crazier than bed bugs

i miss the innocence of childhood. the purity. santa clause, the tooth fairy, and the easter bunny. i miss you guys. why can't life have remained that simple and care free. i am a free spirit wondering the earth. lost. changing direction untill i find meaning. untill i find truth. untill i find me. i always carry myself on a very optimistic attitude. i am trying to live by the modo- no worries. i kind of look at myself as a jiksaw puzzle. there are so many pieces that you need to find and put them all together until it is complete. i am just starting to find my pieces but i am far off from being complete. each new place i travel, or each new experience i conquer, or each new piece of knowledge i gain is another piece that i can add to my puzzle until i have done everything there is to do untill i have completed life. i am here for a reason. how else to you explain my exsistance. there is a purpose for ever breath i take. for every beat of my heart. for every blink of my eye. i am here to live. to experience. to seek. to find. accept life and embrace it. i have been going through some hard times. a hard time finding where i belong. where life is taking me. where my next fork in the road is going to be. looking for answers. answers i don't even know have an answer to them. that is when you have to take a step back and look at yourself and life as a whole, not in peices. look at it that you are here. your alive. you are learning. you are experiencing. you are living. i have lived in three states now in 23 years and i don't want my number to stop there. i want to see the world. i want the world. i want to take it all in and carry it with me forever. in my mind, in my journal, in my photos. until then i am just living one day at a time. I like to be speratic. no plans. just doing. random living. That is how i have always been. there is a difference with having your life in order while living randomly and not being grounded at all while living randomly. i guess i am some where in between. stuck in the middle. i guess that is all part of being 23. to explain me a little bit more in depth, i am a photo nerd. a basment junky. a lab rat. my passion is in art. my main focus in photography. i love every art form and every medium that it takes to create that art. i may not be guru in all those mediums, but it is always fun to learn and expand your talents. beside photography my favorite mediums are those that are used to create my ceramics, sculptures, and jewelry. i also am very moved through dance and music. anything self expressed and mind seeking. i am proud of the work i do and like my style because it is 100% me. it is so nae nae. i do things to make myself happy and a few exceptions of my loved ones. like my friends. i would be nothing without them. in my line of work you have to be a risk taker and put your everything out on the line for everyone to see. your heart, your mind, your emotions, your soul, your all into your work. make it you. original. you always have to keep your media in mind though. you are not only working for yourself but you are working for them to get those dollars. you have to move the crowd but keep the you in your work, so you wont be a sell out or sell yourself short of standards we may be capable of. what is art if it doesnt come from inside of you. [words to the wise, sort of speak] there is always going to be some point in your life where all you have is your imagination, so use it. get creative in your own life, through what you like to do. let your self expression move you through life. life isn't always fun and games, but make your work fun. spice up your life where ever you go and color your world. make it your own and grap it with both hands because no one makes it out alive. i love the word bubble and all the things you can put with it. like bubble wrap. i love the big bubbles, but the little ones are entertaining and amusing as well. bubble baths. i love how my body gets pruney. bubble gum. even though i only chew it for like point two seconds before i swallow it. yeah that is my a.d.d for you. take the letters though and read them as add. like a plus. an addition to who i am. my a.d.d adds something to me. makes me who i am. okay side tracked. back to bubble gum. i swallow all my bubble gum unless it is mint flavored. i love to just blow and pop bubbles too. it brings a smile to my face. i love the smell before rain and i love the puddles the rain leaves behind. i love ohio skies with God as my favorite artist. perfectly blended colors that fade into one and other. i love the leaves in autum but i love the sky between the branches in winter. i love starry nights but i love nights clouds. i love the sun on my face but i love the pictures in a cloudy sky.i love how the wind can move you and be your music. the same goes for the waves or trickling water. i love how sand and the ground can be your sole of a shoe but any other time i always have my flop flops. the mystery of film. the instant result of digital. i will always take the mystery over instant anyday. i am a tea and coffee lover. i love facts. facts that no really takes the time to learn. ridiculous facts that put a smile on my face. like a slug has 4 noses. bring on the facts if you have any you think i may like. if i don't already know them that is.