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About Me


-my name is kele. you can't pronounce or spell my last name properly, so let's just not bother.
-my eyes change color with my moods, so depending on the moment they're a shade of brown , green , grey , or a m i x of those, but never EVER blue .
-i play a bunch of instruments, but they're all orchestra stuff, not RAWK music. 'cept my clarinet. it rawks so damn hard.
-i make cookies and veggie lasagna so good it would make you wet yourself.
-i've been veggie since i was twelve, following an incident with some info i got from the ASPCA.
-i'm allergic to smoke .
-i drink, mostly vodka and kahlua. i cannot stand the smell or taste of beer .
-i am an audiophile like whoa. i could spend bill gates' bank account and all my life in a good record store .
-i'm deaf in one ear, due to an incident with a speaker and my no-longer-intact ear drum.
-i'm SO picky about movies. love or abject hate. no in-betweens.
-my mom is an artist in every sense of the word, and since she taught me to crochet, i've made all my own scarves.
-i'd make you one if you asked. and i'd probably send you cookies too.
-i like reminding the people i love that i love them. and i love being reminded that people think i'm not too shabby either.
-i've had die-hard insomnia since about third grade. it's worse when i'm alone, and even worse in new/unfamiliar places.
-my imagination scares the living shit out of me.
-i've been diagnosed with manic depression, but i'll do everything in my power to make sure you don't notice.
-my friends are my world. seriously . i live for you guys.
-i'm a bookworm. jack kerouac is my hero for life.
-i write. but i'll burn more of it than you'll ever know existed.
-i've saved every flower that anyone has ever given me. ever.
-until i moved out of my old house and a couple of my ex-roommate's friends kicked over the vases of dried flowers and they all got destroyed.
-i am in love with all things asian, and especially japanese . not because it's trendy. because my granddad used to work for air japan, and i grew up with it as part of my life.
-i am a whore for a good shoulder rub and an extended cuddle session.
-i eventually plan on being an accomplished computer software designer/translator/masseuse/pastry chef/peace activist/member of a major orchestra.
-my favorite song (which has been my favorite since fifth grade) is playing on my favorite radio station from back home, which i listen to online nonstop, and i can't stop smiling.
-i hate being lonely , but i hate complaining about it even more, so it never gets better.
-i'm in love with love , and the main thing i want out of life is to feel like somebody needs me. not in a " gahican'tfunctionwithoutyourconstantpresence " way, but in that subtle "i want you here, because you make everything feel right" way.
-if you ever meet me in real life, hug me, no matter how shy i seem about it. i can never get enough hugs.
-if you'll go get a cup of coffee with me at 3 a.m. when i can't sleep,
i'll love you forever .
^_^ People Who Love Me ^_^
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My Interests

figuring it all out... being happy, trying to avoid drama, love, all the good moments, no matter how far and few between they seem at times... and other stuff, too... like music, and art, and good books, and rainy days in bed with green tea and 8 hour cuddlefests... and a bunch more... just ask and i'll tell...

I'd like to meet:

crazy dharma bums
skate rats
punk rawkers
133t speakers
bass junkies
street poets
loudmouths
cynics
lovers fighters

and everyone else who's ever felt completely and totally caught up in the moment and is now addicted to moments and going through withdrawal...

Music:

30 Seconds to Mars, Ace of Base, AFI, After The Fire, a-ha, Alice Cooper, Alice in Videoland, Anberlin, Anti-Flag, Apoptygma Berzerk, Armin van Buuren, Armor For Sleep, Ashley Simpson, Assemblage 23, Bauhaus, The Beatles, Beck, Ben Folds Five, Billy Idol, Billy Joel, The Birthday Massacre, Biz Markie, Bjork, Black Eyed Peas, Blank & Jones, Blind Melon, Bloc Party, Blues Traveler, Brand New, The Bravery, Buckcherry, Bush, Chevelle, Christina Aguilera, Coheed and Cambria, Counting Crows, Covenant, Crash Test Dummies, Crass, The Cruxshadows, The Cure, Cute Is What We Aim For, Cyndi Lauper, Cypress Hill, The Dandy Warhols, Dangermouse, DangerDoom, Daphne Loves Derby, David Bowie, Death Cab For Cutie, Deftones, Depeche Mode, The Dismemberment Plan, DJ Tiesto, The Dresden Dolls, Elliott Smith, Eric Clapton, Eurythmics, Eve 6, The Faint, Fall Out Boy, Fiona Apple, Fischerspooner, Flogging Molly, Flyleaf, Forgotten, Fort Minor, Franz Ferdinand, Frou Frou, Garbage, The Get Up Kids, Glassjaw, Goldfrapp, Goo Goo Dolls, Green Day, Hawthorne Heights, Head Automatica, Hot Hot Heat, House of Pain, Ima Robot, Incubus, Interpol, Iron Butterfly, Jamiroquai, Jay-Z, Jem, Jethro Tull, Jimi Hendrix, Jimmy Eat World, Juliette & the Licks, Jurassic 5, Kayne West, Kill Hannah, Ladytron, Linkin Park, Lostprophets, Madonna, Mae, Massive Attack, Matisyahu, Mazzy Star, Men Women & Children, Modest Mouse, Motion City Soundtrack, Muse, N.E.R.D., Nine Inch Nails, OK Go, Our Lady Peace, Panic! At The Disco, Pat Benatar, Paul Oakenfold, People In Planes, Pink Floyd, Placebo, The Postal Service, Sade, Saul Williams, She Wants Revenge, The Shins, Shiny Toy Guns, Silverchair, Smashing Pumpkins, Sneaker Pimps, Soft Cell, Spoon, Temposhark, The A.K.A.'s., The Exit, Th Fixx, The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, The Streets, The Subways, Tricky, Underworld, VAST, The Verve, Verve Pipe, VNV Nation, Voltaire, We Are Scientists, White Stripes

Movies:

[.garden state.]
[.the dark crystal.]
[.reality bites.]
[.pi.]
[.requiem for a dream.]
[.a clockwork orange.]
[.velvet goldmine.]
[.fight club.]
[.snatch.]
[.american history x.]
[.labyrinth.]
[.legend.]
[.the neverending story.]
[.nightmare before xmas.]
[.american beauty.]
[.saint clara.]
[.the professional.]
[.reservoir dogs.]
[.the last time i committed suicide.]
[.the birdcage.]
[.fear and loathing in las vegas.]
[.trainspotting.]

Books:

[.jack kerouac.]
[.william burroughs.]
[.herman hesse.]
[.arthur nersesian.]
[.chuck palahniuk.]
[.robert lasner.]
[.eastern philosophy.]
[.books on UNIX.]
[.architecture.]
[.foreign languages.]

i buy books with interesting titles

Heroes:

under-dogs.
anyone who insists on settling for nothing less than their dreams.

My Blog

wedding stuff... hmmm...

So on the messageboard I admin for, we occassionally have "Dream Wedding" threads, because us girls are silly and like to think of these things. I decided to make a blog with all my stuff in it, so I ...
Posted by shades of grey on Sun, 23 Jul 2006 09:49:00 PST

I need some motivation.

It's July 1st. July freaking first. I have 4 boxes sitting in my living room, and I haven't really seriously considered the idea of packing at all. I have one month before I move, and I'm avoiding all...
Posted by shades of grey on Sat, 01 Jul 2006 06:46:00 PST

I'm so lousy at updates...

so, it's been a little while, and I guess I should bring everyone up to speed. basically, the boy has decided that he doesn't see how I fit into his life at this point (after almost 3 years), and so p...
Posted by shades of grey on Fri, 12 May 2006 01:22:00 PST

Oh. Em. Eff. Gee. >_<

Someone hire me for a job that doesn't suck. Please. I'm begging. Any of you guys out there need a live-in housekeeper? I promise to clean the apartment/house, cook at least half the nights out of th...
Posted by shades of grey on Thu, 16 Mar 2006 05:29:00 PST

back in the arctic...

So I've been to maryland and now I'm back. Easton looks even more pathetic after being away for a solid year, but holycrapzors it was awesome to see all my friends again. I knew I missed everyone, but...
Posted by shades of grey on Sun, 15 Jan 2006 08:22:00 PST

survey time... luff meeeee <33

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF: » I committed suicide: » I said I liked you: » I kissed you: » I lived next door to you: » I started smoking: » I stole something: » I was hospitalized: » I ran away from...
Posted by shades of grey on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

so sue me, i was bored...

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Posted by shades of grey on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

*does the birthday dance*

that's right bitches! i'm finally COMPLETELY legal! w00t. it's mah 21st, and it's time to party... hehe send me comments and signs and lovins and you'll be my hero forever... <3333
Posted by shades of grey on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

holes in mah face (now with proof!)

weeee... got a new piiiercing... finally got the other side of my lip done... looks damn hawt if i do say so myself... originally, i intended to have pictures to go with this information, but g...
Posted by shades of grey on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

blah

i wish i had something good to tell you guys. i wish i could say that i was back in school, getting my shit together. i wish i could say that i absolutely love my job, and that it's not killing my...
Posted by shades of grey on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST