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I wrote these poems about me. The format of this profile program does not allow the true form of poetry to give the visual effect that I origionally intended. Hope you can read it with a poets heart.********************* JUST A BOY *****************************where********************* **************************where is she? ***************************My mother,********************* ******************************Mom ********************* ****************************No hugs,********************* ***************************no kisses, ************************no laughter from her ************************to remember her *********************Does anyone love me" ********************* ************************live or die, **********************************does anyone care?********************** **My sisters ********************* ********************they are not the same ***************** ************************as a brother ********************* *************************My brother,********************* **************************hurts me *************** *********************when ever he can, ********************* **************any way he can ********************* ************* *****what does a kid know? ********************* ************************I don’t********************* ******************** ******Know ********************* ***************** ******I only know********************* **************************I hurt,********************* ******************* ******inside********************* ********************Helpless to change********************* ************* ******Make these feelings **************************change********************* *********************Who will help me********************* ************************TIME ALONE ************************************************************ ************************************************************ *************************NOW A MAN************************Opening the book of my life *************************** the path backwards is clear ***************************the lunacy of mistaken *************************** forecepts *************************** concepts *************************** precepts *************************** fearful steps *************************** broken hearts *************************** broken dreams *************************** shattered sorrows *************************** a procession of steps *************************** higher *************************** ***************************higher *************************** ***************************and yet higher *************************** life sharing her wisdom *************************** with each mis-step *************************** rediculously silly, thoughtless actions ************************** could have, should have killed, destroyed *************************** I survived *************************** NOW *************************** ***************************I am now a man *************************** Confident *************************** clear sense of self *************************** secure in self *************************** leads by silent example *************************** leadership through service *************************** truth guides me *************************** moves my words *************************** my actions reflect *************************** my essence and convictions *************************** my free, joyful heart explo *************************** des with laughter at every opportunity *************************** unrehearsed unrestrained *************************** secure in who I am *************************** now a man *************************** able to be anyone I want *************************** do anything without fear of disapproval *************************** FUCK YOU ALL *************************** I SAY, *************************** *************************** FUCK YOU ALL IF YOU DON’T APPROVE *************************** I do *************************** ***************************I am now a man *************************** ****************************************************** ****************************************************** ***************************WHAT DO YOU REALLY WANT? *************************** ********************************************************* ***************************What do you want me to do, ***************************to be, *************************** *************************** someone, something, ***************************other than me? *************************** Should I strain to create humor *************************** Labor to make your lips *************************** separate in a smile *************************** do you want a puppet *************************** to do tricks for you *************************** to entertain you *************************** like the court jester *************************** for the queen *************************** shall I fill my ears with jello *************************** and snort milk up my nose ***************************to make you piss your pants in laughter? *************************** Should I tell stories, *************************** true or not *************************** And hope you APPROVE *************************** If you ask for a puppet *************************** You shall certainly get a clown *************************** Not a man *************************** Funny perhaps *************************** But Not a man *************************** Do you want a man? *************************** YES I am that *************************** To find humor and joy *************************** in everyday people *************************** Everyday things *************************** To bust a gut WITH you *************************** when we catch ourselves being human *************************** this man can do that *************************** all day long *************************** throughout the night too *************************** Can this man make you laugh *************************** With his impersonations *************************** and silly antics *************************** DAMN RIGHT!!!! *************************** Can WE have a hilarious time *************************** Doing just about anything *************************** HELL YEAH!!!!! *************************** Can this man see possibility *************************** When everyone else is caught up *************************** in the middle of the storm ***************************And I do it smiling! *************************** A real man can be all this *************************** AND *************************** ***************************Be there for you *************************** When you are in pain *************************** When your heart is shattered *************************** and torn to shreds *************************** To offer you beautiful silence *************************** And a rock solid shoulder *************************** To cry on *************************** To hear with compassion *************************** and understanding *************************** To your daily frustrations *************************** And celebrate with you *************************** Your achievements and victories *************************** To support your growth *************************** in all aspects of your life *************************** These things and more *************************** I can do *************************** if you want me to *************************** I give myself *************************** My heart *************************** To YOU *************************** *************************** Unprotected *************************** Vulnerable *************************** Open *************************** ***************************Your choice *************************** WHAT DO YOU REALLY WANT? ************************************************************ ***Love in constant motion *********************Desire flowing freely *********************Pain shattering her heart *********************She keeps trying ********************* *********************In spite of the fear *********************Hiding the fear ********************* *********************Thinks no-one can see *********************I see ******************************************Her fear ********************* *********************Her pain ********************* *********************Her desire *********************They are mine too *********************Someone to love *********************Someone to love me *********************Deeply ********************* *********************Unconditionally ************************* *********************Forever ********************* *********************Warm embraces ********************* *********************Long walks ********************* *********************Fiery kisses ********************* *********************Thunderous laughter ********************* *********************Faith and belief ********************* *********************Trust and respect ********************* *********************No room for fear ********************* *********************Just love-- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- A:link,A:visited{color:white;text-decoration:none;font-famil y:lucida sans unicode;font-size:8pt} A:active{color:white;text-decoration:none;font-family:lucisa sans unicode} A:hover{color:white;text-decoration:none;background:green;fo nt-family:lucida sans unicode;font-size:8pt} body{scrollbar-face-color:green;scrollbar-shadow-color:yello w;scrollbar-highlight-color:white;scrollbar-3dlight-color:wh ite;scrollbar-darkshadow-color:white;scrollbar-track-color:b lue;scrollbar-arrow-color:black} input, textarea{background:none;font-family:lucida sans unicode;font-size:8pt;color:white; border-style: dashed;border-color:none;border-width:0} i{color:blue;font-weight:italic;font-size:8pt;font-family:lu cida sans unicode} u{color:dodgerblue;font-family:lucida sans unicode; font-size:8pt;text-decoration:underline} b{color:navy;background:none;font-family:lucida sans unicode;font-family:lucida sans unicode; font-size:8pt;font-weight:bold} big{color:navy;font-weight:normal;font-size:8pt;background:n one;font-family:lucida sans unicode} font{color:white;font-family:lucida sans unicode;font-size:8pt;background:black} hr{color:black}