JANICE

I felt it was time to update my space...some people know me to be a very creative, funny,loving, ambitious,self driven and motivated person and alot of my friends and family know that I am driven by love. I really don't make decisions based on pratical ideals of everyday life... I'm directed by love. I wrote this poem in June of 2002. About a year after arriveing in New York. I felt it kinda difficult to adjust to liveing in the urban jungle of nyc after liveing in Japan for over 2 years. This poem came to me one night.....I was sitting down, wishing I could meet some real people that understood what love really meant and these are the sweetest words that flowed..... *LOVE*....What is it that makes me hang on to this false sense of reality?....All the while, avoiding the true nature of my soul.....Desperate to fit into this mold, the character of Janice....the artist..the braider..the mother..the child..the sister..the confidant..the healer..the temptrest!...All the while avoiding the true nature of my soul....In these eyes I have seen lifetimes, I have experienced love, shame, sorrow and grief....All the while avoiding the true nature of my soul.......Feeling the earth quake as it releases the sins of man.....Seeing the sunami rise and wash away the heartache of its children....Never realizeing that the ONE is always ever present....Watchful!....But I still ran.....All the while avoiding the true nature of my soul.....What is the true nature of my soul you might ask?.....IT IS LOVE!!!!!....A love so deep, that the mind cannot reach.....It cannot be thought upon, the smoke, the sweet perfume from oils cannot draw it nearer.....All the mandalas, all tantras....3,000 aums.....Never to you is it dearer......Only in liveing it....being it....seeing it....giveing it...experiencing it!....It is the key....It is that energy, that you feel...Did you ever wonder where that warmth you felt came frome when you see your child smile?....When you feel the heat of the sun against your skin?...When you felt the first snow flake drop on the lash of your eye?....Sensing that calm energy...as the sun begins to rise.......It is that comfort that you feel...as the universe continues to do its job.....The sun rises and falls...the wind blows....and the season changes.....IT IS LOVE....Love....that gives another day...each day is another moment to draw closer....ever so nearer...To the realization of the ONE....The ONE is perfect in its's love....We are all perfect in the ONE....The ONE is all perfect in us.....Knowing this....I still run....You still run....All the while avoiding the true nature of our souls....IT IS LOVE!!!!