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Beast of Ashen Dreams

My life feels so flawedThe past is just happiness goneHow could you be happy with me as a son?Look at me now, I'm less then you seeThe hardest thing to do is to beI've given my all, right?I put up a g...
Posted by M‰D[KcMü]M‰D on Mon, 12 Nov 2007 01:03:00 PST

Kill

Show up, dress up, fun for fun there seems to be no harmPressure, pleasure , you forgot a hundred reasons for alarmKnives in your mind, can't help but slicespewing out the pain it would be so niceLosi...
Posted by M‰D[KcMü]M‰D on Fri, 02 Nov 2007 11:48:00 PST

EOE: Reaction

Pure ZeroTo prove one's self worth. Prove to who? I feel so figured out, but that process seemed so long. It helped when I realized I'd never be done. I'd never be fully happy or fully sad. I'd have t...
Posted by M‰D[KcMü]M‰D on Mon, 08 Oct 2007 01:13:00 PST

Apparently Not = Verdict

To each of my important blogs of important things that I find important, little to nothing is said about its importance. I find this disturbing, initially, and interesting secondarily. I pound and I s...
Posted by M‰D[KcMü]M‰D on Sun, 30 Sep 2007 10:41:00 PST

How I Am Symbols

How I am symbols must be how I am. My notions as a person come out as incomplete thoughts, cornerstoned by vague emotions. Oh the thought of my personality seems to grow grey and grey, as I distance m...
Posted by M‰D[KcMü]M‰D on Mon, 17 Sep 2007 12:16:00 PST

As Cogs Are Failing [:] Lie Quietly In Desperation

The State of ThingsBy the Lord of AbsenceWhere has our desire gone? Where has the meaning and the pith of desire gone? Desire is an overused, fleeting throwback to something we want bad enough to just...
Posted by M‰D[KcMü]M‰D on Tue, 04 Sep 2007 12:55:00 PST

Of Tragic Importance

What is it going to take to make me feel good? I try enjoying it all and I try playing it all down, I try balance and I try chaos, I try trying and I try doing. I'm so empty right now. If I die empty ...
Posted by M‰D[KcMü]M‰D on Wed, 22 Aug 2007 02:40:00 PST

Welcome Mat

I'm back from my weekend at Anime' Iowa. It was really great! And it would not have been as spectacular as it was if it wasn't for my wonderful friends Katie, Mollie, Johnny, and Aimee!!! I love you g...
Posted by M‰D[KcMü]M‰D on Tue, 14 Aug 2007 12:14:00 PST

Turn Tide (vulgarity of life)

Flicker thought done don't fly and come I cycle rot pouring out an empty pot Stop day res t r  a   i  n Hopelessness proclaim me tame I am g-d of all sincerity You bastard thing ...
Posted by M‰D[KcMü]M‰D on Fri, 27 Jul 2007 12:50:00 PST

Murder = Style

Mechanic tumbleweed For all to clap for all to clap for all to clap forUncanny lack of beingFor all to clap for all to clap for allRaising voices and fists for a cause unseenRaising noises and tricks ...
Posted by M‰D[KcMü]M‰D on Fri, 20 Jul 2007 01:49:00 PST