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I BECHA YOU WONT READ ALL OF THIS!OK ABOUT ME.well.....about me.......hmmmmm ok well i am kinda down to earth kinda chap i spose. I am kinda shy at first, but once i break past that i warm up very quickly. I like to know what all the risks and factors that are involved around me before i commit to anything, also i dont open my mouth unless i know i am correct. I know a lota facts and people after a while just dont believe them. This is a problem because if i am right or know the truth i will not stop until people believe me as i have compulsion to correct anything that wrong apart from spelling. (so can you see the predicament here?) I always need a second and a third opinion in anything. I keep my true thoughts to myself. I have been around and seen alota things, not many people believe me though lol (problem agian). Um, i get down, stressed out in which i try counter by being happy and not caring about stuff, then people see me as coming across as shallow but i dont care cos people who say that are no better.I tend to do things for the best of other people, even if they dont see it at the time. I tend to stand by people who would do the same to me. i forgive but i dont forget, i am quite weary of people. Reaching and out and opening up does not come to me easy as i prefer to listen. I like to be creative when i can be. i will always try and take the lighter side in most things even if it is harder. I really like orignal things and hate the "flow" of everything as everything is turning mainstream. (for example i went in all white to a metal concert) I am a little eccentric and i like to be different from the rest. I dress in dark colours and sometimes people say i am goth. lol like wtf i aint goth, if u think i am go to fckn newtown jeez. I get frustrated with people but i rarely get angry. When i do though i prefer to rip people apart mentally rather than by force, which i always regret laters. i act dumb or act like i dont know what is going on around me sometimes for my advantage, in which most times i do know whats happening. i am irish and prooud of it. My Ancestors were killed by the black and tans so i will never forget them and there sacrifice.I read people very well, see through them. Which isnt really a good thing. I know movies very well and i can predict endings in any movie. Also i like to film and direct movies when i get the chance too. I know my history, guns, music, general knowledge trivia well. I know most things and people get annoyed about that. (very hard to teach me anything) Useless at maths just doesnt work for me. I like scuba diven, thats fun but i aint to fond of the beach. I got me p's and currently HAVE a car. i have 4 jobs, golf driving range and carlile swimming instructor, Actor and Diveshop worker. fuck no's what i am doing in the future. It looks bleak to me so i often get down about that. I have chops, *side burns* so people call me chops. Long hair to boot with it. been to 5 school in my life time. My marks at school are range from 75%-96% I like my alone time as my childhood; i spent alot of time by myself at home. I like to play a game or two here or there. people get angry cos i beat them in everything. Thats only cos it comes to me very quickly, hand to eye co-ord and most games these days are the same with the same strategy *get the rocket launcher* lol. I used go to epping boys and studied all 3 history business legal and adv english. I now attend maquarie uni studying business administration as i did not want to go straight into a law degree. It wouls of been to hard for me to a combined law degree so i seperated them.I have my first aid, resus, and aus swim cert. I am a Adv Diver goen for my stress and rescue. I am always constantly asses'n people in my mind, how they react to certian things. How they are treating me, if they are backstabb'n ect. If i dont like someone 9/10 times they dont know about it unless i really really have a discontent about them. I tend to act more agressive than i really am to people i dont know. On the other hand, i am very good judge of character. By talking to a person for around 20mins or so i know exactly what kind of person they are. It seems i have taken on my mothers gift lol I often question peoples morals and ethics. I dont trust people easily as i dont come across many people who are decent human beings. Although i consider myself easy going, i do admit i have a quick temper about certain subjects. In some ways i am conservative and in others i am radical. In a bad way i have high expectations of people, in the way they present and carry out themselfs. Dressing sloppy, talkin with over used slang are examples of what i hate. Thongs worn anywhere else apart from the beach is a no no. I tend to go off on huge rants sometimes. *WARNING THIS IS A RANT*I get quite agitated on how people use decent humans and worship the pricks in society cos they are "cool". I cannot believe the state of our society that we live in, how hollow and selfish most people are. Only caring about the job, the car, the new dress, the house and fuck everyone else. The top of politcal and talking agenda is what shelly thinks of gemma and how unloyal Grant has been to his gf but its ok cos he is cool. Its considered cool to not care about your future to "live fast die young" and fuck everyone else if they get in your way. I dont know many people who do any charity work for the general reason of helping people, anymore. Why must people insist on destroying other people to get ahead. When did this trail of thought that the more people who sleep with the cooler it is? isnt the most logical way of living is giving and caring for others to improve others life not their own. This is the day we live in, where the old decent values have faded into a mere shadow to be ignored. Religon considered uncool and false, Mtv, jenny craig, the easy quick fix for everthing, Pro active, Msn it never ends. Really think of your life, see what your concerned about. Will all of it matter at the end of the day? Will you be able to live with yourself and consider yourself a decent human?Now realise this and mark my words, when "your old and grey and full of sleep" you will look back and realise what i am sayen. I only say this as this the way i used to look at life and live. I know outa experience. Cos if this life is all we have, if there is no after life or other life in the universe what a shit house existance we have. With no meaning. if life means as little as dieing and it ends, and no matter what we had done in our life it wouldnt matter. We have pethetic existance. By this logic, be kind to others more maybe? Help someone that you wouldnt b4. We in our society take life, the luxury we live in for granted. Everytime we turn the tap on clean water flows, electricty powers our houses, decent living conditions. Dont you dare say we worked for it cos unless YOU make the electricity, pump the water, build the pipes, build the power plants, grow your food from SCRATCH you aint done shit. Did you pave the roads or settle in the land yourself? Be fuckin thankful you are who you are, if u can read this your better off than at least 80% of the population of the world. You are fucking lucky you were born where you are, you had nothing to do with it. So next time you hurt someone, think selfishly and take your life for granted. The next time you try to get ahead and destroy someone else. Just think what a pethetic existance you have. *RANT ENDING* i am seriously losing things to tell about me. if you have read this far holy fuck you must really have nothing to do. May i suggest porn or if u have already done that study for school or if u dnt attend school may i suggest finding a bf or gf or if u already done that may i suggest porn agian? lol? ah well. well thx for reading this much, maybe when i see you next time you might understand me a little better.ttylChops.