In my life I found sadness, anger, disappointment, indifference, rediscovery and the happiness that was taken away from me so many times. I know now that this some self inflicted but more not, emotional turmoil has made me that person I am today. The person so many people in my life LOVE. The Person you all can’t stand because I am stronger than you gave me credit for and you could not break me!!!!!The People of my past might think of me as a huge F*** Up, ya know what I say, HA you still think of me. Those who feel that way are the ones that did nothing to help me salvage my life and everything to help me self destruct. The wild card SUCKS doesn’t it. No one saw him coming and I thank God everyday for him. My hero, my strength, my voice of reason when I can’t hear my own. My Jeffrey!!!!The lies really don’t matter, it took a long time but I found my way through them. I found my way to the family that always loved me even though I was not there. The family who thought about me, not how to F*** with me.I used to feel the pain from these emotions and think that I would never get through it, to those who need the advice read on…. The Sadness came from the ultimate betrayal having my daughter ripped away from me with no regret. (It’s only custody. Those words still haunt me, Thanks Chich.) The Anger came when I realized I let the only person who loved me down in the worst way. (I signed my little girl up for the same shit I grew up with; all I can do is watch. How could I??) The disappointment I felt in the people who switched sides, hanging me out to dry. (I don’t think I need to name names here. You know who you are!!!) The indifference that came when I realize everyone that disappointed me really was not a positive force in my life any how. The rediscovery of ME. I do matter and I am a good person who will live through the Life everyone in my past help me built. The only difference is last but not least I found HAPPINESS and STRENGHTH the kind all you HATERS can only dream about!!!!!So if you ever find yourself in my shoes, hang in there - Cinderella stories really do happen. I found the path to Happily Ever After if you truly deserve it you will to.
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