
Posted by (~*Amongst the Stir of Lights*~) on Sat, 14 Apr 2007 12:08:00 PST

The Beautiful Travellin' Stranger

(~*To Melanie*~) I've been on the road for a long timeLetting the wind carry me where it mayI met someone for the first time yesterdayOn that long weary road which stretched out in all directions...
Posted by (~*Amongst the Stir of Lights*~) on Thu, 02 Nov 2006 07:44:00 PST

Stillborn Dreams

Carried forth in the form of foul whispersSound that only reaches my earsWords fall like stoneFrom the lips that gave them birthAs sharp tongues lash outSinking deep into fleshBreaking boneAlong the e...
Posted by (~*Amongst the Stir of Lights*~) on Sun, 04 Mar 2007 05:49:00 PST

This Affliction

I show scars, as you show flaws... Watching helplesslyFalling away from meThe theory of nevermore, a certaintyLand of broken dreamsSilenced by silenceBy things seen and unseenSubtle changeFrom beautif...
Posted by (~*Amongst the Stir of Lights*~) on Fri, 23 Feb 2007 10:59:00 PST

Deepening Spiral of Directed Punishment

Directed punishment For reasons unbenouncedSolidarity in disbelieveSoul riddled with holesFrom the gunPointed at my heartSnuffed out in the ashtrayThe monstrous leviathonUngodly in creationCulminating...
Posted by (~*Amongst the Stir of Lights*~) on Sun, 18 Feb 2007 01:41:00 PST