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..Me n my best bud...It is thought that together we'd be the perfect woman but yet seperate we'd be two perfect women. Muahahahaha!No one can really ever know a person completely... PLEASE HEAR WHAT I'M NOT SAYING "Don't be fooled by me.
Don't be fooled by the face I wear.
For I wear a mask, a thousand masks,
masks that I'm afraid to take off,
and none of them is me.
Pretending is an art that's second nature to me,
but don't be fooled.
For God's sake don't be fooled.
I give you the impression that I'm secure,
that confidence is my name and coolness is my game,
that the water's calm and I'm in command,
and that I need no one.
But don't believe me.
My surface may seem smooth but my surface
is my mask, ever-varying and ever-concealing.
Beneath lies no complacence.
Beneath lies confusion and fear and aloneness.
But I hide this. I don't want anybody to know it. I panic at the thought of my weakness and fear being exposed.
That's why I frantically create a mask to hide behind,
a nonchalant sophisticated facade, to help me pretend,
to shield me from the glance that knows.
But such a glance is precisely my salvation.
My only hope, and I know it.
That is, if it's followed by acceptance,
if it's followed by love.
It's the only thing that can liberate me from myself,
from my own self-built prison walls,
from the barriers I so painstakingly erect.
It's the only thing that will assure me
of what I can't assure myself,
that I'm really worth something.
I don't like to hide.
I don't like to play superficial phony games.
I want to stop playing them.
I want to be genuine and spontaneous and me,
but you've got to help me.
You've got to hold out your hand
even when that's the last thing I seem to want.
Only you can wipe away from my eyes
the bland stare of the breathing dead.
Only you can call me into aliveness. Each time you're kind and gentle and encouraging,
each time you try to understand because you really care,
my heart begins to grow wings, very small wings,
very feeble wings,
but wings!
With your power to touch me into feeling
you can breathe life into me.
I want you to know that. Who am I, you may wonder.
I am someone you know very well.
For I am every man you meet,
and I am every woman you meet."-Author UnknownMyspace Layouts
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My Interests

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I'd like to meet:

You, you, definitely you, no-not you, maybe you over there...

Music:

Scattered pieces of my soul...

Movies:

I don't even think I have the time or memory to list them all-Well, here's a few: Gia, Girl Interrupted, Empire Records, Zoolander, Ace Ventura, Requiem for a Dream, Waking Life, Groove, Now and Then-Here and There, Dreams, Spirited Away, The Fifth Element, Snatch, Labyrinth, Napolean Dynamite, Closer, Crash...BRAND NEW FAVE!!!! Tray's slide show...best movie of the summer!

Television:

Trying to cut back...

Books:

Memoirs of a Geisha, A Child Called It, The Kitchen God's Wife, The Tattoo, and The Da Vinci Code.

Heroes:

My friends, some of the only people that can show me life in all aspects. "A friend is a gift you give yourself."-Robert Louis Stevenson "It takes a lot of understanding, time and trust to gain a close friendship with someone. As I approach a time of my life of complete uncertainty, my friends are my most precious asset."-Erynn Miller

My Blog

32 q's about the first person on my top 8

Here it is: 32 q's about the first person on my top 8 1. What's their name? Sun, Alex, I like to call her Master once in a while. 2. What's their age? Im not at liberty to disclose that information bu...
Posted by Im not an ambi-turner on Mon, 17 Jul 2006 03:49:00 PST

The Sweetest Thing...

I just thought I'd share a little something that my friend wrote in her "who I'd like to meet" section.  I thought it was the sweetest thing...I hope you get your wish, Amber.   MY CHILD. JU...
Posted by Im not an ambi-turner on Thu, 08 Dec 2005 06:31:00 PST

Now acceping applications...

*NOTE: All applications with out RECENT and officially notorized as authentic full body photographs will be immediately rejected.* ------------------------------------------------------------ -----...
Posted by Im not an ambi-turner on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST