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EXCILE

Leadership is the other side of the coin of loneliness, and he who is a leader must always act alone

About Me

T.I. said it best... "I didn't sign up for this shit!!!" I have brought alot of shame to my name . As well as more mistake's than I care to mention . Loved one's once told me I have alot of demon's that need sorted out . Been working on that the last year . So much has changed , scrach the surface you can see the pain . My anger and jealousy cost me a life other's dream of !!! A few year's ago I had so much on my mind honestly I was not sure I would ever stand on my own again . Boy was I wrong ! I have came along way . Yet there is still so far to go still so much I want to acomplish . I took time to remaniss on my past ! It put me back in place to say the least . Not to mention push's me forward and make's me better than anyone ever thought I would become ! I feel I have been under rated my whole life ! That said the best thing that ever happend to me was my time alone ! Fella's " TAKE NOTICE " Set goals and acomplish them . Dont let anyone get in your way and give no one the power to hold you down !!! Lady's I dont have time to stand around ! You want to talk you want to know me . Then try to keep up ... """"" I think of you in my arms , and what it would be like to make love . I think of you raising my seed . And what they'd be made of ! I think of how alone I was before you came to be . I think of the joy I felt when you said you thought of me ! I was proud to be the heart you choose to make a friend hours pass by . And the same as cupid's my soul cries until we meet again !""""Myspace Layouts

My Interests

" Keep in mind King's wear crown's ,Not halo's !!! It is not titles that honor men, but men that honor titles." My Interest ,That's a good question .Above all else now having found myself ,I'm putting my anger to good use . By beating the shit out of this cold world and taking it for everything it's worth ! My future with school and a carear remain most inportant . My dog has to be on here P.I.M.P Daddy love's you !!! My free time is spent Lifting Weight's been sometime sence I've been called skinny now . Also walking and jogging I'm in the best shape of my life . I tend to like thick girls any reading this "hello beautiful " ... Skinny girl's are for wimp's if your looking for something more than friend's move along !!! Also loud music You can bet when I come threw I'm beat'n down the block .And it will be that way until the casket drop's . I enjoy time alone .Most shocking I now spend alot of time reading , Marquise games are just not the same without you ."""life without knowledge is death in disguise."""Therefor I've been really working on this mental conpacity thing funny how much has changed . In the last year !

I'd like to meet:

Ok frist and for most god . Then all my friend's and family that passed . Not to mention the one's that never made it into this world !!!" Life truly is a long road ... Mine has been paved and is full of pain , sweat and tear's are common ... Yet in some sick and twisted way . It remain's beautiful but never peaceful !!! I have many regret's , And looking back I realize many mistakes have been made . Yet even givin a chance I would not change any of them ... For all of them have made myself along with everyone else involved so much better .... I WOULD LIKE TO MEET ... Breaking Benjarmin and Disturbed my Favorite band's , TUPAC understand that one would be hard but as if I'm going to meet all these people anyway !!! Dead Prez , All of Bone Thugs N Harmony , Mo Thug anything to do with the thug family for that matter . T.I.P , DMX , Rick Ross , Zoe , Hank Jr. "CBCS" , Hinder , Daurhtry , Welfare Poets , Outlaws , Luda , The Undertaker , Stone Cold , The Rock , Will Farrel , Martin Lawrence . Chris Rock ,

Music:

All music I will say I listen to good music dont really matter what . I like rap more than anything else not talking about this new rap , 2 Pac is the first thing to come to mind . Bone Thugs , Mo thug , Dead Prez , Welfare Poets , Boosie , DMX , TI is another favorite . I'm really starting to get into rock , Side Wise 9 , Disturbed is great , Breaking Benjarman , 12 Stones , Shinedown , Hinder , Lacuna Coil too name a few . Rascal Flat's ,Bucky Covington are really good one's as well. I could go on but my page is big enough .
"Take ones adversity learn from thire mistakes. From thire pain belive in something belive in yourself. Turn adversity into ambition now blossom into wealth "

Movies:

I tend to like the whole money , power , respect . However a drama or a comedy is just as good . Just whatever the mood is at that time . Man On Fire and Home Of The Brave are two of my favorite movie's . Other's that are just as good Death Sentence , ATL , Four Brothers , WAR , Crash , Holiday , I have to mention Daddy's Little Girl's , Mr. Brooks , Cinderella Man , Talladega nights are must see movie's ... I love Will Ferrell , Blade's of Glory was not his best but still O.K , 300 , MENACE II SOCIETY , Stomp the yard , Harsh Times , Breach , Hustle and Flow , 16 blocks , All Lord of the Rings , Undisputed and Undisputed 2 must see's as well . Ladder 49 sad but good movie , Wild Hogs ,Waist Deep , Remember the Titan's , We are Marshal , Walking Tall , Condemed , Blood N Blood Out is a classic cant mention classic with out , South Central , Friday and Color's , Butterfly Effect was wierd but another good movie , The Passion of the Christ ,Tupac Resurrection well anything with 2Pac for that matter I've seen it all!!! Anything with Cuba Gooding jr , Denzel Washington , The Rock

Television:

Dont really watch much TV . I try to stay busy . The only way I'm going to get to where I'm want to be is to stay off the couch . But I dont miss Prison Break by far my favorite thing on T.V ! Lincoln Height's , UFC , ECW , WWE , WEC , Bodog fights , Pink's , Family Guy , Future Wepones , Dicovery Ch , History Ch , BET , The Wire , Golden Girls , O .C .C .

Books:

The Rose That Grew From The Concrete , Inside A Thugs Heart by Angela Ardis , Anything about or by 2pac for that matter . I fineally read the ART OF WAR , by Sun Tzu great book . Also read The Way of Power , THE PRINCE , by Niccolo Machiavelli . Funny I was never a reader now I have a hard time putting them down !!! Put down the damn paddle and pick up a book promise you'll feel better

Heroes:

Anyone that was envolved and lost there live's on Sept 11 , 2001 you will be remembered !!!Also everyone that has been in my life because the fact of the matter is if it wasn't for all the love all the bullshit , all the pain and tear's . That washed my eyes to see the real shit going on around me . I would not be who I am now , I would still be fucking up and doing the same shit . I would still be curled in a ball felling sorry for myself . Therefor I owe each and everyone of you . Thank's for showing me my place . Thanks for putting me back in postion . The people that deserve to be known . My mother single in your fifty's raising not only me but my nephew and niece as well . Like the first group of kid's we was always fucking up . But you was alway there to help ! I love you mom !!! Kathy & Steve Thank both of you ! As well as your Daughter ! For reason's that I will not mention . But the three of you deserve to be known for the profound effect you have had on my life !There is love of course . And then there's life, its ENEMY!!! Today I wake and feel even lonelier . But I see positive potential . My heart shook much like the quake then the pain was gone . The arctic breeze formed the fortress Barricading my fragile heart from pain . It's not that I don't love you . It was because I did love you ! But I must move on . As long as I breathe I will remember ! " 2 as 1"

My Blog

Possession

In My Heart There Live's A Small Child .   Eager To Love Anxious To Please ,    Destined To Change Merciless Soul's .  And Infect The World Like Disease . In My Min...
Posted by EXCILE on Fri, 08 Feb 2008 10:18:00 PST

QUOTES I LIKE

  "Leadership is not magnetic personality  that can just as well be a glib tongue. It is not 'making friends and influencing people'  that is flattery. Leadership is lifting a person's vision ...
Posted by EXCILE on Wed, 06 Feb 2008 01:26:00 PST

LOVE

You say that you'll love me forever but what about today. As the dusk become's dawn and the year's pass on will you love me the same way. If so let us rejoice and bathe in constant pleasure, if not sp...
Posted by EXCILE on Fri, 21 Dec 2007 08:24:00 PST

Seen it all before" Not Done yet "

There are things we cant explainSo we usually tend to ignoreThe unpleasant side to the human raceLike poverty and warIts deja vu when i cryWhen i see you i realize it even moreI know your heart like i...
Posted by EXCILE on Tue, 27 Nov 2007 01:48:00 PST

KEY’s TO LIFE

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded. But trust me, in 20 years you'll look back at photos of yourse...
Posted by EXCILE on Tue, 20 Nov 2007 11:22:00 PST

One & Two

  There were once two souls told by the wind that they belonged together.They agreed right away because they were both in awe once they saw eachother.Two wanted to care for one, to help him grow...
Posted by EXCILE on Fri, 31 Aug 2007 01:17:00 PST

YOU

Few people come into our lives and make everything shine, but you're one of those rare and splendid jewels who makes the whole world bright. When I was sad, you made me smile. When I was alone and blu...
Posted by EXCILE on Mon, 09 Jul 2007 06:34:00 PST

Sick Of the Pain

I'm sick of all the painI'm sick of all the liesI'm sick of all the smilingWhen I'm dyeing insideI want to break freeI want to let goI could stay like this foreverAnd you wouldn't even knowCover up th...
Posted by EXCILE on Mon, 18 Jun 2007 11:29:00 PST

LOVE & WAR

Love is a never ending war, you must fight for the one you love, to keep that special one close, you have to fight to keep love going, but most of all you have to fight the temptations from others, wh...
Posted by EXCILE on Fri, 25 May 2007 09:13:00 PST

For all women in my life

The One Flaw In Women* By the time the Lord made woman, he was into his sixth day of working overtime. An angel appeared and said, "Why are you spending so much time on this one?" And the Lord answere...
Posted by EXCILE on Tue, 10 Apr 2007 01:37:00 PST