Havok

My life is about to take a completely different direction from what I am doing now, but I guess this was the path I should have always been taking in the first place. So I will say that it's always been on the right direction I just haven't recognozed it.Recently I've been obsessed with performances. I've been watching one after another. Then it finally struck me, this is what I am suppose to be doing. After having a good talk with Benn from Circo Zero, awesome guy, it has helped me even further to figuring out exactly how I want to take on Acrobatics to further my performance skills.Even with being a Fire Dancer, there's only so far I can go with that. But I am glad I finally have the true passion in my life. Originally I thought the passion was more towards Japanese language, but after a couple of days of pondering that, I came to realize that I had no real drive to do it. Only the fact that I thought it was nice to speak another language. Don't get me wrong, I still love Japanese to a huge extent, but performaning is in my blood.From childhood I was a dancer but then I stopped because of issues I started to have. It has only been in these past couple of years that I have become reborn into the world. I will say, I like it. Most of the time I would be too hesitant to tell people about my past but then I found out that that was the thing holding me back from being truly good at what I do best with a passion.I finally hit my Mom with what my future goals are, and she looked at me and criticized me. I thought she would have been more open to it but no she wasn't. She has a one track mind that only a college education will get me some where. She thinks I'm just playing around by doing Circus Stunts. Such narrow mind she has. In that, I think I might have to just go off on my own and give her very little information as possible. It sounds bad saying that, but I think that might be the only way I can be free from her. But my father is always the one who says, "whatever and I mean whatever you wanna do, i'll help out." And for that I am truly grateful.