Love and hate could never be friends....Most people say that I am a very positive person, and I inspire them to be better. I think this just might be one of the easiest things in life to accomplish, though the pitfalls of our Empirial society have trapped us, redered us unconscious, and made us believe that we cannot be better.
What has helped me in life has been to OPEN MY EYES AND EARS to who and what are around me. If I find myself "going with the flow," or agreeing with the masses, I usually stop and ask myself why? Then, I turn around and run like hell in the other direction. I may have to run for a while, but eventually, I reach the edges of the city, be they on a high mountain top, or in low valleys. It is always different, but it is always the same...SILENCE...DEEP SILENCE...a silence so loud I can begin to hear god within myself. At first, I didn't- I couldn't know that god was me. It takes some time, and not always on the first run. I sometimes feel I've run far enough, but soon I see I haven't left and arrived. I know I eventually will, every time.The more I know god, the more I know myself, and the more I know myself, the more I know god; her voice is clear, and he speaks to me often. Of course, I am human...I am that devil in my other photos. But he's harmless (most of the time). I know that the UNIVERSE IS SO GENEROUS to those who live in honesty, according to their potential. If only we try to get our lazy asses to that halfway mark, not in ignorance, or what we think we should be doing, but according to what god wants us to do, which is what we know we really want to do; if we can do this, then the Universe will meet us at the border and offer us a lift to where we need to go.
Fortunately and unfortunately, I get out of the "car" every now-and-then to walk around and mingle with my people, the righteous and the sinners, the freaks and the perfection, my brothers, sisters, mentors and lovers. When I've had enough, I look for that taxi to take me to another place.I have learned that I, Mark, cannot simply do this anytime I want. The Universe has order amidst the chaos, and she has rules for me. She has demanded of me a clear mind and clean body. Through healthy eating, which I mainly prepare with my own hands (Hey, I'm single, and I live alone...if I don't feed myself, who will???), consistent physical and mental exercise, and at least an attempt to love myself and others, things begin to reveal themselves; my prayers become answered and I see the results. I become my action and intent. In yoga, we say that the seeker becomes that which is sought; he who envisions becomes what is envisioned. ALL BORDERS DISAPPEAR, AND THE THIN VEIL BETWEEN TRUTH AND ILLUSION IS LIFTED.Now I have to be honest. I love the pleasures of life and I just can't give them up...just yet. I may never. One does, when one is ready. I still have a lot of things to do, places to see, love to make, people to meet. I believe as the ancient Greeks did, which is to try everything, or at least experience everything within moderation. Too much of this or that boggs me down and slowly snuffs out gods voice within me. But who wants to listen to "that voice" everyminute of everyday?? Come now, life is to be loved and love is to be lived!So what does all this mean? I really don't know. I have a few other voices besides god's in my head, all competing for Marky's attention, and right now, one of them is telling me to shut the :0 up already!!
