anna p. [lascivious]

and i've got friends who, la la lie, will help me pull through.
i'm anna p. i'm an epidemic. i am so fucking sick of having nobody. a³ is the shit, and you can't break that shit up. i tend to take things to heart too easily. i can't help but fall into silly crushes that mean nothing, then end up falling too hard for boys who never fall back. i am never good enough, not even for myself. i look up to a lot of people, most of them you would probably frown at, but i don't care. oh and i want to fuck antwann tanner, james lafferty and chad michael murray, thanks. i love my friends, and they mean everything to me. you can try to tell me that your friends are better, but no one beats them. hanging out with them, there is never a dull moment. they are amazing and no one could ever measure up. i believe in not taking anything for granted because you never know what day could be your last. happiness is the key. i am obsessed with sex, and anything and everything to do with it. music is the sweetest weakness, and the best drug. there is nothing like being high off of music, and that overwhelming desire to take it in can touch so many people's lives. i'd like to think that i am over love, and everything that comes with it, because it can be a serious piece of bullshit sometimes, but when you've gone through a lot of shit for it, you know how wonderful it can be. i've been through so much that now i can look back on it and smile at how far i've come. i believe war does not determine who is right, but who is left. i believe everything happens for a reason, and that every obstacle has a reward at the end. i am just now trying to figure out who i am and what i am supposed to do with my life, and i'm pretty sure most people wouldn't like it. but i don't care. i don't live my life for other people, i live it for myself, and who are they to fucking tell me that i am not good enough, or what i should and should not do. i don't expect everyone to like me, and i don't break my back trying to make them. i am who i am, and i know that some people won't like me for that, and it's fine with me. no one's perfect. god didn't manufacture us all to be the same, so don't become another troubled kid just because everyone else is. i believe in a lot of things that many people don't, and that's just me. andrew mcmahon is my inspiration. without him, i don't think i would be able to build off of his strength. his ability to overcome his fears has led me to believe that happiness comes with a price, and you have to go through hell to find true happiness. after the turn of one page, there is always a new beginning and a story that follows it. but it's up to you to decide what story you want to leave behind. peace. love. and drugs.
laugh until your body aches;
cry until you start to shake.
live like the world is yours to take;
love as though your heart won't break.