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30 helens

Why spiders? Why couldn't it be 'Follow the butterflies'?

About Me


rip mike.

My Interests

i like...
...driving on lonely roads that feature little to no suburban sprawl.
...awkward pictures.
...not caring a damn bit about fashion.
...plain solid-colored t-shirts.
...wearing hats.
...lonely trees.
...listening old people talk about the "olden days".
...filling out .. surveys.
...driving fast when no one is on the road.
...watching james play halo 2.
...the color brown.
...the color grey.
...watching good music performed live.
...the smell of cigarettes.
...reading good books.
...eastern europe.
...listening to people with deep voices or thick accents.
...black/dark humor.
...sitting in dennys drinking coffee with my friends.
...nature.
...sea food.
...the 'pain' of getting a tattoo.
...trivia.
...my cats.
...rottweilers.
...subtlety.
...breezy days.
...staying up late.
...sleeping in.
...good beer.

i love Audra and Arrested Devlopment (the tv show, not the band, we are legally obligated to make the distinction), also .

I'd like to meet:

For anything below this point to make much sense the song needs to be playing. if it's not, don't bother yourself with this particular section...

lyrics i didnt write, song i cant play.
is Lyrics Born.


Ooo baby
We can make it happen
Make it through baby
All we need to do is begin rejuvenating
Keep it all in focus and pursue it faithfully
Do it patiently

Just the way the sea's been this evening
I came out at eight, was leaning on the railing
I kept hearing the waves crashin' beneath me
Back and forth
They just rephrased what they were saying
Over and over, doing that repeatedly
They'd crash and go back
Just a constant thing
Every time they'd go back out to sea
It's like they'd draw just a little bit more out of me
A lot of images and feelings
Just a limitless release
And I began to reminisce freely
It was a cinema
Featuring me and a cast of emotions
That demanded my attention immediately
I had previously put them on hold
On the back burner since earlier
I didn't want to deal with it
At that time I felt like other things were pertinent
Now I see its permanent unless I get real with it
And it ain't that I don't love to tussle
Especially mentally
'Cause I generally do win
Might not win at first, but definitely eventually
'Cause I ain't never not been a shoe-in since birth
But now, this is special though
See, this is beyond my threshold
I'm accustomed to just a conventional struggle
With two opponents
Only here the tussle's between you and the truth
So ultimately I'm gonna lose
Actually I gain though
I gotta be honest with myself, or else
I impede my personal progress
I think it's better to be depressed for a minute
Admit it, and get re-oriented
Instead of being a bitter cynic isn't it?

I'm getting older
Everybody around me acts all sober
Lookin' poker faced
I started losing hair at the corners
Matter-of-fact, I looked up top
That whole border's just jacked
Nobody's gonna chauffeur me anymore
Whatever this is, we all go through it I guess
It's just awkward
I'm not a hundred percent comfortable with
The rate that everything's developing at
It's just a little overwhelming at times
I'm dealing with hella shit to process
It's new data daily
There's really no preparing for this thing
Or, maybe it's mainly just me acting strangely
Just me facing the challenge
I doubt it though
'Cause I met thousands of people
Seen something similar in their faces
It's like the outlook is changing
I think it's called bein' a man in the making
It's burnt, I like pralines now
Long walks solo, where I can sort my thoughts out
Just what I've been taught to date
It doesn't gel well with the way that I've been feeling these days
That's coming from a ton of angles, hella places
I'm really not trying to make a political statement
But just in terms of internally inside
I'm at an interval in life where it's a turbulent time
And I could pretend that it's all good
And that I shouldn't put so much on it
Let it sit and just settle itself
Stop acting all sobby and sentimental
Besides everything's perfectly fine
But here I am on this balcony
With my thoughts just traveling randomly on some tangent And in the back of my mind
I keep hearing this lady
Her voice is beautiful, she keeps saying

Oooo baby
We can make it happen
Make it through baby
All we need to do is begin rejuvenating
Keep it all in focus and pursue it faithfully
Do it patiently

Music:


i dont remember where i found this, but whoever made it is my hero.

Movies:

Log Jammin'
Les Cousins Dangereux

Television:

fake news

workplace based mocumentary sitcoms

five guys who often dress as ladies

stories of wealthy families who lost everything, and the one son who had no choice but to keep them all together

4 old ladies sharing a house in miami

super federal agents, trying to counter terrorism plots in a 24 hour window

a bunch of folks stranded on an a mystery island after a plane crashed on it

oh! and the simpsons.

Books:

big fat juicy ones
eeny weeny squeemsy ones

(i like books)

Heroes:

heroes are for chumps (and chumpettes), but here are some folks whose antics i tend to enjoy:

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My Blog

the wørd

+++The other day I saw a bumper sticker on an old Cadillac that just said "Bush is a punk-ass chump!" After my initial laugh (which was out loud, since that's how we describe laughter nowadays) I spe...
Posted by 30 helens on Tue, 21 Aug 2007 11:59:00 PST

Smoke.

This song is probably about a failed relationship, most songs are. However, observing the grief I have seen in the past week has had this song in my head quite a bit. Smoke by Ben Folds Five...
Posted by 30 helens on Tue, 07 Aug 2007 01:51:00 PST

My thoughts on the Order of the Phoenix movie

Can be found at: http://allthegoodnamesaretaken02.blogspot.com/I decided to make a new blogger blog at blogspot, since myspace blogs insist on being so fucking sketchy. I'm tired of writing stuff and...
Posted by 30 helens on Thu, 26 Jul 2007 04:20:00 PST

M-I-crooked letter-crooked letter...

Unlike most people, including my fellow ex-smokers and quite a few current smokers, I actually like the smell of cigarette smoke. I even like the smell of old stale wet cigarette. As far as I've eve...
Posted by 30 helens on Fri, 13 Jul 2007 02:42:00 PST

I'm the Map! **EDITED**

So youtube deleted the original video i had here of Brian Regan doing some stand up comedy. So here is a clip of Dave Chappelle doing some stand up comedy about conversations while smoking ...
Posted by 30 helens on Wed, 27 Jun 2007 12:05:00 PST

And then the witch doctor, he told me what to do

A very interesting interview with various doctors talking candidly (and anonymously) about about all sorts of important medical type stuff. Lots of useful information to be had....
Posted by 30 helens on Fri, 15 Jun 2007 03:29:00 PST

It's summer 2007, after all...

"We neither go backwards to link it to Mayan art that was made under the influence of psychedelic mushrooms, or forwards to link it to art that is made today digitally under the influence of ecstasy a...
Posted by 30 helens on Wed, 06 Jun 2007 01:06:00 PST

30 out of 100 ain't too bad

Look at the list of books below: * Bold the ones you've read, * Italicize the ones you want to read * Leave blank the ones that you aren't interested in. 1. The DaVinci Code (Dan Brown) 2. Pride ...
Posted by 30 helens on Thu, 31 May 2007 10:17:00 PST

For your enjoyment, we've excised this dialogue

One of two amazingly funny overdubs from when they show The Big Lebowski on TV (the other being the "valued" rug scene). For those who dont know, he does not actually say "what happens when...
Posted by 30 helens on Fri, 27 Apr 2007 04:23:00 PST

For your protection, we've installed this camera

Two of my favorite moments from Arrested Development in back to back scenes....
Posted by 30 helens on Fri, 27 Apr 2007 04:18:00 PST